Listening to: Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit
Yesterday all I did was shop online for Mothers Day stuffs. I got like 5 Mothers to shop for. I actually had ideas of what to get them! They never answer when you ask what they want. They never know or it's some huge project like "redo my kitchen" or "give me 2 grand" or "decorate my house" etc. All day shopping online and then like 20 minutes in the store to gather it all up.
Resa bought me some hair things that I think my Grandma would like. She has the big bulky hair clips to keep her hair out of her face when she gardens and stuffs and I think these will hold better and not hurt when she leans her head back against something. It's a long shot, but worth a try. I also got her a pink ice cream scoop. Hint hint. She's always needed one of those. I should get her ice cream with it.
I also bought Natalie a pearl headband. She likes pearl and it doesn't take a lot of time to put a headband in, so she can look nice on the go I suppose. Andd...if she doesn't want it I'll take it. :D
Mindy requested silicone spatulas. Really. I didn't know if she wanted wood handles, bamboo, plastic, or the whole thing silicone. So I bought a pink and purple all silicone spatula. And then a black silicone spatula more for like...flipping panacake with... Yeah. She doesn't want her utensils to melt apparently, silly her. I feel dumb just getting her that, but hey she asked for it.
For my Aunt Renee I bought her the game Sequence. Mother let her borrow my game of Sequence, of which I'll prolly never see again unless I buy her another one. I don't know if she'll just keep mine or if she'll want the new one. But it's the only way to get my game back!
And for my Mother I went shopping for her kitchen. Lots of red. I found a red kitchen mat. I'm not sure if she had a kitchen rug already or not, and I'm not sure it's the right color of red. I keep thinking about these bright red flowers painting on wood squares so I finally bought them to hang up around her cupboards. I know they are the right color, it's just getting her hang them up somewhere. I'm ready for Mothers day! I actually have something this time.
My latest with James is that he kept texting me asking me to forgive him. I asked if he was in New York. He said yes. I said Good. Stay there. He said Does that mean you don't forgive me?. (Here's yer sign) I said I forgave him but that doesn't mean I have to associate with him. I have to protect myself from the same behavior and treatment. He believes that to forgive means forgiving and being friends. (as if nothing happened) .... I don't usually befriend the people that wronged me... "I forgive you for raping me stranger, let's go have lunch some time!" yeah....not so much. If me wanting to protect myself makes him mad and think I'm a horrible person, then so be it. He really only wanted me to say it was okay so HE could feel better and HE could move on. He wasn't asking for forgiveness I learned, he's asking for permission. But like I told him, I got nothing to lose. Forgive or not, friend or foe, I aint losing anything. I don't have to do jack shit to please (forgive and befriend) the jackass that wronged me. I'm done with that shit. I ain't playing no more. All I have to do is forgive and move on with life. Smooth sailing. The rest is his problem. Power booster!
In other news, I'm going home this weekend and I have been nominated to take the two boys Brax and Cole with me to play at Health Days events. Greeatttt. Just greaattt. During the day is fine, it's the getting them to bed without their home, parents, and own bed that is the problem. And for me it's the getting up early in the morning. Other than that I just pawn them off on the Grandparents. But they do attach to someone for comfort zone aanndd the person just happens to be me. So it seems for Mothers Day I get to be a Mother and Mindy does not. This is not a good mothers day gift to me.