Listening to: Placebo - Running Up That Hill
"Whatever I feel like.... GOSH"
Yet another trip of stressfulness when continuing to look for another job.
Well, it was a nice stressless summer while it lasted.
Claine called me and suggested a job to apply for. Mainly for the pay, of course. I keep thinking to myself "I'm not looking for money, I'm looking for happiness, a bonus if money comes with it". Maybe I'm just naive or something. Working legal services with Farmers Insurance. Ugh. An insurance company. But yes, good pay.
Now I'm having dreams of being rich. I wonder what I'd do if I were rich (as in not living from paycheck to paycheck). Prolly the same thing I'm doing now. Still have my car...still have my computer...still live here...hmmm..I'd buy a new wardrobe for my new job... But thas about all I can think of...
Great even if I do get a better paying job I wouldn't know what to do with the money.
It would be nice to have a secret account that no one knows about....especially my mother. Everyone can judge me all they want, but they'll never know.
Is the money worth the stress of getting a new job, let alone giving time to actually see if I like the job? Sigh.
Do I have to go through this againnnnn... the months and months of looking and applying for jobs?
Can't I just....die of chocolate overload or something?
I don't wanna play this game anymore
It's no fun...
Life is haaarrrrddd.....