so here i am at the hospital with my step dad who seems to be a fiver year old today. and my grampie has phenoma how ever you spell it. and we are sitting here waitig for him, i have no emotion and its making me me i love my grampie and dont want anything to happen to him. i know this is not me this is the drugs i took making me feel this way. and i want to scream at jake and hit him and tell him how much of an ass whole he is for leaving me today and on our date day and i dont think i will ever forgive him for it. but i do love him and want to be with him. i just want him to kno i shld be put first and she is her pass not his present. and you should not have a friend that is a girl that you talk to and not let your current girlfriend mett her i mean that is werid and messed me... idk i was i still wasnt drugged up i am so tired