Super excited about the CA trip next week!!
I seem to have a slight fear with traveling with boy.....which seems like a lil' bit of Dallin and a lil' bit of my Dad in personality, that seems a bit discomforting. And another fear of Mindy being, well the Mindy I remember with constant stress, negativity, anxiety, lack of empathy, time and money, etc, COMBINED with her husband and his sarcasm I'm worried that I'll juss be a target of insults the whole week.
Now I have never been on a vacation that lasted a whole week, and even 3 or 4 days with ...certain people was a long enough vacation for me! But a week with my sis and husband? And all our personalities? Yeah having issues imagining that coming out wonderfully. Hence the fear of being the target the whole week.
But now thats just me being negative! I must have the attitude that I can deal/handle anything that comes my way! I will smile and nod when the boy shoves me in the car to get to the plane, and shoves me on and off the plane, and won't let me stop to look at anything along the way. I will smile and nod as he urges me to go and do certain things at certain times and we cannot be late no matter what I want or how I feel!
I will smile and nod and try to speak most maturely (meaning very little) with Min and Claine so they have the least amount of teasing ammunition. Not only their rude and insensitive comments toward me and who I am, but I also worry about the boy joining in with them leaving me feeling so very alone in a strange place. I do not wish to feel that way so far away from home.
And I will love and adore the children as always as they have no qualms with me. I cannot wait to see Coles smile again and hear Braxtons laugh.
I suppose I am also worried about Auntie Flow's visit during my traveling and visiting, it could go either way, good or bad for me. It usually gives me more energy and tolerance to endure such things better, but it could be painful and make me irritable and lethargic. So I pray it will be more of a help than a hinder. Hopefully I'll have all the emotions and cravings done this week and energy next week! Otherwise I might cry everytime I get insulted by my lovely sister/hubby and that would make it a loonng week for me.
But alas, I suppose the majority of these fears are left for me to attempt to control.