Listening to: Staind - So Far Away
My boss bought me Tinkerbell stuffs from Disneyland!! Do you know what this means?! Besides me totally loving random presents! The boss actually thinks of me as a person with feelings and not just a body that sits at the front desk who sucks his money! Mwhaha. I feel special. I got a lanyard and a pin of Tink and her fairy dust to stick on your clothes. Fun stuffs.
I just volunteered to scare ppl at the Nightmare Mansion in Taylorsville for the next two weeks. mwhahaha. I can't believe I did that. So excited. I think I'm shaking. I want to see the Mansion, but I dont want to pay and I dont have anyone to go with so ...I volunteered. Its only two weeks to dedicate out of my life. I think this'll be super fun. The joys of being free and single.
Sooo... awkward moments occurred while I was in ID also. John kept asking me to hang out with him and/or another date and then blurted that he liked me. As if it weren't obvious. I hesitated. How do you response to that? I told him I didnt like him...like that. But I wanted to hang out with him, but I couldn't hang with him under the pretense of him thinking I like him ...like that. I couldn't lead him on. And then he stopped...talking to me.
Again, the whole issue of singles wards that dont go from date to date to date, they go from date #1 to relationship or date #1 to awkward enemies that never speak again. Choose which one you want.... I opt out of the relationship. You can't ever be friends with someone first...or after. For some odd reason I seriously cant see myself holding hands with -anyone-, not even a daydream. So much drama after the first date.
My one date of the year was at the perfect season tho! And my yearly chance at a boyfriend was actually a non-creepy guy, an actual prospect! That's good news ....isn't it? Sigh.
It was fun while it lasted, but sometimes I feel like a semi-whore for taking up gifts or dates and then crushing them afterward. I'm wearing some stuff I made a boy buy me and then I crushed him later that week or something. I'm a horrible person, but they said they WANTED to do it. And in all fairness I did warn John that I wasn't ready yet to date him/waste his money on me, but he insisted and now he prolly regrets doing that!
I get to haunnttt. I get to haaunntt.