yes bouncy is how i feel. i feel up i feel down a lot. i go to sleep early but keep waking up non stop due to very bad dreams. Im going to start taking my pills again. everyone tells me to. and maybe that will keep the lows away. atleast help a bit. anyways, the finer things in life i guess ha. ummm yes me and matt are officially through although i do just wish we could be friends but that would not be for atleast a few years or when he gets his shit straight...hmm haaaaaaaaaaaa. so he keeps trying to make me jealous or something, but why do i care? I dont. so beth is coming over sooon and were going to my moms work to tan. that should be fun. iv been hanging with zacks younger cousin ryan who is very nice and fun to hang out with as well as beth and tyler. brady sometimes but he always has the kids.

As for future life. im rollin it. i watched some people on tv that bought a bus and went to california to start life. i would like to do something adventurous and find where i would be the most happy. school is something i am most deff goin to do. either 2 or 4 not sure but i would love to be a dnr. i went horseback riding the other day and it was so great i felt free for a bit. kind of let the horse do what he wanted and he took me for a quick run wow it was so great. i want to do valley fair again soon. maybe sam would go.! i could ask beth and possibly zack and shawn if matt wasnt around. he text me and told me he is leaving this morning.

hmm. yah............. uh huh............ broke up with my boy last night so i went to the club. throwed on a fresh white dress an a mini coop sittin on dubs. im just looking for somebody to talk to and show me some love. If ya knowwwwww what i mean.

pretty much............. im living life day to day.