Well I have nothing intelligent to say so I’ll just "recap" events in the form of a couple of pages.
Saturday my car’s service light came on and I couldn’t figger out what it was. Gave me stress cuz the next week is when I start at Slick and am letting Loryn borrow my car. I didn’t want to give it to her if I thought there was something wrong with the transmission or engine. The ppl at Auto Zone were helpful cept for this one stupid boy. Anyways... I replaced some fuses thinkin that’d help the situation... nothing. I know my parking light isn’t working, but it hasn’t worked since I bought the car. Something is wrong with the wiring of that light or something. It has to be something small I figgered cuz its not the check engine light. But still a risk to keep driving it this way.
Mucho stress wondering what it is and not knowing how to solve it.
I feel like everything is falling apart quickly on me. School starting brings me some stress, new place, new people, new activity, new driving route, etc. Giving Loryn my car brings stress with my comfort zone leaving and driving a different, unreliable car, and hoping both parties will survive, esp if my car is acting up too. After a week of losing and thinking of the brown boy all the time - doesn’t help with the stress either. The fact that no one understands or even really cares that it hurts me to let him go after he finally started acting...like a human does not make me happy. At work I severed a client/attry relationship for the boss, which is uber hard to even do in my life and I’m supposed to do it for him now? And I was sad and mad that I failed the PSI Notary test. Pff. Am I that stupid I can’t be a notary?! And then the whole situation with my dad defending a felony against his own family doesn’t not help with anger issues.
All I can feel is stress and anger right now.
Well, I finally learned through Claine that my headlight is out. I feel dumb. Three days of stress and wondering. But I haven’t been driving at night, so I didn’t notice. So we replaced that and broke some other plastic pieces to hold the light in...so we wired the lightbulb in the headlight and called it good. So that’s fixed. Service light is off. Ready for Loryn to take to Provo. I love my car. (If I love it this much right now, how much harder is it gonna be when it dies or gets broken. :( sad day)
I texted Dallin asking if Loryn was bringing my jazz shoes to me on her way to Provo and when we trade cars. He said that Loryn changed her mind and is taking Moms car instead cuz theirs is unreliable for the time being (all the time) and that he didn’t know if my shoes were in the pile of stuff to go to SLC. It made me angry that he only gave me this info cuz I made contact with him first, and then he changes all the plans on me a day before it should go down. Sometimes that kid makes me angry.
But hey, stress should be gone now. And anger should simmer.
Life is good. I got my car to myself, all fixed up now. Did I mention I love my car? I like my job. I get to go and do something at nights now (school/dance). Its all good.
The future looks bright doesn’t it kids?
"Simmer down pumpkin, everything is gonna be alright."