One of the most powerful emotions is that of fear. There are deeply rooted fears in all of us which at times can cripple our own grasp on reality and sweep us into denial, defeat and desperation; taking hold of our very nucleus and doing as it wishes. Where does it come from? Its as though it has a realm of its own. One of illusions, where adverse bacteria of sorts breed, forming in the Aether and waiting to squirm inside of you as parasites. Of this place of illusions all bad erruptions form. Whatever the negative energy, its ussually caused by some illusion not concrete enough to grasp, but present enough to choke your very soul. But what is not concrete can be dispelled. So why do we let such unfounded threats contain us? This is because they are so obscure, that although in their obscurity they can seem strange and unfounded. They also in this same quality scare us into submission, with apprerhension of the unknown. How do we then, rid ourselves of these parasitic knots? There is a Universal law which states that if we walk in truth, illusions cannot exist on our path. With untruths, we open the floodgates to this outer realm of illusionary thought. nothing external can give us either security or power against fear. Our fears are what cause us to live amongst this state of illusion.

If the earth is so small in a galaxy so large that we dont even know its dimensions. And our "outer space" is contained in many outer spaces; Then.. why do we see our own problems as well.. problems. we are but a tiny pinprick as a galaxy alone. What matters to you now will, in your next breath, be carried away with the wind itself.And by the time it reaches the atmosphere, no one will even know you ever exhaled at all.

Because of Summer's slow approach and fast dissolve, I find myself needing a place to keep a narrative of my thoughts and feelings that, so ripe and rare, I' am afraid I will lose by vacations end. Dont mistake me to have any likeness to the other 85% of the sitdiary population; whose teenage angst and overblown self-pity produce lengthy entries about the woes of being in love before I even know who I myself am, how much "my mother is a spaz/whore/bitch" or how anorexia and bright eyes may get me through many a lonely fortnight. [ I made all of that up kids, lets not have a riot ]Because.. unlike some, I know that nobody cares, and rightly so. I truly do not care if your mom wont let you get your nose pierced and how much its ruining your life and your sense of individuality. So without going too much further and boring the hell out of myself. This is my first entry. I am an opinionated outspoken and blunt 16 yr. old who is so very different but realizes that in so many ways is just like everyone else. So heres to sameness and shutting the hell up! Dont think me unfriendly however, leave comments, Im not so bad, I swear to it.