So the weekend of the whole July 4, 2011 celebrations began with Evan and I arriving at the Logan fireworks and my coolant spilling all over the parking lot once parked. It took me forever to leave the house, not because I wasn't ready or packed, but because I felt something bad would happen to cause me stress. But I knew I wouldn't find the source of the stress or bad feeling until I left my house. The only thing I could think of was my worries about leaving my scardy cat dog home alone with the fireworks going off all weekend. I did not recall my car overheating in stop-and-go traffic a few days prior to my weekend trip. I thought I had fixed that problem. Nor did I even fathom about the strain it would cause between the boy and I.
My car is my safety net, my comfort zone, slightly essential to getting to work and this family reunion this weekend. I was slightly upset and needed to sit down and breath and come up with a game plan. I was a lot calmer this time cuz I knew what was wrong and knew it was a somewhat easy fix, but it did not help that I was stuck on a hill, fixing it in the dark until well after midnight wondering if I'd get down. Well, the boy had a lil heartburn about me having to sit down and take a breather. He basically told me to get over it and lets get to the fireworks before it gets dark (before we're late). I know its not his car, not really his stress, he can get over it for a few hours while watching a firework show, but I cannot do that so easily. I wished like hell I could juss 'get over it'. I really did. What the hell. I pretended the best I could. But I was pissed. This kid has no empathy or sympathy for anyone not even himself sometimes.
Anyway, I took him to the fireworks so we wouldn't 'be late' and recruited my mom and brother to come help me put the coolant hose back on my car before it got too dark and so I wouldn't have to after the fireworks in the middle of the night while stuck with boy. I left boy on the hill with my family while we fixed the car which pissed him off. "You didn't even invite me to go".... "...why the hell would I?!" He didn't care about the car, he wanted to see the show, so I dropped him off and I fixed the car so we could go home after the show. Priorities here kiddo. That and I was pissed myself.
We got back juss in time for the show and my boy was no where to be seen. Whatever. So I curled up in my blanket and watched the show and thought of Kirri and texted her. Miss her on the 4th. And the finale basically he came over and sat by me. I'm sure he came back from his 'walk' long before, he juss didn't sit by me. Afterward we hiked back to the car and he said some things that I will never forget.
The car overheated again while idoling in line to escape the hill so we pulled over and hung out til the lines were gone, the car was cooled down, and the water we put in it settled. I couldn't take fighting with bf and the car dying at the same time, I juss couldn't. One of them has to break up with me or they both have to start loving me again. We made it to Wally World around 1am and bought more coolant (cheaper this time) and a flat screw driver in case/for when it happens again. Dead tired, but we had kinda made up a little bit. I was still uneasy about the things he said to me earlier and found it hard to be with him the whole time, but bed soon came and I was allowed to have emotion again without upsetting ppl.
The next day we had breakfast at the house and we all got to sleep in. He was pessimisstic about the car making it to Riverdale and I knew my car could do it. He made my car sound so bad and a piece of junk, but its a good car, juss has coolant hose issues... But I knew we could do it. So we piled in cars and headed up that way. LaDonna and her family stayed for the day (after staying in hotels in Logan) and then went home that night. Renee stayed for one night. None of her kids could come. Neal and Jed's family showed up and stayed the whole time. Ted and Diane were at the resort the night earlier with Shirley. And Grandma stayed the whole time. We had camp sites for trailers and tents and then an enclosed building with some AC for those that hide from the sun (Jannis).
It was super hot traveling and setting up stuff so swimming that Saturday was wonderful. We went down the slide a dozen times, we went from the 'hot springs' to the swimming pool but I generally liked the hot springs. There was a super hot one, a warm one, and then swimming pool. The place looked soo familiar and I can't remember why. I remember all my school friends being there tho, some type of school trip? Swim Day? Kirri remembers it too. But that was fun. I protected my shoulders this time and face when the boy wanted to lay out and "tan". Jannis made tacos for dinner. We had sandwhiches for lunch.
It felt soo nice when the sun started going down and going back into the warm pool. That evening we discovered how fast you can go down the slide on the paddle boards they have. Kinda scary. But super fun for awhile. Then we got bite by 'quitos and got dressed and played some games. We didn't have a lot of firewood nor many participants around the fire so the campfire part of the night went kinda fast. Roasted starbursts.
Diane and her girls were annoying as usual from the beginning and I had no desire to interact with them the rest of the time. I'm sure Jenna felt their baby wrath when they flocked her children and smothered her new baby and she was prolly glad to leave Sat night. But they left Sunday morning. I said bye to Diane. The boys whom I can tolerate didn't speak to me. Jed's family was good and fun. Neal got a lil' bit on my nerves with his 'teasing', but he usually does. But mostly it was me and the boy running around playing. Dallin and Dustin showed up Sunday afternoon/evening for dinner and bingo and split. Pooheads. Most of us came from SLC to camp and they can't even go 30 minutes to spend the weekend or one full day with us. Irked me.
Sunday I got to sleep in and eat breakfast and then we took off to Logan for Mitchell's baby blessing. We stopped by the house to take a shower first. Meanwhile I got a phone message the other night from Glen saying he couldn't find/see Max and he wouldn't come when he called. I figgered he was juss hiding from the fireworks. Glen called Min when I didn't answer. She came with the same conclusion. I tried calling him back but his phone was full of static. Weird. But kinda worriesome that Max wouldn't leave the house. Anyways, showed up at the church and found Amy and helped her get her boys in and sat down. Turns out Dallin was going to a blessing at the same time...and apparently the same church that I was going to. His friend Scott juss had a baby girl. I came for Mitchells, and he came for Oakland I believe her name was. Kinda interesting. I got to hold Amys baby boy and scare her other shy boy to death during the meeting.
Then we went over Merlin Olsen Park and had a luncheon. Kirri, Amy and Alicia were there. Paula, Emily and Brian's family came. Resa, Aubrey, Lisa, Me, Kellie & fam and their friends from the ward came too. It was fun catching up. I juss knew Kirri had come down for the weekend and didn't spend the 4th with me. I'm sure I woulda had more fun. But I got pictures and caught up with ppl and sweated badly before we headed back up to the resort.
We were tired and needed a Sunday nap and ended up sweating like pigs trying to sleep in Gpa's trailer for awhile. Dustin was already there, the boys using/breaking my rock band, and Dallin showed up a few hours later. We finally gave up sleeping. We went to play Bingo and ate moms 5 hour stew. I ate while Loryn and her sister did my hair in different ways and ended up with a french braid. I wish I could french braid on myself. Chatted with Dallin too. Played Bingo again after dinner with Billy and finally got a candy bar. Then they left soon after that. I don't remember what we did after that. Of all the entertainment/electronics we brought tho we didn't use any. I think he played his guitar while we sat in camp chairs. I brought more firewood so when it got darker we changed into warmer clothes and joined the campfire. Rachel used some mystic fire powder to make the flames turn different colors. I used my glow sticks and sparklers that night. Jed used his telescope to look at the moon and Saturn. That was cool. You could see the craters. Then they started getting ready for bed and leaving a few at a time. Boring. We sat and looked/waited for a falling star. Didn't see any and went to bed eventually.
Slept in again til 8 and...had a rough start to the morning. I watched the boy take down his tent cot by himself and drooled over his hotness. Still can't believe its been 5 months. But he seemed somewhat obnoxious in the morning and I was not in the mood to handle it. It seemed every time he touched me he was hurting me and he doesn't realize it so he doesn't stop. Grr. Anyways, ate breakfast and felt better. I wanted to go swimming again before we headed home. I felt so icky, sweaty and gross. But then I juss laid in the warm pool for like 1.5 hours. I didn't want to stay in there very long tho, wasn't in the mood. But I managed to get out when everyone else did. It rained while I was in there. Mmm smelled good, felt good. We were in there from 11:15 to like 12:45, got out and ate some sandwhiches Jannis made for us, and then we packed up and headed home. Paying for all of it was kind of a mess and I think they missed a few important things, but oh well. Its done and over.
We went back to Moms to help her unload and stuffs. I felt there was so much to do on a Monday in Logan and so many ppl to see and stuffs but we were juss so tired we juss wanted to go home and sleep and make sure Max was still around. So thats what we did around 3pm. And if we woulda had kids we woulda left a lot sooner than that. Ugh, I don't wanna be one of those ppl.
The boy fell asleep in the car. I drove home and took a shower and then went to bed for an hour. Woke up hungry and had glorified Mac and Cheese while he took the effort to go to the store and get ice cream and meat for his July 4th dinner. We finished the first season of Lost with a scared shaking dog inbetween us on the couch. The beginning of a long night. The fireworks didn't stop until like 1am and I was trying to sleep since 11pm. Max kept pacing on the floor, lay down til the next pop, jump up on the bed til the next pop, nudge me with his nose, jump down and pace, jump on me, lay down, nudge me with his nose, pace, all night long. There was a point there was nothing I could do for that dog to comfort him in any way. And I was too tired to really care that much. But we did stay home to be with him on the 4th, that was nice of us. So between the dog, the fireworks, and the heat I didn't sleep too much. Came to work this morning and the boss is still on Europe time so he thinks its about midnight now and he's getting sleepy.
Thus concludes my 4th of July weekend/family reunion in which I managed not to get any pictures of any of it. I got some pics of the baby blessing until my batteries died tho.