hey everyone. i dont know, ive been thinking a lot lately about a bunch of things. its so weird ninth grade is almost over. where did the time go. i look back and i wish i could be in middle school again. today i don't know there was so much drama. luckily nothing with me, but thats all i heard in the halls and stuff. people wanting to fight each other, and so many rumors. it's all just so stupid if you ask me. it seems like everyone has changed and im caught in this different world. i have my close friends and i know they'll always be there for me. but it seems like something is missing, and i just don't know what. it's not really a boyfriend cause thats not really one of my priorities right now. but everyone has there own idea of 'having a good time' and now this year a lot of people have gone there own ways. which i know change isn't bad, but it can be sometimes. maybe its just me. maybe its the way things happined in my life. im not like a lot of other girls. i dont have a mother in my life to depend on and to have 'mother daughter' talks with. and thats fine i dont need the sympathy. but i think im just scared. im scared of loosing what i have already. and i think its okay to have one of these days, where you just need to get everything together ya know. but ill write tomorrow xoo