18... i thought it'd never come. now i wish it hadn't. Lifes hard. I thought they were all lying to me when i was younger. I thought i could handle it.. It's tough. I know im sick.. They just wont confirm it. "we dont know what that is" well i do... i do.. Scared shitless.. ********************************************* high school senior, working 2 jobs. everyday of my life i dig deeper and deeper and the one i thought would be my best friend forever has abandoned me. Ok, fine, blame it on me. blame it on my mistakes. but when i came to you and appologized and opened my heart back up to you, who slamed the door? you.. ********************************************* ever been cheated on by someone you lost your family and friends for? ever been played by someone you spent 2 years loving like there was no tomorrow? I have. Try to get over him without your support.. ********************************************* Well, im still breathing. im gonna have to live with what im givin, and what im not. Im sorry chelsea. Im sorry jessie. Im sorry dad.. Most of all.. Im sorry to myself. for making mistakes that you just might have to live with for the rest of your life. One careless move is all it takes.. just one and you could be tainted forever..

ive moved on..im on myspace now... http://www.myspace.com/doctorbeef281b

Gleeful..thats..uhh...special...well. Im at my dads house again..Its been FOREVER! tomorrow Im going to a homeless shelter to help out, and I get extra credit. so thats always kool...And then im going to a party...

well, i had to switch diaries because my parents got a hold of my old one...so...here i am..again.