why do i care about you when you cant even stand to think about me? i never cared before but i do now

I'm trying really trying but then again I don't even know what I want. Eh hopefully I can figure it out because this sucks.

Okay so I hate my xanga so I decided to write in this because I only know one person who has this so basically that means no one will read this. I don't know what is going on in my life. I am not even sure if I am happy with my life. I don't know what I want. Everything is just so confusing at this time in my life. I just need time to figure it out. I hope I figure it out.