friends are my life. but what happens when you dont feel yourself around them anymore?? because feelings are coming now. i dont understand. this is odd for me. i thought something was good...and someone else had such a different view on it. for once in my life why cant things just go how i want it. i promise one time i will get what i deserve. mabye if i dont put my heart out there to get stepped on i will be rewarded. i got the laguna beach book today. i made an awesome mix. im being obsessed with making new cds. i need san diego. two weeks. too bad one person will not enjoy my presence. wow. i love being negative. love. &hearts