Summer, Winter, Spring, and Fall I'll be around to catch ya calls Cause you're my baby, you're my baby And I adore you* Well I'm kind of hoping that since all of my friends are myspace losers along with me that nobody really reads this anymore. I need somewhere to write down what's on my mind and at least feel that it's safe. Nowhere in my house is, after Tom stole my notes and mom read the diary. So anyway, I'm starting to realize that I have only a few close friends. Jen and Rob are the only ones that I know I can definitley count on. They both mean the world to me and I would be lost without them. Chelle and I just aren't that close anymore, and I want to distance myself from Dylan so I don't break his heart. Is that wrong? I haven't figured that out for myself yet, but it's what I'm going to do anyway. So there's this girl by the name of Megan.. and I'm really beginning to actually hate her. Best friends from Kindergarten til forever right? Uhm no. And I'm just sad that it took until I'm a junior to realize how much she annoys me. What kind of a person can be nice to your face on Friday, then flip out on you Saturday night? She doesn't know anything about me anymore, yet she judges me on the actions she sees in the limited time we're in each other's proximity. It's so frustrating that I can almost see the thoughts about me whirling around in her head knowing that I can't stop it. Sometimes I just want to take her by the shoulders and shake her. Enough about Megan, I don't want to ruin my night. Oh wait, already ruined by my inability to actually get to any of the plans I make. Three weeks in a row, my Saturday night has been ruined by my mother, who I still have to rely on for a ride. License in three days, as long as I learn how to park tomorrow. Okay tired now. Sweet dreams..♥ Next entry will be the boy entry.. how exciting =p

Wow I've missed sitDiary! I'm a myspace loser now, but on there you don't really meet random people and get to be your friends on there. This is such a close community... it's great! ___♥ So there's been a lot of boy drama... =/ Rob and I are over, and everyone's saying that I broke up with him for Eric. I really didn't, and I hate that I broke his heart. I do miss him, but it really was time for me to move on. I've also been thinking about my dad a lot lately. And as much as it kills me to say it, I think I finally have to admit it... I miss him like crazy. I was his little girl... I truly did idolize the man. He's the one that made me into owho I am, every part of me. He's the reason I love to fish, be in the woods... he's the reason I don't trust anyone else. I heard the song "Because of You" earlier this week (and this is going to sound very cliche, but still...) and it completely summed up my mind. As much as I hate what he did to my family, I can't hate him. Okay now that I've spilled my guts out, I guess it's time for me to go take my pills. My wisdom teeth got taken out today and I'm doing okay, but still not great. I really missed Sit! I'll definitley have to start updating more often =] ♥♥

So the day after my wisdom teeth get pulled I decide to go on a mini road trip. Yupp, if you're thinking I'm a wee bit stupid you've probably surmised correctly. At noon I went to Honesdale with Mommy and Tom. First I got to watch Josh get a haircut then Tom got one. He thinks it's uneven but it really really isn't, but I told all of his friends to make fun of it today anyway :p Anyway then we went and got me a new pair of glasses... contacts are so overrated. It's so annoying to put them in and take em out all the time! But anyway, Eric was supposed to pick me up at 3:30.. then it got moved back to 4:00.. then finally 4:15 because the lady checking us out in Wal-Mart was sooo incredibly slow. And even though I kept moving the time back he still got to my house before me =x So I took my pills then we went up to the Petersen's before heading out to the Haunted House thing. We had 6 people in the car so the backseat was nice and cozy =) Well I was comfortable anyway, Trisha was on Dan's lap so I don't really know how they felt! We were almost there and all of a sudden Deeana started wondering if me and Eric were actually a couple. That was only awkward times a million! We just kinda looked at each other then I was like sure =) So now it's official I suppose lol. It was really cold and not scary at all so pretty much it was a long time of Eric keeping me warm. Which I so loved =D Then we went to Pizza Hut, where I managed to force down two slices even though my gums are stiched to my cheeks. Go me 8) Anyway then we went home and he kissed me goodnight and that was the end of Saturday. Sunday I cleaned. Big time. I almost got the upstairs totally cleaned out :-o For the people that have been up there before, you know what a big job that is! But yupp I should finish today before Eric comes over, then we're gonna watch a movie then maybe carve pumpkins =p It's so nice to have a boyfriend with a car that wants to come see me!! To do list: Clean out upstairs. Clean out room. Clean out keyboard. Vacuum. Oh boy, what a wonderful day off from school this should be! Comments = ♥

You scored as Hot. Haha! u are so hotttttttttt!Hot80%Jock67%Geek/Nerd67%Prep53%Emo Kid47%Punk33%"Ghetto"20%Loner20%Goth13%Stoner13%What Highschool Clique Do You Belong To?created with QuizFarm.com

I didn't realize it was September 11th til I saw the date on this thing. Wow. So umm yeah, I never update anymore. Well school sucks. Crazy hard and I'm gonna be a loser and fail everything. Oh well, what can ya do. I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight, it's only you and me I love that song. Okay well I don't know what to write. Chelle's here. That explains the title. Goodbye =]

Hmmm so it's been a while huh. School started on Monday. Ehhh. It's been good I guess, lots of classes with friends and stuff, but it's gonna be really hard. I have honors history, english, and FST, plus organic chemistry with all seniors, and anatomy and physiology as an extra science, and spanish II. I think I'm out of my mind. So yeah, I definitley can't wait for the weekend! Friday night I have to work, which sucks soo much cause I can't get my phone fixed or go to the football game. Saturday I'm either working overtime at the court office or hangin in Hancock =p But definitley movies Saturday night. Sunday I think I'm going to Carousel park... I think. Maybe a campout Sunday night with the girls cause I miss them ♥ Aww Dylan just called cause he was bored. How nice. =] Anyway, I don't know why I outlined that all, I think it was more for my benefit than for y'all out there reading it. Oh well. Yeah I'm boring, sorry bout that. My brainpower is at 0 right now. So I'm out. ♥

Just covering my ass in case you can still see private entries from friends lists. That is all. =]

You are Trisha. Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you? brought to you by Quizilla

So I'm with Rob now. 8.19 I'm so happy! =] "What's the difference between chocolate and vanilla?" I don't know Chelle darling whore, you tell me. Well I don't really know what to write in here. I've been working 8 hours all week and it sucks. Except for Tuesday and Friday, they were good cause I was alone in the office =] That's how this Tuesday is gonna be too, yessss! Maybe I'll use the boss's desk ;] So the whole family came up today to look for my missing uncle. We didn't find him, but then again I didn't expect to in the first place. He'll be found when he wants to be found and we cant do anything about it. So I have another week working at the court then I'm done there and I get trained to work at the store. I'm so glad I'll be making some money now that I have insurance to pay =[ That's all the typing I have in me for now. Leave the love kiddos ♥

So I did the layout over. You like? I do. Work tomorrow, I'm the only one in the office. Come visit me ;] I'll probably be on AIM all day. IM me --- x3 mon amour x3 That would be nice. Happy Birthday My Jenny Darling ♥

Part Expert Kisser You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettablePart Free Love Kisser Of all the kissing types, you've racked up the most experience Kissing is no big deal to you - you'll kiss anyone you find hot! It's easy for you to take the plunge and make the first move. And you don't really consider kissing to be cheating! What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Right now I don't really know what I'm doing. I need to make up my mind though, and very soon. In other news, I figured that I should probably update today because it's the last day this month where all of the dates start with zeros. And I find that very amusing. I feel like I've grown up a lot over this past year. I don't know why, but the way I think and feel and act is more mature. I think so anyway. And wow, today you made me rethink myself. ♥ Well there is totally nothing else to write. I'm going to do another private entry though. This is the most I've ever done. And I think that's a bad thing =/ Sneak ♥

I'll have to update more often. I went to Chelle's Friday night. That was fun ♥ I got woken up at 7 by boys driving on her lawn and screaming. Oh how wonderful they are ♥ Already playing beer pong at 9 in the morning. Then later Saturday I went to Stacey's and hung with everyone. ♥ My friends rock. Sunday I was lazy. Like usual. And today? No different. Still lazy. I had a fight with my naked brother over a fan. In the wee hours of the morning that is. So glad I'm blind without contacts. Comments? Sneak ♥

I never knew Hitler was Catholic... ADOLF HITLER himselfAchtung! You are 61% brainwashworthy, 45% antitolerant, and 66% blindly patriotic You probably you lack the charisma and intelligence to be Hitler himself, but then again, who knows? You've got a few of the necessary traits, at least. You are crazy, nationalistic, and more proud of your background than you should be. Right now I am breathing a big sigh of relief that you don't live in Germany in the 1930's, although I guess things couldn't have gone any worse than they did, even with your help. Maybe all this energy that you feel right now could be directed to an end less evil? Are you a Police Officer? Not in my town, I hope. Sadly, you exceeded expectations on all 3 indicators. Deutschland: Uber Alles! My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 93% on brainwashworthy You scored higher than 65% on antitolerant You scored higher than 80% on patrioticLink: The Would You Have Been a Nazi Test written by jason_bateman on OkCupid Free Online Dating Hmmm... fuckable is a good thing... " The good fuck"You are 72 fuckable! You're about as fuckable as most people, which is not bad. Actually, it's quite healthy! You know how to act and what's appropriate. You know when it's the time and place for what. And people can use that to see you erotically. It's no surprise that you can attract a good number of people. You're what they want! A realistic babe who knows when to get a bit wild! Yeah, I'd fuck you! My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 69% on humpersLink: The how fuckable are you? Test written by ShizzleBitch on Ok Cupid But slutty is bad...

Damn you myspace. Not letting the music work. Gaargh. My two favoritest guy cousins declared that I am a loser last night. They said that I have only two friends. Screw that This is the closest I've been to my friends in a long time. I love you all so freaking much. ♥ I'd be lost without you all. In other news... I don't make up my mind easily. I can't decide what I want. So in the end the only person that screws is me. I always miss out on great opportunities. Why should this one be any different? Stay tuned. Sneak ♥

Haha, all the numbers in the date start with zero. How amusing. Today I babysat. Which is good, cash = love. But I got a headache. And she wouldn't pay me when we played monopoly. I so whooped her ass. But what can you expect; She is only seven after all. Then I drove to Honesdale. I don't think I like to drive too muchly. Well with my mom anyway. Ugh. There's nothing to write. Oh yes, my uncle might still be in town, just leaving his wife. I don't blame him. She's half deaf and retarded on top of it. Comments? ♥

Chelle came over yesterday. Just to eat my pumpkin pie and use my internet. But that's okay. We went picture crazy. I felt pretty. Yay. She slept over. Today we went shopping. Nothing too exciting there. Chelle decided that my big toe is too big. "You have such big feet." Why thank you my dear. But I did buy fuzzy slippers. And saw Alli. Yay ♥ I had something on my mind all day. ♥ That's all for now. Check my myspace for more pics soon. Including Chelle singing into a hairbrush. Sneak ♥

I worked today. It sucked. But what else is new? I did warrants. It's cool to do them for people I know. And would like to get revenge on. I swear that I put today's date in over 100 times. It got very old very fast. Then I went to Chelle's. Big freakin woot. Not really. She watched TV. And wouldn't switch to the Yankees at all. So I got a headache. And went home early. And now I'm further aggrivating my head to post. Oh yeah, and there is still no sign of my uncle. He's missing you know. ♥ Sneak

I am Dylan's Goddess. ♥ I just can't wake up this morning. Ugh. && don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet I hope I'm going to Chelle's tonight and hanging with her and Dan. I don't like staying home. I have to work today. Trisha is going to the beach for the weekend with Mike. I want to go to the beach. She'll probably text me while I'm working. Just to rub it in. Rawr. ♥ Sneak

I actually had fun today. Wow. Ohhh yes, the title. Betty made it up. Not me. I'm not complaining though. && i hope you know you mean the worldto me Addie saw my underwear today. =O But then they were so pretty I had to show Megan the rhinestones. What a whore. I drove home. And now I'm talking to my favorite person of the moment ♥ But now I'm going to bed. I was up too late last night. And it so was not worth it. They say that it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. They must have never loved. Sweet dreams. Sneak ♥