Something is wrong with me.
How long will it take to straighten me out?
Do I even try?
A whole new year.
Where I say I can start over.
Be the person I -really- want to be.
This is where I repeat everything I've said the past three years or more.
All those words that enlighten, lift, encourage and give hope.
Just to have them shattered within the year.
I don't believe even myself anymore.
This'll be the year it changes.
I can't grasp the concept of this is who I am and all I'll ever be. As far as a career and education - I know this is as far as I get. But as a person with confidence, self-control, financial stability, etc. I kinda refuse to believe this is the end.
There's gotta be something or someone out there that gives me the courage and help to change. To be better. To be a better person. To excel, to continue, to..progress in a positive and healthy way...
There's gotta be something....