i hung with alexis....all day today. i had so much fun. she just seems so right with me. shes one of the most beautiful woman ever...which i wouldnt settle for any less. haha. but theres never a bad moment when im with her. we enjoy being with each other and we make the best out of everything. shes so much fun, and i really love that about her. we hold nothing back and just i dont know, shes so great. im really going to miss her bc im going to orlando tomorrow morning for a week and a half. im glad im going on vacation, i just wish it didnt have to be a vacation from the girl i want to be with. but i know and trust that shell be back home waiting for me when i come back. she means a lot to me. and im a lot happier with her.

so today was our one month. and its been the best month of my life. she makes me that happy. i wouldnt trade her for anyone! and id never let her down. shes the best thing ive got and shes definetly a keeper. i love her.

They say we`re young and we don`t know Won`t find out till we grow Well I don`t babay that`s true Cause you got me and baby I got you Babe, I got you babe, I got you, Babe. They say our love won`t pay the rent Before it`s earn`d our money`s always spent I guess that`s so, we don`t have a lot But at least I`m sure of all the things we got Babe, I got you babe, I got you, Babe. I got flowers in the spring I got you, to wear my ring And when I`m sad, you`re a clown And when I get scared you`re always around so let them say your hair`s too long I don`t care, with you I can`t do wrong and put your little hand in mine There ain`t no hill or mountain we can`t climb Babe, I got you babe, I got you, Babe. I got you to hold my hand I got you to understand I got you to walk with me I got you to talk with me I got you to kiss goodnight I got you to hold me tight I got you I won`t let go I got you to love me so I got you, babe <33 Lovveee

you know ur meant to be together when you think the same way, and do the same things at the same time. someone this amazing only comes by ever so often, and im goin to take my chances and hope for the best bc to me, its worth it. i wont fuck this one up bc its too good to pass by.

i love her with everything i have. and i still cant find anything wrong with her. i love her for what she is, but mainly bc of WHO she is. she is the most amazing female alive and i wouldnt trade her for anyone.

it was friday, september 2. i had a long day of school and then what felt like even longer practice. the night went by nice and slow and very relaxing. i first went to her house so that she could shower and ask her mom if she could hang out with me. then i went home to my house with her. i took my quick shower while she talked to my parents. we ended up watching twister in my movie. but she had to be home by 10. so as we wrapped up the night, we left my house and she was yelling thank u to my parents and everything. and we got in our car and drove off to her house. after i got out of the neighborhood, it was completely dark around us other than my headlights. i pushed the buttun to roll up my window, and pressed the power buttun off on the radio. and i remember she laughed and i said "so". and i asked her..."do you think ur ready for the next step." without any hesitation, she said yes. so that was the point that started to get nervous. i kissed her hand, and went for a second opinion..."be honest with me, do u think ur ready?" and she said, "i really do think i am ready." then i got even more nervous. no butterflies, no fear, just like excitment. and i said..."soooo." she laughed and i said, "what would u think if i was ur boyfriend and u were my girlfriend." she laughed a little more and mumbled "sounds good to me." so i kissed her hand and looked her in eyes, still watching where i was driving, and i said..."so will u be my girlfriend?" and she laughed and again and said "sure." so i laughed and i kissed her hand and all my excitement just rushed through me. she was excited too i could tell. and i walked her to the door and said hi to her sister and that was that. i left her house and drove home, cranking my music up loud and pumping my fist. im the luckiest guy in the world.

I think about her even though im not supposed to. I wonder what would have happened even though it didnt. I want to be with her even thought I can't.

the world stops when i touch her soft lips. everything just waits. it just feels so right; when ur with the right girl.

it was a selfish mess. a waste of a good future. he ly there on the bathroom floor, with puddles of red blood around his swollen pail purple wrists. he was lying on his stomach with his head turned to the right and his arms down to his sides. his eyes were closed tight and he had no expression. just a calm peace of wonder; why he cared so much. how could things be this bad. no one knows. he wore his lucky shirt and his favorite blue jeans with holes in them. his livestrong band lay a rest next to the bloody blade and a notebook next to that. in the notebook was several pages of letters with dried up tears on the pages. his handwriting was sloppy and fast, like most of these kinds of notes. letters to friends; words to family; writing of what he wished would have happened different. the lights were all on and the bathroom fan was the only bit of noise. the curtains were shut to the outside world. he did not have a girlfriend. he was not part of any special group of friends. he was friends with everyone that knew him. he was not fake. but that hurt him more than anything; and somehow got the best of him. the day he chose to die, he did not act any different. he was exactly how he had been for his whole life. which was anything but normal. he took his own life. no one will ever know why.

i cant believe its almost been 3 months. everyone thinks its been so much longer. but i feel like its been shorter. im very lucky to have her. she makes me happy. i love her and ive never felt this way before. gods looking down on me and hes given me the best present anyone could ask for. im in love....with my alexis.