i'm sitting here talking to elly, happy and sad at the same time. i'm happy that i'm talking to her but really sad that i broke her heart,i really love her, its like when i talking to her im happy as can be even when i'm mad or sad, i love her i just wish i didn't fuck up so bad

i didn't have school today... i'm sitter here fully clothed in a had freezing my ass off... there's so much snow on the ground here it's not funny. i just wish i was in MN with elly. we would have so much fun playing in the snow. i was just thinking about playing in the snow with elly... making snow angles... i just want to lay with her in the snow... i just want the chance for her to be cold and me give her my coat and hold her tight so she can stay warm. i would rather freeze my ass of laying in the snow with her than be warm at home. i would freeze to death just for her to be warm. maybe i'm taknig this to far but thats really how i feel. i really miss her. to the point i want to cry. i don't know what i'm going to do over thanksgiving besides maybe call her EVERYDAY!!! man i don't know what she's doing to me, but i like it. i wish i would have found her sooner. babe i love you and i hope we never break up again i don't know what i'd do

i don't really know what to say. i'm in love but i'm still depressed. i feel like i'm failing my girlfriend by not being there for her. megan made me feel like shit because she hate's me. I like told her everything i trusted her but i guess she hate's me. Then Shay told me that the only reason she went out with me is because i was hot. WHY THE HELL WOULD SHE DO THAT TO ME!!! oh well i'm SUPER happy with the girlfriend i have now :) her name's elly... she's BEAUTIFUL i wish she knew how much she means to me. tonight she did kind of make me sadder than what i was but i got over it... i guess it's what love does to and ass like me.Sometimes i think we would be better friend but i love it when were togather. i asked her out today and promised to love her for ever. and not cheat!!! and Kyla tried to test me today but i told her know... i love elly and nothing could make me cheat on her this time. i love her with all my heart... even though it's black it's all i have to give. i hope she uderstands that. Elly i love you babe