So its a lil strange to be on my own. Thank god for work and the gym. Went to the club last night. My friend Chad took me. He said hes going to "teach me to be single" haha has it really been 4 years? Less that a week til I goto see Chris. I got a vibrating tongue ring as his present lmao. Well I better get back to work Im just on lunch. I'll try to update more often, i just now got my net back.

Can't stop listenin to this song i have a feelin' I'll feel like this Sunday when i gotta leave Chris and fly home.. Work sucked balls last night.. I was busy as fuck then the cops came in with the texas alc bev commission to inspect me.. ugh When i got home at like 1 am I talked to Chris til i couldnt focus on my screen anymore which was around i dunno 4:30 am Think Ima go and take a shower... I have psych and work today...

Had the night off yesterday. Got a lot of sleep. I'm actually awake during the day omg! Talkin to Jess about moving in so I'll write later.

Thinkin' Craig n I are probably gonna break up. Turned 19 wahoo.. yea nuthin exciting bout 19 cept I'm one year closer to 21. Things have been a mess here. Workin' sellin booze lol big suprise. Craig and I havent gotten any better i almost moved out on the 13th this month but he asked me to stay. Think Im still gonna leave though. Oh met a new "friend" named Chris. Going to visit him next month. Im so excited. Thats pretty much it I will let yall know how the Chris thing goes.. BTW If I move I'll prolly live with Jess here in Dumas then save awhile before I move home.

Okay so the last week has been awful. Craig was an asshole and wasn't really in a mood to notice that I have like fallen into a depression but whatever. He is pissing me the fuck off to where I wonder if we are really going anywhere. I don't know what to think or what to do about our relationship. Throw 4 years away? I think I need to go back to a psychiatrist. I need meds maybe depico. If I don't have something to do I'm gonna be cutting again or something because I can't seem to release any of this anger. FUCK!!!

Made 200 bucks at the you know what club monday. Did pretty good for a slow night.

Random, But Fun Survey - All About YouWhat is your name?:RJ How about your birthday?:Feb 20 So that would make you how old?:18 What school do you go to?:Amarillo College And what grade are you in there?:Soph. Where do you live?:Dumas TX Is it all right there?:no Do you enjoy school?:Umm I guess I pay for it. Do you smoke weed?:yes Do you smoke cigarettes?:yes Do you drink alcohol?:yes Do you do other drugs?:sometimes don't judge me mother fucker Have you ever had sex?:yes If not, do you want to?: If so, why did you do it?:Cuz I'm a nympho Do you like boys are girls?:both Wait, are you a boy or girl?:girl So does that make you straight?:umm kinda Or maybe homo/bisexual?:umm kinda Do you get along with your parents?:hell no fuckin' crack heads What are their names?:Susan and Richard And how old are they?:44 and 47 How about your siblings, got any?:5: 27,24,20, and 18 think real hard. If so, how old are they & what are their names?:their ages are above lol Julz,Mike,Ryan, Nevan If not, do you enjoy being an only child?: What is your favorite color?:orange Do you have a lot of clothes?:um no Where do you buy them at?:i dunno Do you have a lot of accessories?:no Any designer items?:some Maximum amount for one piece of clothing/accessory?:200 maybe What's the most money you've had with you at one time?:2,000 How much money have you spent in one shopping trip?:600 but that was only once ever So do you enjoy shopping?:not really Where do you shop at for everything you need?:Walmart I'm so fancy Who is your favorite celebrity?:Kurt Cobain does he count? And singer?:Bif Naked What about rapper?:eww If you drink, what is your favorite alcoholic drink?:Corona or a cosmo How often do you drink?:i dunno socially really How often do you smoke?:depends what I'm smokin ;) Do these questions make you uncomfortable?:nope What did you do this past weekend?:not much recovering from being sick. Who did you hang out with?:Leslee and Craig Did you have fun?:i guess Out of all your friends, who do you spend the most time with?:Leslee Are you currently eating? If so, what?:no but Im about to have a pizza ham and pineapple What about drinking?:gatorade What are you listening to?:o-zone Do you download music?:yep Do you have an mp3 player?:yep What did you get for Christmas?:nope What did you do on New Year's?:bar Have you made out with anyone recently?:umm yea n craig caught me Who was the last person you kissed?:Craig but I don't think about it when i do. Who was the last person you hugged?:Leslee Whose house were you at last?:Leslee When was the last time you smoked?:am smokin' Smoked weed?:this morning Drank alcohol?:Saturday Kissed someone?:last night Went out on a lake?:august Ate fast food?:yesterday for lunch Ate at a real restaurant?:dec 23 Got Starbucks?:mMmMm there aint one here so like 2 years Are you on the computer often?:yes Do you talk to a lot of people online?:not really What is your least favorite phrase?:Lick my ass When is the last time you touched a soda can?:have no clue Do you have any pets?:5 If so, what kind?:dogs If not, how come?: Are you currently on the phone?:no If so, to who?: Are you talking to anyone online?:yea If so, who?:jose Have you ever seen anyone's private parts?:umm yea Who's the last person's you saw?:mine When is the last time you yelled at someone?:this week sometime Who's the last person's number you got?:Mikes Are you happy that this survey is almost done with?:yes Are you downloading something currently?:yes Who is the hottest guy/girl at your school?:umm arent any Do you like someone currently?:yea If so, who is it?:none of your fuckin business If not, why not?: What kind of computer do you have?:Dell Is your room cool?:no my bed takes the whole room up Do you have posters up in your room?:no If so, mostly of who?: If not, why not?:I have one large abstract painting When's the last time you watched porn?:last night Who is next to you?:no one What time is it?:1:19 PM We're done, are you glad?:yes Take this survey | Find more surveysYou've been totally Bzoink*d

I'm a nympho. Mikey rocks, that is all.

Wow I have done nothing but sit at the computer all day.. My house is like a disaster with empty bottles and TV dinners everywhere and ashtrays like over flowed. Guess its just one of those days..

So I cant figure out how to make this stupid pic smaller... kir? a lil help plz? and while we are at it how do i just post em? Everything else is goin' okay. I'm takin web classes this semester and only two days on campus whoo hoo! Kay guess thats it.

New years was alright but, when we got from the bar to the hotel Craig had a fuckin' asthma attack. I've been sick for 2 days. Happy New Year my ass.

My "Dad" keeps bugging my sister for my phone number. I told him in August I had nothing to say and didnt want to deal with him anymore. This is what my sis sent me last night.. Makes me feel guilty for making her hide my contact info from him. what do i do? he keeps bugging me about getting your number! i keep telling him that you only have a cell phone and that craig always has it and that i don't know the number, but i just wanted to let you know so that you can make the decision. i am getting really tired of being the only one who talks to him. ( not that i blame you or mike!) but tell me what to do so i can tell dad that he can or cannot have your number. love- julie >From: richard doggett >To: Julie Casas >Subject: phone numbers >Date: Tue, 27 Dec 2005 14:38:05 -0800 (PST) > >Dear Julie, please get Mike and Rachel"s phone numbers and addresses for >me. i tried to call You but your cell phone number did not work. Love You , >Dad

You know one thing I really miss about living at home with my mom was not having to clean so much. I got that 24 hour stomach virus and let my house go. Now every dish in my house is a science project. Got drunk on xmas. was fun I'll post some pics of it when i get the chance. Craig caught me makin out with jessica at the xmas bash...oops.

So I have just less than a month before spring semester starts up. My classes were so rough this semester I was afraid I would screw my GPA but I came out with all B's. Craig and I are getting along alright. He works 7 days a week though so that kind of sucks. Not all too excited about Christmas this year. I'm really home sick and wish I was in austin. This is my 3rd x-mas away from home. Ariel, remember that neighborhood with all the lights and one house had Bush in their front lawn smokin a bong? Maybe some day soon I'll be able to go home and visit when there isnt a funeral or something awful happening. It seems thats the only time I make it.

got the net at home finally no more going to campus to check my email yay

Finals are in one week... Last macroeconomics class tonight yay!!! Don't really have much to say.. It has snowed already this year. Maybe I'll be able to think better after next week..and actually have something to say.

So I'm on campus waiting for the dreaded Eco hell test to start... My friend and her husband are splitting up.. She was stealing money from him and he was sleeping with his ex-wife... Not sure what to tell her about that.. Anybody have a clue? Not much else to write about.. Oh my friend krista got her 2 babies taken away for having a dirty house.. Its so quiet over there now :(

So I'm at school waiting for my economics class to start... Didn't even have time to eat dinner.. College sux; my prof. is an asshole who likes to talk like he's god.. If I ever have to hear the words marginal benefit in this life time I WILL shoot myself in the head.

So I have all these friends that are younger than me All they ever want is for me to buy them cigs or beer and use my house as a hotel room.. Kicked them all out of my house when they decided to drink in my house tonight w/o asking me first... Grrrrr Fuckin' kids!...and I try to be nice..

Didn't get the job at the refinery. Redneck Basards! Might be moving.. Might be preggers.. God invented infanticide.