Is it me, or is this whole site like a huge post secret? My whole fucking life is a post secret. Shit. I'm not in the best mood. I could have went to work, but i waited up for you, just to get shut down. Interesting.

Call me, right now. I need to hear you tell me you love me. I need for you to tell me how much I mean to you. I need compassion from you. come over, hug me, show me I am still special to you. I need it. I need you. no negitive comments please.

It's three thirty in the morning. I can't sleep. To busy.. Looking into moving. Guhh, I am 19 years old. Fuck. Fuck you Idaho.

I hate the feeling of being ignored. I've done so much on my life, i'm in college and she can't even acknowledge my existance? whatever.

I really wish you would call me and talk to me about whats going on in your mind Reta... It's not fair to me and I don't like to think you are having problems and that you don't want me around to try and help you, I might as well be alone. It's sad, because I love you so much, but do you really love me?

deal with this sometimes. i need religion, or something. apart of me says thats whats in my future. but it's hard. but i know god has been in my heart this whole time.