i am now 100% sure about if i want to marry him or not. last night he was driving me home from work because my truck is getting fixed and i was leaning on him and trying so hard not to fall alsleep and this song came on that i never heard before but it was about promises and how he would love the girl forever and just how if she left he couldnt live without here. he knew the song word by word and sang it to me and at the end he kissed me on my forehead and told me he would love me forever and not to worry becaue he would always be there to take care of me. the way he said i love you after that i thought i was going to cry. then when he had to leave i didnt want to get out of his arms i just wanted to stay there all night. i hate when you have to leave your speacial someone and know that they are not going to be with you when you wake up the next morning.

So i am back in school and it is like no one talks to me what so ever i sit in the same classroom for amout two and half hours and it is like no one will even look at me unless they have to it is kind od amazing the way it is. This is what made me leave in the first place is the way these people act here its just blows my mind. it is like hello i am nice i wont bite you can talk to me i promise i will be nice. Sometimes i fell that too much was said about me when i left and that is why no one says a word to me. you never can trust anyone even in the work force you cant trust anyone. It is like you can talk to someone online and pretend to be what your not and no one will ever have any idea who you are.

so i left school for about a year and now i am back and doing it all over again. i wanted to try the work life and it sucked! but now i am bound to be married and will come back next year to finish one semester as a married girl. some times it scares me really bad getting married leaving home sometimes i want to call it off but hey once you promise you cant change your mind

SO TODAY BACKING OUT OF MY PARKING SPOT I HIT A VAN COME ON SHE WAS FACING THE STREET I WAS FACING THE BUILDING SHE SHOULD HAVE STOPPED IF SHE SAW ME BACKING OUT. I THOUGHT FOR SURE MY AUNT WAS GOING TO KILL ME AND SURE ENOUGH I GOT YELLED AT UP ONESIDE AND DOWN THE OTHER I THOUGHT I WAS NEVER GOING TO SEE THE END OF IT SHE JUST KEPT GOING ON AND ON THEN ABOUT 10 MINUTES LATER SHE WAS FINE. mY FORST ACCIDENT I THOUGHT MY HEART WAS GOING TO FLY OUT OF MY CHEST