Listening to: Death Cab - What Sarah Said
We can prolly scratch that whole boyfriend and "relationship" thing.
Turns out he doesn't really consider it a relationship yet either he just didn't know what to call it...at the time, which is the same issues I had. So we're all good...knowing that we have no idea what this is. One day at a time...
So he showed up Vday on a white horse, so to speak, and I haven't really seen him since... He came over before Forum on Wednesday, we spent that time together. But this Tues and Thurs that he doesn't 'usually' have things planned...he seemed busy. I know he's hanging out with his best friend who happens to be a girl and thats cool with me but... he wont say anything about it, he wont talk about it... I'm cool with it and he knows that so whats the prob with just sayin "hey I'm gonna hang with her tonight".... its like a secret...thas not really secret... I asked what he did Tues and he said exercised. I know he exercised with Lacie, but he didn't add that part. And he never texts me when he's with her. Well he doesnt text me in general after work... So sometimes I think "Is this what he considers progressing to a relationship? He expects all this time away from me? This is normal to him? He'd be 'smothered' if he spent more then two days a week with me?" But I guess he's just having difficulties with two girls.
I guess he's never really had a girl that was comfortable with his best friend being a girl. He said he feels guilty hanging out with her and thinkin about me. Thas kinda weird. He doesn't seem to know how to split time between us. Typical boy. Can't handle two girls. I just feel weird about the fact that he has stuff to do and I'm just sitting at home waiting for him to have time for me. It feels like he's inserting me in his calendar every free time he has...as opposed to making time for me? Thus making me a slight burden? But would I be that important to him anyway?
So I went home the past two weekends and I invited him up the first weekend (less chaos/family) and he didnt come. He semi asked if he could come up the second week (more chaos but I could keep him away from it) and I was all for it and he never came. I told him the city was big enough I could keep him away/protect him from my rents or any family really. (side note: turns out he went up there all the time to hang with his best friend, but wont come for me?)
Now he's asking me if I'd meet his parents and go to lunch or breakfast with them the third week we know each other... He wouldn't go within a 50 mile radius of my rents and I'm supposed to sit down and eat and talk with his? And we're all so worried about being judged. News flash, they've already judged us and they havent even met us yet, why should we worry or care?