so... my baby is going to nordoff now i have on idea when im going to see him... im never ever going tosee him but i want him to be able to play football next year and it is a WAY better school than pacific he wont get in as much trouble but i know is going to meet a ton of girls that are WAY hotter than me. I just hope he just hope our love is strong enough to pull through it. Im not worried about tyler flirting but i am worried about every other girl there. but yea i hope he succeeds at that school i know he can he just needs to try and i really hope i dont lose him that would suk because hes pretty much my world <333

k so basically im mad at my boyfriend right now but its all good now because im with madison and i got my eye brows waxed so im pretty happy and i spent a couple hours with dillon so i am happy but tyler...man...i hope we dont get our relationship all fucked up again like it used to be i love him so god damn much, i cant see him walk away from what we have AGAIN. i dont think i can deal with it. i really hope we work this time...really. i love him and i will get over it but WHATEVER i love him and i love her so they make me happy <3 mhm

god i really wanted to see kennedy today because i barely see him during the week and i told her i was like yea im going over to kennedys today and she said ok if you clean ur room so i did and then she fucking comes into my room and says " o yea nvm we are going to aunties." you can see evan tmrw FUCK HER god im so fucking pissed i already cried so im over that and now im just fuckingp issed off so im venting kthnx

this whole last week has been kinda frustrating i had fun at the game last night it was intense and i had a lot of good food lol i just want this week to be over but im excited fer tmrw cuz im taking kennedy out to dinner then were gunna to the movies yay i hope it will be fun actually it will cuz im with HIM i seriously need to take a breather fuck im stressin <3

so the mall was very frustrating today... this stupid security guard came up to kennedy and askedh im to take his feet off the table and he did then he put his feet up agen and he came back and told us to leave to a dif. part of the mall so we did then we went to the food court where stupid tough guy troy tried to start shit with kennedy because he thought he was getting attitude so they elft and then troy comes marching back and pulls his chair out from under him and i just pushed troy away and told him to fucking leave becauseh es being a little bitch about this whole fucking thing so kennedy was in a bad mood, and i didnt know what to do and then stupid troy went behind us on the couch when kennedy was on it and flipped him off...how immature i mean seriously!?!? wtf and then me and kennedy had our feet on the table again so we got kicked out of the mall...and the fucking security guards had a huge stick up their ass and started yelling at him for no reason and they brought out their stupid little handcuffs and threatenedto arrest us wtf is that all about? and then we went and chilled with kellen till madisons mom picked us up...and he made fun of my shortness the time being. lol....but eventhough all the drama was lame, im still like unbelievably happy i got to see my baby. that made my day!

so today was pretty chill... me and chrissy made up a dance to rhianna and its...well different kinda sexual haha hip hop/jazz lame and then i had a fucking art final that sucked i was all out of it and didnt know what was going on... and mr crouch hates me anyway then chrissy yelled my name all loud so he made me go up in front of the class ugh but whatever fuck art yea now i have to go study for spanish! FUCK -renee

i got to see kennedy today. i was super happy about that. he stole a really cute shirt. he looks like such a stud. i love it. haha. but then we saw his bitch of an ex girlfriend hollie. she gave me the bitchiest look ever, and i just wanted to go over to and sock her. I was so about to, but i didnt. dont want anymore drama than there already is. and then kellen was acting like a fucking queer crossing his fucking legs n shit. it was pretty funny. im just happy i got to see him! so yea...i dont think im gunna see him until friday though! lame huh? i know. ok well yeah. bye

so pretty much... i went over to kennedy's house today and i helped him clean out his closet and i got a shirt of my own and im going to wear it to bed every night now! and then we ate pizza and i felt bad cuz i only ate 3...lol...inside thing and we watched world poker tour and went upstairs and slept for maybe a half an hour or an hour it was amazing then got up and talked about almost everything then came home and now im talking to him online i cant get enough of him he is INCREDIBLE ugh <3

so im not going out with tyler anymore... and ive been talking to another guy and he is sweet and adorable and smart and funny...practically everything i want in a guy so last night he asked me out and of course i said yes im so happy fuck yea! ok later -renee mg

so i had a pretty good weekend i got to see my baby on saturday eventho he was at madisons like mosto f the weekend lol but they are just friends gotta love me both and then i went to the movie on monday with evan hes a really cool kid and it was pretty chill so yea hope i get to spend time with my baby this weekend later -me

so... eden dyed my hair about...2 hours ago...and its pretty snazzy. fer sure. yea. and then we took picatures... and we got new inside jokes: mmm off i just eletricuted myself id rather lay on ur mom do u want some pineapple chunks im gunna get acne...FUCK lol i love her more than you so suck it <333

wow my boyfriend just got expelled today. and surprisingly im not mad, just unbelievably hurt. he means everything to me, and i dont know what i am going to do without him. i want to do, and make the pain go away. it seems like the easiest thing to do right now, but i have to stay strong. for both of us. i feel like there is nothing left for me to live for. I love you tyler, and i care for you so much -renee

yea im lame. i dont know what is wrong with me. i have everything in the world i could possibly want, and i still want more. i am never happy. my boyfriend is perfect. but i know i love him more than anything, and i dont want to lose him... i just got to be nicer to him...

hey today was really stressful my boyfriend left me at lunch and i love seeing him at lunch to spend time with him, but i am not mad, i mean he can spend time with his friends. But he keeps telling me that hes a screw up and hes a fuck up, and what does he do? he ditches...i mean i am not mad or anything but yea. and when he said i love you i didnt hear him so i didnt say anything back so he stormed off, and he just walked away. i started crying after that and of course my best friend came after me because she cares about me and we talked about it. My boyfriend eventually came back and we went to los tacos together and we were ok until out of nowhere he asked i i liked somebody else. does that mean that im showing signs that i do? or that hes just curious? i mean..he knows that i am in love with him, and i want this to last so bad. i love him more han anything on this planet, but we are both so stubborn. ugh. lol. we love eachothe. i need to stop being so LAME thank you -me