yeah so. yeah. graphic design still sucks. i can't believe i remembered this login shit. but anyway.. this weekend was fuckin weird. 2006 in general has been pretty fuckin weird. my bag smells like bongwater. which sucks cuz i'm at school. i went to st. pete's randomly for ice cream yesterday. turns out it was the last day they're gonna be open. forever. & i've been going there since before i can even remember. but rosie [the owner] said she might be open today, so i'm gonna try to make kevin go there again. oh yeah plus i lost someone that means a lot to me yesterday, & it's all my fault. :[

sittin in art tryin not to eat my pot lollipop yet.. its hard.. i got like mugged by about 4 homies on the way here haha woop woop fuckin stoners :p

wow life sure is sucking right now. 1. wayne died on saturday. that is so unbelievably sad.. fucking moron had to go and leave like that.. the viewing is tomorrow. i dunno if i wanna go.. 2. my mom is being a crazy bitch as usual and keeps threatening me.. laast night she 'grounded' me from going to school but i got out of that shit cuz i pointed out how stupid that is.. 3. andi likes timmy. timmy likes andi. they make out as much as possible. yay...:[ 4. everybody changed in the week i was gone. i missed so much.. i feel so out of the loop.. 5. i didnt sleep at all on saturday and sunday night was spent bawling my eyes out. i feel really bipolar.. one minute im fine and the next i wanna kill the world.. theres more but ive been too personal as it is..

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WELLL tonite will be fun.. had some decentness goin on lately... and dave partridge can rot in hell. sorry i ever thought i loved ur dumb fuckin shit face thats full of shit u fuckin hypocritical pillhead. peaceeee.

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"im listed under juggla ull find my name if not then ur dictionary is LAME." yeahh timmy kinda kissed me today? hes fuckin hott dude.. oh man.. [/edit] ok i took this idea from andi..who i know took from someone else. Pick 14 friends and write something to them anonymously. 1. lets see.. so many fuckin good times.. ur my fuckin best friend and thats why ur number one! and thanks for pricing me at $17. u got the 6? [yeah u got the 0?] [yeah u got the 1?] yeah then gets get to headquarters and check in with agent 12 so we can get from point a to point b! [aight!] haha love uuuuuuu. 2. my baby girl numero 2. i love u and there has been so much freshness with u involved.. if it werent for u i would still have my dignity goin to frolics [hehe valentines day] woop woop! thanks for errthang.. all the greatness in ur room back in the fuckin day.. the shed etc.. ur a crazy cool chicka who introduced me to space ghost [thank u]. feel better :] 3. hmm well u sure are awesome all the time. with a dead on barry white impression [with the can of love] and all that greatness. u make me feel like i suck as an artist but thats cuz i do hehe.. i will never forget how people just BLOW their money away and i will never look at a beanie baby bear the same again. DADA ROCKKKS!! 4. i love you i love you i love you. i said it 3 times cuz only a million more and ill almost have said it enough.. i dunno what i did or why u did that shit but if i could redo it this past summer would have been perfect. and ill say it once more.. i love you. 5. i miss u :[ i miss all the fun times we had. i miss the chocolate milk in the fire extinguisher. i miss that day u almost died in my basement. i miss the drawings u used to give me. i miss the days of blazin.. i miss u so fuckin much it hurts. and yet i still see u everyday. suddenly i fuckin hate ur girlfriend. even though im kinda the reason u guys know each other. my fuckin brother: heart u like one anyway.. 6. DUDE why did u have to leave.. so many boring days.. yet they were fun cuz we were all there as the CLICK. u ruined that song for me but its ok cuz u got pretty good at it. ur dad drives like a fuckin maniac in his big white van.. i hope life where u are is amazing cuz i know it isnt the same here without u. 7. u called me a reject today but i think ur a moron cuz someone awesome loves u so fuckin much and u keep tryin to get with beat ass smuts and juffalettes and its not fair. whatever.. follow ur dreams cuz u got talent kid. get the hell out of that town and be something. [i say this and yet i try to get u out of going to school like every time] 8. ur not who i thought u were. period. 9. thanks for the ninja star. 10. eat snow bitch! roll fatty! say hi to srbd for me. hmm u get guys callin u from germany. im jealous. even though he looks funky without any hair.. hheeehe. um lots of crappy times at school but out of school was pretty fuckin cool. ur a communist. 11. ur really really really really hot u sexy mofo/bitch. im gonna moleste u. 12. what up juggalo!!! good fuckin times at various places.. and i cant believe u were the same thing as me for halloween :/ but its cool cuz ur fit for it hehe [NOT A DISS] u got a lego-man haircut still. u need to cut that shit. peace out homie. 13. ur a fuckin stalker. get the hell away from me. hahaha im just playin fucknuts. fun shit in ur room. i cant believe u still have that card up. its old. and stale. 14. ur a crizazy crackhead dude. and u never even hang out with me. and u never spell my name right motherfacko. but its cool cuz u gave me a cd like a million years ago. uh.. stop hangin out on main street.

i got married last night.. grrrrr.. sigh....boys... sittin here in graphic design. i wanna kill my bio class and my govt class. especially that ben. he must die. somethin is standin in between me and my sanity.. ok well i really gotta go to the bathroom. that sucks huh.. [/edit] audrey just said this.. SHADYBABY12: well just think....he doesnt have teeth like that clown and doesnt have a tongue like gene simmons...soo nuthin could be scarier than a mix of that HAHAHA SHES SO FRICKIN COOL

yeah imma go watch dickie roberts now.. [/edit] that movie is effing lame.. dont watch it. yeah but i was goin thru the tool drawer [..?] & found some crazy deelies that fit in my ears, and some 7/16ths and i knew right then and there that my family should NOT have a "tool drawer".. we are so stupid were gonna like drill our faces to things. and stuff. "anybody say fuck me? everybody say FUCK YOU!" ^mmm feel the wrath of the tech n9ne goodness.^ its been 4 days since i took my meds. see how crazy ill be tomorrow. see it. imma go finish that bottle of cm from last nite. oh ho ho and i think i just served out my appointment with the madevil. fuckin righteous? peace. emalie

i really need a cigarette... grrrrrr... i just went a-shoppin and bought 2 24 packs of faygo. redpop and moonmist. yeah the good shit. mary wanna what? heres a conversation i had with my mom: "ma look stephan gave me his art project.." -"it looks like satan. wait let me see it again." "no ma! it means a lot to me cuz he made it!" -"i dont care! im a dumb bitch who buys fur coats for no reason! GRRR!!" ..ok maybe i made that last part up.. peace. emalie

my best friend had like a breakdown. my ex-boyfriend is suddenly being really nice and gave me his art project that he spent all year so far on. i got beat (senseless?) by two homies with blunt tubes for like 3 hours. my mom is crazy again and went and bought me a computer? yeah pretty weird day yesterday ehh..

im really freakin bored and we get too much time to do projects in here. ahh high school. mmm triple stacks. i smell white out..?.. heres some lyrics! yeehaw!! icp- "in my room" 2:45 and the bell went off, thank god many people think im odd but i talk with no one and i walk alone and i avoid the sunlight with a chalky tone i get home, and i dont say hi, it aint no one there i dont care, i walk in and go right up the stairs to my room, get in bed, and just wait for dark cuz thats when the real show starts tap tap! on the glass go the piece of ass so young and pretty, its too bad she passed but she comes to my room and we talk at night shes demonic and bloody but she holds me tight in my bedroom with her, im never alone and i kiss her cold lips until the morning comes then shes gone, i can still hear her voice loom but she only exists in the dark of my room (chorus: 2x) love.. (i cant ignore you) in my room.. (do anything for you) tap tap! love.. (i do adore you) in my room.. you and i.. (tap tap go the piece of ass) i try to smile a lot but im always frontin but i do love a ghost and at least thats somethin she dont talk much and when she do it gets cold usually we just lay there and hold each other we're lovers, we dont need others one of my mothers cats jumped up on the covers and it scared my baby, guess she dont like pets so i twisted its fuckin head off at the neck look baby, its bloody, its gone, its doomed please! come back to the room ill do anything for thee, dont ignore me this is more than a sick love story without you, id bring a shotgun to school and i will if you want me to, for any reason i hate that you leave when the lights come on and if i had it my way the fuckin sun would be gone (repeat chorus 2x) sometimes i kiss her, i start shakin she slips me the tongue and it tastes like bacon uh-oh somethings wrong, babys upset she told me she was spotted by the neighbors kid she cant come back now cuz they know our secret unless i can make them keep it if i do, she might come to life now im in their yard with a shotgun and knife cut the screen, went in and found the kid blew a bowl of spaghetti out the side of his head the daddy was next, runnin down the hall i shredded his throat and he was quick to fall tossed the mossberg and gripped the knife started stabbin the shit out of his wife went home a bloody mess with a job well done washed up and wait for my baby to come (chorus 2x) i waited 2 or 3 days, 4 days waited for the tap tap like always i waited and hated cuz i created a bloody mess i waited 2 or 3 months, 4 months waited for the tap tap just for once i waited and hated cuz i created a bloody mess (repeat to end) hmm yeah anyone reading this who just read that whole song... youre neat :] peace. emalie

ok..first entry. im not gonna load this shit up with 'blah blah blah im a juggalette im better than u' bullshit cuz i believe that everyone can think whatever the hell they want and i cant change that. if u dont like who i am, dont bother to hate, cuz i couldnt give a fuck less about what u think of me. all that aside, i dunno if ill ever even remember this login or anything, but if i never come back, know that im fuckin down for life. much love. emalie