for once, i wanna have what ive dreamed of for once, i wanna have what ive prayed for for once, i wanna have what ive longed for for once, i wanna have what ive desired for once, i wanna have what is my definition of 'good' for once, i wanna be able to help someone without making the problem worse for once, i wanna have the feeling that im loved for once, i wanna have the feeling of being accepted