Listening to: Dashboard Confessionals - Rapid Hope Loss
June 1, Saturday I had the belated Mothers Day gift to Mindy and we went to get mani-pedis.
It took like three hours and we chatted away the four of us as we got our nails done.
And Mindy said they accepted the job in Maryland and they have to be out there by July 1, 2013. So she plans on moving this month. All the plans she had made for the month are probably all screwed up and she's going to be so stressed wondering if Claine will be there to help the family or not and all that jazz. Thats a big move. They are taking my only blood relative/niece baby girl and moving her on the other side of the U.S.!
Of course, with Mindy there the convo turned to children all the time if it wasn't about moving, and the two ladies working with us related to her of course. The older lady thought we were mother/daughter. Haha. Not that Mindy looks so old, but that I look so young. By the time we got to the pedicure we were running out of things to talk about. Mindy has so much on her mind now and she put so much on my mind there wasn't much to say anymore I guess....juss feelings and taking one day at a time.
I got super sparkly nails and they make me happy. Its almost silly how just doing nails could make you feel better. I did the brightest colors I could find and had my toes done two diff colors every other one. Yellow and orange. Mindy, of course, did the boringest colors she could find some type of pink/reddish and sky blue toes with some glitter on them, she was on the dangerous side there with the toes. We went for Jamba Juice afterward. I had a coupon. I learned so much from Mindy....
But all the talking with Mindy and knowing that she's moving away this month kinda made me depressed. I just felt....blah. Like what do I do now? I dunno. Makes me feel good that I didn't regret not doing anything with her in the few months she's been down here. I've been involved in their family as long as I could/can before they leave again and we can't do these things together anymore...
I hung out at the house wanting to see Maylee again. Soo cute. Then I took the cooler over to Gmas house and chatted with Gma a bit. I realized I hadn't eaten anything since breakfast at like 10am so I was starving. I picked up Evan and we went to Sizzlers and gorged til we hurt.
We watched a movie on his Netflix and fell asleep on the bed. My leg was hurting me for some reason and I couldn't sleep very well. I woke up the millionth time at like 5:30 and the birds outside were so loud and wouldnt shut up! I got annoyed at not sleeping and being in pain and all that jazz and just got up and left. I went home and finally got some peaceful sleep. Cassie and her friends were still around (Saturday they went to Lagoon and still making noise outside my door) Apparently her friends stayed overnight... when I didn't come home... It was a weird Sunday.
Cassie got up and went and played with her friends while they were still in town. And I went to church. It felt weird. I didn't want to go. There were so many ppl now with combined ward. I felt like I didnt belong again. I didnt want to go to the other classes. I asked Evan if he went to church and he said no, he went to the pool. Weird day. I just wandered around the church until I finally left. I dont know whats wrong with me. I've been thinking about breaking up with Evan and Mindy leaving too much I guess. Stresses and depresses. I went home and laid down for an hour.
When Cassie came home with her friends again I got up and went to pick up Evan and headed over to Gmas. I felt a bit better by then, but still didn't want to talk much or anything... I just watched Maylee attack her parents' plates of food. After dinner I helped a bit but ditched them and went out to play with Maylee. Mindy was asked if "she loved the mani-pedi" cuz Jannis loves them. She, of course, has to answer honestly while I'm sitting right there. That girl can't lie to save her life, not even to make a friend, or keep a relationship with a sibling/friend. She didn't really enjoy it. She liked the pedicure and thas about it even though she was falling asleep through it. Why do I attempt these gifts of love toward her? I think to myself.
By the end of the day I felt better I guess, not so depressed. We went back to his place and facebooked and watched youtube videos until bedtime.