I should not be on here...

This is the song i wrote for Rick last week Everything I want Everything I need I see it in your eyes And I feel it in your touch Oh, Everything you are IS everything to me I can't help but feel The Way I feel About you You're Everything Oh, You're Everything to me The one I want to be with The one that's right for me You're everything I need boy Oh, You just gotta see You're the only one that I adore You're the only one for me You're everything Oh, You're everything to me

well rick was in a mood this morning and got us both angry then i thought we were actually going to go somewhere together just me and him but... that isn't happening... which isn't a surprise... and well let's see... nothing interesting has happened since yesterday except me and Rick argued while i played on the computer and he watched video games... i hate that... him always playing games... doing nothing with just me but watching tv... and having sex... i wanted to go to the mall and just look around... but he doesn't want to... i will have money soon... so that i can shop.... but i will never go to the mall with him... I'll have to wait until i have a license and my own car.... but even then i will have to explain myself because that is what i have to do... explain... why do you want to do this why do you want to do that... oh and rick doesn't think i love him... which makes me feel so good... it's like no matter what i do it's not right... and you know what i hate it... i try so hard but i can't do anything right... i just feel like i am no good and that i don't deserve to be in this relationship... because i am just... no good... i know i can do things differently but it seems like it is just to hard to change and i hate that feeling... i feel ugly stupid and no good all the time... i know I'm not stupid... and rick says I'm not ugly... but no one tells me that i am not not good... rick does actually or he did... he used to tell me all the time your beautiful you are perfect but now the compliments have just about stopped and it's like i was right the whole time but i know that i have a purpose i hate a reason to live i have everything i want and need and that is rick... he may not know that i love him this much... but i do... i love him so much... and if he doesn't know that then we may not work... i have faith in us i know we can work it's just if he wants to and if i can change and be less worrisome less bitchy and start believing in myself... i know that it is hard to change when it has been this way forever... but i will try and if i can i will change for the better... i love rick and he means alot to me... so i will... deal with everything i need to so that i can continue to be with him for the rest of forever... so long for now miriah

well in 4 days it's ricks birthday and that means that he will be 19 in 8 months and 21 days i will be 18 which means i can live with Rick yay... sometimes it seems so hard but right now it's like easy for me and him because we are together and none of his psycho ex's have called.... yay.... well nothing left to say.... i'm outta here miriah

well it's been nearly a year away from the place i let everything go at... in the last year i have had so many problems and so many good things happen.... me and rick are still together no thanks to alot of people... who despite everything are still trying to get him away from me... and i mean i have chaged to but the main thing i want to say is that you should never change your pass code while your half asleep which is one reason couldn't get on here but lets see what has happend well.... a girl named christa almost succedded in ruining my life so now i'm gonna ruin hers... in a nice way and i don't live at my dad's anymore.... i'm no longer in school and i have only a few more weeks before i get my diploma threw the ged program... ummmm... i hate sylvia and she hates me i hate my mom as well... me and rick are engaged and i have the ring to prove it... oh and.... i have decided that i am not putting up with anything.... ever again.... the only one i want in life to be there for me is rick... me and rick have all different friens because he chose me over mike so sylvia left me... now me and rick hang out with a g named shawn... who is better than mike and....... ummmmm.... everything is going alot better for me... and i like t this way no bull and nno whores... rick only wants me i only want him... and i'm glad.... i have to go now...miriah

I love the way you look at me When we are laying in your bed I love the way you kiss me On top of my forehead I love the way you stare at me With those sexy eyes I love the way you know Exactly what to do And when to say I love you I love the way you treat me When you know I have had a bad day I love the way you hold me Until my fears go away I love the way you smile And laugh When I do something stupid And I love the way Your always there for me Especially today I love you so much And I'll never stop So do you like this poem? Well if not Don't turn around And walk away... just stay If you do like this poem Then hold me And kiss me Gingerly... everyday Miriah Waller

this is 20 reasons why i love rick 1. he isn't afraid to piss me off 2. he knows what to say and when to say it 3. he always makes me smile 4. he does what he wants when he wants 5. he always makes time for me 6. he makes me laugh even if i want to cry 7. he isn't afraid to tell me things i don't want to hear 8. he isn't a pansy 9. he wants to be around me eben if i am to sick to move 10. he said he thought i was beautiful without my make up on and my hair was all a mess 11. he's not afraid to tell me how he really feels 12. he understands me 13. he isn't afraid to ber himself 14. he's sexy even if no one believes that 15. he tells me to believe in myself, that i am worth something, and that i am a good person 16. he makes me feel... like... i am wanted 17. he makes me smile when i want to cry 18. he isn't afraid to joke around even if it pisses me off 19. he's always there for me... in the weirdest ways... 20. he knows when to hold me, hug me, and kiss me, and he does it all at the right times yes that's 20 reasons... he makes me hate him sometimes... but i still love him more and more everyday... anywho... i have to go... miriah

Scared to talk Unable to breathe Don't know what's come over me I look into Those sexy eyes And all i can see Is how much you love me You make me weak Unable to speak Afraid to move You've messed up my mood Before i was so confussed BUt now i know You have a power To make me where I am unable to move I can't breathe Because i am afraid That if i do I'll mess everything up That i have with you I look into your eyes And i feel strong But weak I feel talkative But I'm unable to speak I feel so loved And all I want to do Is say I love you MIRIAH WALLER

me and rick both like this song... it's about losing the one you love and getting sick of missing them... and i like it "i am so sick of love songs so tired of tears so sick of wishing you were still here said i'm so sick of loves songs sad and so slow so why can't i turn of the radio" don't ask me why i like it... i just do... it's spify yesterday i spent the whole day with rick... and my dad found out i smoke... surprisingly he didn't care that much... he said i am just like him in everyway... he smoked and had sex at 16 2 as long as i don't get into drugs he said he will be happy and al yall know i don't like drugs... that's why i had rick quit oh and my dad explained why he likes rick... 1 he talks to him 2 if he is gonna get me home late he calls first 3 he asked my dad if it was alright for him 2 go out with me 4 he dosen't act like my dad is this scary thing that he should ignore 5 he says that even though he seems mature for me he is a great guy that can get me to clean my room with out much of a fuss... speaking of that rick made me clean my whole room but as a reward i got to spend the day with him and got a pack of ciggs... hmmmmm... monday me my brother josh my dad carol (my dad's girlfriend that i actually like) and rick are going to daytona... yay... well i have to go love you love me miriah "enough is enough i am so over being blue crying over you"

i have no set emotions anymore... i am so... confused about eveything.... me and rick had a really long conversation last night and discovered the source of our problems.... 1 i am the smaller female version of him 2 we both have the need to be right 3 we care so much about each other that it scares us needless to say i am trying with him.... again... this time... will work... maybe well all i really have to say is peanut butter watermelon french fries sex oh and those are just a few things that make me happy.... i am gonna make a shirt... at home of course that says " I am nothing but a MISFIT So let me be your MISFIT TOY and we can go to TOY LAND" i like that... lol hits on everyone that reads it... well i have to go love you all love me miriah I AM NOTHING BUT A MISFIT SO LET ME BE YOUR MISFIT TOY AND WE CAN GO TO TOY LAND

As I sit here in the wake of the day I think of everything they say I think of how my hearts been broken And how you helped me through the tourcher I think of how much you care And of how much we shared AS I sit here in the middle of the day I laugh and try to play I pretend that everything is ok Even though I see your pain I think everything is running out of time And no one is fine As i sit here at night I try not to cause a fight I try to think I'll be ok I lay in bed and pray That tomorrow will be a better day Miriah Waller

M- Success comes easily to you. I- Love is something you deeply believe in. R- You are a social butterfly. I- Love is something you deeply believe in. A- You always want some action H- You have very good personality and looks. *The letters* A- You always want some action. B- You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people. C- You definitely have a partier side in you. D- You have trouble keeping the opposite sex off u. E- You are popular with all types of people. F- Fake. G- You are very friendly and undestanding. H- You have very good personality and looks. I- Love is something you deeply believe in. J- Everyone loves you. K- You like to try new things. L- You are always smiling and making others smile. M- Success comes easily to you. N- You can be very "FUN". O- You love foreplay. P- You are very friendly and understanding. Q- You are a hypocrite. R- You are a social butterfly. S- Honest T- sexy as hell U- You usally r hella tight. V- You are not judgemental. W- You are very broad minded. X- You never let people tell you what to do. Y- You always make every experience Great. Z- You're uber cool. well that's interesting... love you all love me miriah