hmm well i went to see chris this weekend =D and we did lots of stuff that i've never done before lolz and it was really really fun but now i miss him realy really bad =/ and i dont get to see him for another month so i think im going to go crazy but y ea its really cool that fernanda and beau and going out too cuz i've always wanted that =D lol like one of my best friends to be going out iwth my bf's best friends yea so whatever im happy with life =D mmmm prety sure thats it.. school sucks ass lots of shit to do i hate it =/ and i still cant find a pretty dress for chris's homecoming its bothering me ! ahh lol so yea thats my life <3

so yea amhs sucks ass i hate it so much and i hate the fucking bitchy little rich girls that are like "omg i'm getting a pink bmw when i turn 16" or "omg my mom just bought me a new plasma tv for my room" or "omg i just got these new coach shoes they're really cute and they only cost $200 dollars" blah blah blah i get wahtever i want and i wont ever have to work for anything in my life arg i hate them all i think i seriously will go the school one day with a shotgun seriously i hate south florida im moving FAR FAR FAR away after college arg so yea i have ferdi left thats it natalies cool but shes always hanging out with her spanish friends that dont like me and jaime totoally ditched me this year i guess i should be used to that by now and alyssa is in western so i never EVER get to see her =( and ferdi's cool but i think beaus more important to her then me which is cool lol so chris is the one ALWAYS there so i love him for that and i'm going to his homecoming =D so excited!! annnnd i think ferdi's going up there next weekend but i duno if im gonna go with her yet cuz i dont want to like intrude and i think her and beau deserve some alone time =D so yea mmmmm lifes pretty good if only i could move to cocoa =(

kay so i duno wtf is going on with my sitD its like .. i cant sign in on the 1st page but if i type sitdiary.net/woundedheart2 and then type in my pw it works..whateve its weird so yea mmmm i went on a week long trip with tofer which was amazing and we spend every second of everyday together and today is our 2 month anniversary =D yayyy lol andddddddd i miss him like shit and i hope he misses me too school starts thursday =( blah i kinda want it to come cuz now i have nothing to do all day cuz chris already started school so i dont get to talk to him =( but i dont want it to come cuz i hate school lol and i hate stupid little bitchy rich private school kids arg anyways i guess ill get used to it ill write back later EVERYBODY SAY HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND CHRIS IF YOU SEE US =D

hmmm sooo bipolor week my mom cancelled the nasa/tofer trip and i cryed and then she put back on the nasa/tofer trip so im happy and we got a hotel on the beach and fernandas coming =D and its gonna be AMAZING!! and i got like all my friends back cuz i talekd to them, especially alyssa and she said the only reason she was mad was cuz i talk about gaby and my problems with him too much so now that im over him its all good =D WOOT oh yea and i talked to him too and he said hes in love with patricia which is good cuz thats just what he deserves and slutty bitchy druggy whore =D anywayssssss my dady got me a car =D its a green eclipse... and its AMAZING and i loooove it anddddd life is SWEET!!! 2 more days till summerrrr cant waitttttt going to lunch with buttons and fernanda and prob. mari on thursdayyyy woootttt cheesecake FTW!!! lol lataaaazzzz p.s. a boy named christopher stole my heart =D he he

well i havnt written in a while and lots of stuff has been going on tofer and i are AMAZING and hes so adorable and i like him alot ALOT andd yea me and mari are going to the tbs concert =D AMAZING we're gonna steal adams shoes =D lol ummmm im deff. over gaby majorly and pretty much never want to see him again in my life he loves natalie and i think shes starting to like him which is kinda gay but w/e im used to it he's always liked my friends as long as i dont have to deal with him im good sooo yea... ill write back in like a week or so.. LATAZ

this weekend was fucking crazy and amazing mostly crazy lmao well first my dad came over and i was like arg cuz he always makes me go places and we were fighting cuz of tofer and whatnot then my new furniture came and my dad was like lets go to tampa to look at cars so we went to tampa and we got into a car accident but it wasnt our fault like we were stopped at a red light and the guy behind us like didnt stop and yea my back hurts really bad sooo my dad wants to sue the guy and w/e so the whole weekend i was talking to tofer and he was like yea im going to bush gardnes and i was like k ill meet you there SO I MET TOFER and hes really cool so now im home tofers being emo cuz we can like NEVER see each other my dads really fucking angry and we're all hurting lol so yea good weekend eh?

omgz omgz so so so i talked to him till like 1 am last night and it was amazing the whole time we were like ARG WHY DO YOU LIVE SO FAR AWAY and he is ADORABLE!!! arg like he was like your perfect and i was like your perfecter and he was like LIES lol and then he said he missed me and we havnt even met =( but it was still cute i get to see him over summer im excited =D NIKKI HAS BUTTERFLIES

so so i think i finally got over gabwiel and and i found someone SO PERFECT FOR ME but as usual i found something i cant have =( and he lives 2 hours away by NASA and ARG! hes SO PERFECT I WANT HIM TO LIVE RIGHT NEXT DOOR TO ME SO I CAN GO VISIT HIM EVERYDAY =( but hes amazing and i told him i have a crush on him today and you know waht he said YOU KNOW WHAT YOU KNOW WHAT! he said "lol i feel the exact same way about you" AND OMG I ALMOST DIED =D so i guess for now we're just gonna talk everynight till 12 untill one of us gets a car? and gas money? any other suggestions?

wow ok i havnt written in a very VERY long time so yea things are great =D i hung out with alyssa yesterday and it was so much fun i missed her so much lol anndddd me and tofer are really good AND HES COMING TO SANIBEL WITH ME FOR A WEEK IM SO EXCITED OMGZ mmm i talked to gaby yesterday? and he did the usually make me hate myself thing that i promised i wouldnt let him do but w/e and aparently hes going out with patricia AGAIN good for you guys =D mmm im not saying anything mean about either of them anymore cuz they're both great ppl i just tend to get on peoples bad sides mmmmm yepp I SAW PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN AND IT WAS FUCKING AMAZING AS HELL but maybe thats just cuz johnny depp is my hero lol mmmmmmmmmmmmm i think thats it =D ill try to update more i guess even tho im pretty sure no one cares =D yepp yepp HAGS KIDS

holy crap i cant belive its a month already it feels like me and tofer have known each other forever but it feels like he asked me out yesterday =D i guess time flys when your in love lol so so we're working on plans for him to come spend a week with me in sanibel by ourselves on the beach =D *wink wink* lmao no my whole familys gona be ther and he might bring his i duno but i really hope he can come cuz i its so amazing when we're together lol and todays the tbs concert =D wooot my 2 loves on the same day it couldnt get better =D

3 months =D on the 12th lol im a little late =D i dont really updatee =(

well this weekend fernanda and i went to cocoa beach to hang out with beau and chris (aka tofer) and ALOT OF STUFF HAPPENED 1st day: beach ALL DAY spend half of the day blowing up a raft thennn the boys came we all went to the beach and WE ALL WERE ON THE RAFT lmao it was sweeeet =D 2nd day : beau and chris got grounded we went to the mall then fernandas tummy hurt REALLY bad so we took her to el hospital annnnd they told us she had to have surgery =(((( but it was like laser stuff so it was like REALLY fast and she was fine the next day and i was like woah.. i got kinda cranky from being in a hospital all day and i think i made fernanda feel worse instead of better =( im a horrrrrible friend but i love you fernanda and im SO glad you dont have to bring aleve everywhere now lol 3rd day: i wanted to surprise fernanda and bring beau and chris to come see her but she killed it and wanted to surprise me instead and was like "nicole im coming to the hotel they let me out" and i was likE WHAT NO STAY THERE and beau and chris came to the hotel and we drove to the hospital and they let her out and her parents let her come to the kenedy space center with us so yea we were there all day with beau and chris and it was super super funnn and me and chris had our first kiss =D and it was cute but i think we pissed off beau and fernanda cuz we were all over each other so we drove home had diner and went to the pier and beau and fernanda went off holding hands i duno what happened with that but me and chris had our alone time =D *wink wink* lol 4th day: we all went to chris's house for a forth of july pool party/bbq thing and to watch the space shuttle launch and we met lee and utt and joe and yea beau and fernanda got closer and me and chris were teh adorableness and chris's parents are so nice i like them alot alot so yea we ate and sat around a little and somewhere i nthe madness my camera broke but w/e i have some pics which is good and then we went and watched the shuttle launch and it was sweeeet and then i drove home and i was emo the whole time and zoned out and almost got us killed =( but over all it was an AMAZING trip and i duno what im gonna do without them cuz they're amazing kids i like them alot they deff beat the crap out of most boys down here =( i wish they were here ahhh withdrawl /cry i think i most deff am in love with christopher hes the sweetest most amazing boy =D and and i duno what im gonna do without him i miss him so much already =(

sit diarys gay now it used to be a place when i could let out my REALLY emo side and people would leave me nice comments wiht advice now all i get are bitchy comments from ppl i hate or get yelled at for showing my true emotins so im taking my comments off friends only if you people have something to bitch about feel free im probably not gonna write much more in here that you can bitch about anyway so have fun have a nice life i know i wont