If only I could
slide my arms around your waist
dream again of one more taste
pull your back against my chest
put your fluttered heart to rest
glide my hands on down your sides
hear the sweetness of your sighs
feel your urgent need arise
in between your gasping cries
barriers break and two are one
never wish the night is done.
deeper in, the night begins
feel your nails cut in my skin
red traced lines all down my back
indented teeth in no time flat.
slowly start to kiss your thighs
see the pleasure in your eyes
feel your body start to shake
your sweet juices what i taste
entwined together one last time
forever wish your heart were mine
forget those things you've said to me
your hopes and dreams
a million things you'll never need.
the world around you watches you fade
drifting through the nether quake.
what's on your mind can never leave
burnt to oblivion, seared in burning red
the angry color of your skin on fire
the world could watch you fall.
fifty thousand flights of stairs
drifting past you one by one.
falling through the center line
spirals twirling round and round
corkscrew faster to the ground
Watch the Painted Lady,
striding on the sand.
Her face like colored plate-mail,
her pose which never bends.
The darkened clouds: roiling, toiling above
with blinding fury strikes the earth,
but shall never strike that painted dove.
The young men in the ocean,
faces turned inward to the land,
they watch that painted lady,
unwary of their end.
She looks outward to the sea,
and sees the giant crashing down.
One tear falls and breaks her armor.
But her face it never frowns.
If time had stopped I didn't care.
My mind had frozen, breath was stuck,
seeing her glide across that asphalt lot.
That gorgeous woman I've always known.
All those doubts and fears of old,
forever now I feel are gone.
another battle lost.
another battle won.
more lives given to the flame.
more hatred grown from fear.
the battles start again.
another brought down.
another takes their place.
forever falling till the end.
those left at home, weep for the fallen.
in years to come, shall forget the faces.
the battles rage on, and consume our past.
there is nothing to save us.
we only throw ourselves back into the fight
to make
one
last
story.
think of all those little things you
never meant to say to me
of all those things that matter most
which never graced your precious lips
moments wasted one-by-one on
matters now that matter not
every moment spent from you has
drug my mind through endless halls:
distant wishes one-by-one of seeing you again
blackened tunnels, trains of thought
rushing past at speeds unknown
lighting avenues: of unforeseen,
dreams of you that feel pristine
jumbled, rumbled.
my thoughts are troubled
by things i never said to you
of things i always meant to say
but could never seem to find a way
im sorting now through endless
shelfs of jumbled thoughts
formed by myself
a mass of things were unforeseen:
consequences never dreamed
a pattern drawn from scattered wreck
a single message warped and cracked
my mind had twisted turned and swayed
the only thought i could not fake
a single thought one-thousand fold
that every truth of you unrolled
message felt locked deep inside
multiplying every night, in a
mental shell that filled up tight
weighted down from truth untold
i feel its time for you to know
million scattered thoughts,
turned into few,
lead me to say that,
i love you
i say "good morning beautiful,"
while the light's shining in.
shining on a face, i'll never forget.
"good morning love," you say in return
looking into my eyes, as i gaze into yours
looking into the depths of your deep brown eyes,
i see a fear of a longing begin to arise.
a bubbling question i see taking form,
will my love ever fail, will i leave you forlorn.
before you can speak i cover your mouth with a hand,
a gentle look in my eyes, i slowly shake my head.
i lean towards you a bit, with a kiss on your brow
all your doubts slip away, all your fears broken down.
"i'll never leave you," i whisper in your ear,
curl both arms around you, forever holding you dear.
the lone wolf cries an old man's tears,
having just have lost his lover.
falling down like a dreary rain
heavier than no other.
a black patched sky with sparks of gold,
give rise to the lone wolf's tales of old.
he wanders free unburdened now
except for grief which weighs him down.
remembering nights spent curled up tight
with cub and lover both alike.
his den of peace holds nothing now but
love bleached bones of memories drowned.
he finally lies upon the ground
curling deep inside himself,
forgetting life and all its pain
fading into the death's dark way
forget the words you sang to me
they're nothing but catastrophe
and you'll just make the
world fall on its knees.
it's hate and hope that holds us close
our veins that wind around us both,
forever keeping you from drifting away from me.
and i, i watch the world fall apart,
fall in upon its self,
fly apart as the cosmos break away.
we're locked together in outer space
both with smiles stuck on our face
the only beings for millions of miles around.
there's nothing left but you and me
finally free to do as we please,
but we just drift across the infinite nothing.
our one last kiss before we fell
and lost our breath to the endless hell
of outer space's soundless symphony.
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supposed to be a song. needs notes for instrumentation... and a few more words *shrug*
never ever will i ever
choose between a Sword or Feather
Sword, no words, just hack and slash
and try to bring them down at last
the Feather, oh, so very clever:
you take the words and turn them 'round
and make their smiles into a frown
never ever will i ever
choose between a Sword or Feather
but yet that Feather, oh so clever
can do much worse than fleshy sever
can reap the mind and kill the soul
and make you wish your heart were cold
forever ever will i ever
drop a sword and choose a Feather
the mind when beat, can maim the form
forever make you bare and worn
I am that thirteen years bad
luck you've scattered across the
floor a million times before.
We are the reflection of one
another across a barrier never
seen or heard or realized
We can stare into one another
and catch a glimpse only of
ourselves in a different place and time
You only wish you could be me
as you watch across that looking
glass and wonder why I'm never there.
We are whole
                          and you
                          and I
                                               are incomplete
I once had a thought, a thought like no other
it drifted and twirled like a bright new dove feather
I followed it in my mind as it twirled all around,
twisting and turning as it fell to the ground.
Twisting and turning, I think to myself.
Almost in agony as it flies ever down.
To think, once it lands it shall never fly again.
Its last voyage down to the depths far below,
to the ground everlasting, held firm ever more.
I believe I'd be in agony, to never be free.
Held down to this world out of fear for the end.
Perhaps, yes I think so, I'll help that dove feather.
Catch it as it flies, bring it back to the sky.
One last chance to watch the world tumble up.
Leaning over the side, looking all the way down,
watching the feather as it dies to the ground.
Another thought drifts on by, my freedom incarnate.
I'll let go of my fear, spread my wings, and fly:
to the ground.
When your left becomes right,
and your right becomes left.
That's where you'll find yourself.
Not that fake little show, all
prettied up for the masses.
Stripped bare to be seen, through
the skin, muscle, tissue, and bone.
That all seeing eye staring back
at you through the mirror.
That's where you'll see yourself.
All those sins you made shining
through like a beacon on your soul.
There will be no saving grace,
there has never been a savior for you.
You wish there would be something
left to take you in after you've
run your course. That darkness
that's there when your eyes close
and blot out the light has nothing
on the truth.
Even a hell or a hell made in the
heavens would be preferred.
You can see the skin peel away,
piece by piece, revealing the beating
veins or wires as you'd prefer.
Resting your head against that cool,
hard surface. All things are blurred
but so amazingly clear at such close
proximities. That wavering line between
the real and the world so many cling to.
One can so easily laugh at how pitiful
people are, and so easily forget their
own faults. You can laugh at those
zombies and their faith, but find you're
living a life so empty and untrusting.
Sitting alone, at home, sneering at
the visages of those you despise
for their shortcomings.
Just one step out of your preferred
den, will lead you to another room.
With that all seeing eye, reflecting
another haggard face. But only one.
Only one face, laughing away at the
sheep which flock together.
Superior in the knowledge of stupidity,
and so well versed in the knowledge of
loneliness.
Only one face staring back, alone,
and blinking away the tears.
refuse to be used
like a tool in a box.
beat the cage around you
like a fool in a box.
break out, break free, and
live how you've dreamed.
you're live, center stage,
a dream to believe.
don't fret over days gone,
the past is out of time.
keep pushing along, leave
them burdens far behind.
just think of then wistfully
like a good book by the fire.
then let memories disappear,
a candle flame in the rain.
something which died out a long time
ago, was let loose within the sand.
sinks low into the quick,
forever buried in the end.