hello world its me matthew wow in the dark my poster of vallo looks like a woman... i don't know who it speaks worse of me or him cause i'm kinda atr.. lets not go there went to the mall with britt today and i got 3 new cds 1-sparta 2-midtown 3-funeral for a friend but heres the kicker i got all them for 6 bucks FUCK YEAH 2 bucks each colony center i think it was called the mall with the fye with the used area in the back yeah that one but yeah pretty nice find britt got 2 death cab cds i'm not really parcial to them i'll listen but there nothing great the postal service is much better except their new stuff doesn't sound like there old stuff i'm gonna listen to how bout this day and age sounds good so... how is everybody? me? you ask i'm pretty damn good britt and i are great well i'm pretty much broke but yeah.. i got the part i need for my co2 tank i'm cold... i can go to sleep under a blanket uh... 8 monthes and 5 days with britt hey man its the 16th now ok i'm out man oh! if my grass was emo it cut it self i thought that was funny oh another one what do you call a black pilot? a pilot you racist... haha hmm oh what do you get when you mix a monkey and a wrench? one fucked up monkey haha got you you thought i was gonna say a monkey wrench hmmm ok see y'all

Fuck snow boarding i'll stick to skating i fell probly 300 times hmm i want summer to be here i wanna golf and skate so bad it sucks.. weird mix huh got my hair cut i don't mind it but i hate the who thing were everyone goes you get your hair cut? o well my sister said i look like a girl and well she always says that so i didn't take it offensively today i get to babysit britts brother with her he is the most annoyin kid ever and has ADD but least i get to be with heri need to clean my room a have a cup filled with some kind of brown substance... hmm o well uh... woohoo now i'm listening to interpol public pervert remix i love this song o well nice one way conversation with you all peace out ps. thats what the alpabet would look like if you took out Q and R

woohoo new picture haha looks like yours brig hehehe i'm so sadsitic "cross my heart and hope to die stick every needle in these eyes" "it may be blue berries but its not my fault" ugh this is like a posser entry its an enrty but its not a true one oh well i guess we shall live peace out brother henery and be excellent

"lets get fucked up and die" HELLO BASTARDS! its been to long i think for all those who care wait nope no one cares well first me and britt are great i got a job... at altamont orchards its funny the mexicans talk about you in spanish... makes me wish i didn't drop out oh it i lied now i'm listening to coheed there new song (welcome home) is kick ass i can play the acoustic intro to it well probly the eletric since its the same but i haven't tried i lit a fly on fire today i was bored when i got home and well i found a match booklet in my room something was going it smelt so bad.. so how is everybody i'm so happy i have an awsome math teacher this year he actaully teaches so yeah... thats about it folks i'm gonna go see y'all

NEW ENTRY! woohooo! i finally got signed on lifes been pretty damn stellar i went to warped tour met half the matches got my cd signed motioncity owned ass they were awsome MCR sucked to many people so we kinda said screw it and left relient K was good hawthrone was good matchbook romance was awsome and there was this awsoem band called like yesterday they arent' big but they were really good so i ordered there cd off the computer and i got the skeptics cd there good the cd isn't released in stores yet lets just say warped tour kicked ass nice having a one side conversation with you all good day sir

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we held hands on the last night on earth our mouths filled with dust we kissed in the fields and under trees screaming like dogs bleeding dark into the leaves it was empty on the edge of town but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the river so we walked through the waste where the road curved into the sea and the shattered seasons lay and the bitter smell of burning was on you like a disease in our cancer of passion you said "death is a midnight runner" the sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide we picked up the shards and formed them into shapes of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress the echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop the few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime i kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked if you would accompany me in a quick fall but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't good for two i rode alone you said "the cinders are falling like snow" there is poetry in despair and we sang with unrivaled beauty bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence of blue and grey strange we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city The sun was stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines still we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched into the earth like a message

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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The SurveyName:Matthew LawrenceBirthday:July 19th, 1990Birthplace:HospitalCurrent Location:DuanesburgEye Color:hazel-blue-green (they change)Hair Color:brownHeight:5' 9"Right Handed or Left Handed:RightThe Shoes You Wore Today:none but yesterday black and white hawksYour Weakness:pretty eyesYour Fears:dollsYour Perfect Pizza:its a pizza there all the sameYour Most Overused Phrase On an IM:loLThoughts First Waking Up:its to earlyYour Best Physical Feature:i hear my eyes our hairYour Bedtime:when ever im outYour Most Missed Memory:anytime with the people i care aboutPepsi or Coke:i could carelessMacDonalds or Burger King:fast food is digustingSingle or Group Dates:dependsLipton Ice Tea or Nestea:either orChocolate or Vanilla:neitherCappuccino or Coffee:coffeeDo you Smoke:noDo you Swear:yesDo you Sing:yesDo you Shower Daily:yesHave you Been in Love:well lets put it as im in it stillDo you want to go to College:i don't really knowDo you want to get Married:yesDo you belive in yourself:sure Do you get Motion Sickness:if im spinning alotDo you think you are Attractive:no not reallyAre you a Health Freak:nahDo you get along with your Parents:sometimes with my mom always with my dadDo you like Thunderstorms:yesDo you play an Instrument:yesIn the past month have you Drank Alcohol:nope not that i rememberIn the past month have you Smoked:god noIn the past month have you been on Drugs:nopeIn the past month have you gone on a Date:yesIn the past month have you gone to a Mall:yupHave you ever eaten a box of Oreos:no i don't like oreosIn the past month have you eaten Sushi:nopeIn the past month have you been on Stage:yeahIn the past month have you been Dumped:nopeIn the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:nopeIn the past month have you Stolen Anything:nopeEver been Drunk:nopeEver been called a Tease:not that i recallEver been Beaten up:verbally by manda lolEver Shoplifted:nopeHow do you want to Die:with the feeling like i've accomplished somethingWhat do you want to be when you Grow Up:what ever im happy doingWhat country would you most like to Visit:italyIn a Boy/Girl..Favourite Eye Color:blueFavourite Hair Color:blondeShort or Long Hair:longHeight:shorter then meWeight:averageBest Clothing Style:don't matter reallyNumber of Drugs I have taken:noneNumber of CDs I own:oh god i don't think theres a numberNumber of Piercings:0 i want 2 thoNumber of Tattoos:0 i want flames on my arms thoNumber of things in my Past I Regret:why regret something?CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

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Three important rules for breaking up Don't put off breaking up when you know you want to Prolonging the situation only makes it worse Tell him honestly, simply, kindly, but firmly Don't make a big production Don't make up an elaborate story This will help you avoid a big tear jerking scene If you wanna date other people say so Be prepared for the boy to feel hurt and rejected Even if you've gone together for only a short time, And haven't been too serious, There's still a feeling of rejection When someone says she preferres the company of others To your exclusive company, But if you're honest, and direct, And avoid making a flowery emotional speech when you brake the news, The boy will respect you for your frankness, And honestly he'll apeciate the kind of straight foward manner In which you told him your decision Unless he's a real jerk or a cry baby you will remain friends I'm head of the class 'm popular I'm a quarter back I'm popular My mom says I'm a catch I'm popular I'm never last picked I got a cheerleader chick Being attractive is the most important thing there is If you wanna catch the biggest fish in your pond You have to be as attractive as possible Make sure to keep your hair spotless and clean Wash it at least every two weeks Once every two weeks And if you see Jonny football hero in the hall Tell him he played a great game Tell him you like his article in the newspaper I'm the party star I'm popular I've got my own car I'm popular I'll never get caught I'm popular I make football bets I'm a teachers pet. I purpose we support a one month limit on going steady I think It will keep you both more able to deal with weird situation And get to know more people I think if you're ready to go out with Jonny Now's the time to tell him about your one month limit He wont mind he'll apreciate your fresh look on dating And once you've dated someone else you can date him again I'm sure hell l did Everyone will appreciate it You so novel what a good idea You can keep you time to your self You don't need date insurance You can go out with whoever you want to Every boy, every boy, in the whole world could be yours Iif you'll just listen to my plan THE TEENAGE GUIDE TO POPULARITY I'm head of the class I'm popular I'm a quarter back I'm popular My mom says I'm a catch I'm popular I'm never last picked I got a cheerleader chick I'm the party star I'm popular I've got my own car I'm popular I'll never get caught I'm popular I make football bets I'm a teachers pet. i love that song

well faithful readers this will be my last entry i will write or for a while im happy great week and well yeah great week finally... im getting my record player needle anytime know i broke my cd player its sad but its been kicking with the little life it had for ever so yeah i got britt to talk to on the way to school and her on the way back on days she's not working bad hours... she got 100 on her spanish oral she was so nervous but she did great i just found silent night by brand new its uh odd its really dark and quiet hmm and i got car from their demo i went with shane to some park in uh guilderlin (murdered) it started with a t something his mom said there was a skate park there so we went well there wasn't so we skated on the tennis courts ran over ants we played ant cops yeah we were bored then we went to the playground haha scared the little kids we went on the swings and those cool things with the springs those kick ass then we played the sand is lava and then we watched one inning of the baseball game and then skated again i was skating outside and amy came over oh how i hate amy she thought she should watch then she wanted to try and then she road her bike man i hate her hell i hate the family im so glad my sister dumped shawn that kid was so stupid he couldn't butter his own toast and he would stand in the way and just stand there and he knew you wanted to get thru but what ever least i don't need to live with him anymore what was it 2 years they were going out...

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haha i got the cookie from helping clean the school after the pep rally it was good dan got one too for helping i wrote a song and everyone said it was good but im not gonna put it in here unless its voted by popular demand haha yeah... shane and i are prolly gonna skate this weekend its gonna kick he wants me to go to the shelter but i suck to much haha thats all right now so bye all oh yeah my TBS cd broke o well i got the silverstein cd so im happy PAIN KILLERS FOR THE HEART why end the night with something like this? playing russian rullette with a full chamber (good poker players know when to fold) lies are what built this world best friends worest enemies losing alibis building up falling back down... fevers of feelings floods of emotions it makes him laugh which makes her cry he says sorry.. yet it makes shit worse lies are what built this world best friends worest enemies losing alibis building up falling back down... you turn of your lights and bitch cause its dark useless thoughts stupid feelings why did i ever end it like that... Farewells For Afar days get longer days get shorter (i lose track) i pray for the end... staring into her beautiful eyes makes me feel whole but the systems failing and the pictures are bluring this feeling is a wound one that doesn't scab over and heal everytime i see you it gets worse deeper and deeper till its to the bone... staring into her beautiful eyes makes me feel whole but the systems failing and the pictures are bluring her beautiful face her beautiful soul is like poetry that will never end or tire... her beautiful face her beautiful soul is like poetry that will never end or tire... staring into her beautiful eyes makes me feel whole but the systems failing and the pictures are bluring

holy shit the burton trip was fucking great first before we even left shane and i were hanging out behind the stage jump on the mats and shit so shane gets this idea to do that thing where you walk up on the chair and it falls down you knwo what i men well he fell it was so fukcing funny and then adam jumped bout 5 chairs distance he kickass at jumping we did that till strain yelled at us i hate her then we got on the bus and shane kyle and i got the back seats then dan was in front of us and uh bry and kevin and jon but ok we started and kyle was mooning people this one guy you should off seen the look on his face it was great he was taking pictures of his penis on my camera and showing mat H matt is funny causehe gets pissed off over stupid things the we got to the boat over the lake and the people yelled at use cause we were hanging over the side which was lame but what ever then we went to berger king(GAG) i sat with mat W and bry we talked about how bad the food is for you and uh we went to the room by the play pen dan and kyle went in there and talked with mat some more and then we stole dans and kyles shoes and hid them haha that was great they rna so fast to the bus this was so funny when we were pulling out of the parking lot there was this women behind use with a guy smoking and kyle does the little "bad" finger motion you know what i mean right but she flips him off so i go kyle moon her kyle gets the biggest ass grin on his face pulls down his pants and moons her she gets pissed and the guy laughes then she must off gotten mad at him caus ethats what it looked like then we got there and mr cresap gave us the speech how this is a business and all that but my mind changed first when i saw the guy (jeff) and then when he said "dude im stoked" he was cool tho we saw all next years boards and there process was bout the same as ares but faster and easier then we went to the burton store and shane got a belt and kyle got a shirt a beanie and a bookbag well then we left the store and went to the half pipe which would of kicked ass if we had boards but we didn't so we slip on are buts and ran up and down on it but it sucked when every one else came so shane kyle and i left to the quarter and then shane and i went to check out the grind rail and then we went to denny's to eat but shane and i couldn't figure out the tip so we gave her 5 bucks and then we got back on the boat and haha there was a dog who shit on the poop deck haha how ironic i talked to mat pretty much teh hole trip on the boat an the way back was boring it was so uhh we got in trouble for something so we had to sit up front and i listened to my cd player for bout half that then i moved in dans seat we talked and then shane and i talked and listened to some music (uuh some blink from first to last i think CKY and uh MCR maybe) then i listened to brand new and dan fell to sleep and then he woke up and he crawled under the seats to the back till; he got caught but uh thats about the highlights or just he parts i remember so i got home talked to alicia and then i uh went to sleep now i think im gonna go do all the shit i need to do and if i get done in time im gonna see if i can get a ride to case's You Are 15 Years Old 15 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. What Age Do You Act?

well everones back from europe and i've only talked to britt so thats the only storey i heard but she had a great time she liked the eiffel tower the most and she couldn't wait to get american food in her but moving on... i talked to alicia today it has been a while since i talked to her shes always a great person to talk to today i mostly helped case clean out his pond it was black i did something amazing today i was trying to get the fish out so we could throw bleach in it so i sat there with the pool skimmer (you can't see anything its completly black)so i was saying here fishy just playing around but then i pulled it out of the water and i got the big minow that was bout the only one that he really wanted out of there then we bleached the rest out and only the biggest 2 lived out of the 4 and the frog .... now if you don't know me i hate big frogs if there bigger then your bout 2 inches then there to big but back to the frog he put it in the pool cause they are gonna drain it and put a new liner in so he kept him in there but i took the big green ball and threw it at him didn't kill him but scared him... i think i wrote about as much as i can possible do so... so im done

right now i feel like im gonna throw up.... i went to the rock yesterday it was pretty cool not to many people were there i hung out with shane there we played pool and ping pong and cards and the drums and guitar some kid let us use his it was a pretty nice looking guitar we didn't get to plug it in tho or hear it they were blairing the keyboard but i was use to my fender so it was a little odd till i got the hang of it i never heard of the brand it started with a v and the other kids i didn't know either and the drum set wow that was a total piece of shit the hi hat was broken and the cymbals were completly warped they are all dented and theres only one stand and the bass drum was backwards and the snare had no stand.... the sticks were broken and taped back together i hung out with case today well the second half first half involed much sleep and well being bored i got nothing much to write.... hmm how bout... hmmm thats bout it i need to go back to school sad to say get away from my house and my fucking boring life i live...

well today was how do i put it a day yeah that works so i was at jesuses house we rode bikes with pedro pretty much all day listen to some music this time all music i like hell yes none of that heavy metal shit he likes hmm then i got a hard drive and a cdrom for the computer i built to see if it works (ooooooh!!!!) yeah then i read alicias xanga and thats where things started to change but shes better i hope she didn't fuck anything up wow.... im so glad shes ok hmm... dan left me a message saying he had great news but didn't leave what it was... i mean if its great news just tell me even tho im not home.. he probly got another free guitar or amp... he has only paid for a tab book blink-182 one to be exact but he has gotten a wireless system a free bout 500 dollar guitar and a 800 dollar one (yeah both free and new) and he has bout 5 tuners one of those things that slows down songs so you can learn to play them easier and lets see 30w acoustic amp and a i think 400 dollar acoustic eleteric guitar and a i think 50w amp and a 75w amp and he has paid for none of it oh well good for him im gonna go grab a piece of pizza and then im off to the rock with shane

... my sister woke me up at 8 o fucking clock cause she was screaming i mean SCREAMING at shawn she always yells at him round that time can't they save it for like bout 12 or so but it died down at 9 so.... i fell back to sleep till 11 then laid in bed but i got great news he's going to tenesse to his dads till the 1st i think thank god and my sister had to show me this michal jackson song that some guy she dances with at her ballet school can beat box ooooooh does he want a fucking cookie or something i guess since shes leaving at the end of the summer i should enjoy the time i get with her it just amazes me that shes going to college next year its odd to think bout all the memories as a child and all the time her and alissa were mean to me and tricked me into thinking into things but o well..... hmm todays gonna be boring my parents left as usual i always wake up and there both gone so i can't get a ride why don't my sister get her lisence yet.... and my sisers out side tanning for prom and well thats bout it...

i stayed at jesus's house today it was fun we went to the mall and got we got huge shlushes for 69 cents hell yaeh they were good cory had to show us the science of getting all of your moneys worth yeah.... well then we got got back and we..... we went to go see if there were tadpoles (oooooh tadpoles....) in the creek on cole road there were none so we went back to jesus's house and helped his dad in the garage and then we got back listened to some music he starts a good song and then changes it then we watched harold and kumar go to white castle and he fell asleep then i finished watching it but its boring when your the only one up so i went to sleep to and woke up and then sat in his room and then we went in the living room and he is playing on his computer so i decided to update this thing so there it is hey he's playing some good music hell yeah its MCR honey this mirror isn't big enough for the two