life is just FUCKED UP.

hey hey hey!!! =D how r u guys?!, i think there's no people readin this, but... hmm.. if u read it! comment!!! please =D?? well, my day was very good =D, i laugh, & laugh, & laugh, it was brilliant! yaaaay =D! i'm feelin very good, TODAY!!!

hey! i know i didnt write 4 a while.. i'm sorry!, i've been kinda busy! buuut here i am =D!! hello to everyone!

Well.. I'm kinda a LITTLE better... but whatever it's nothing important... but i need someone else/...

Well.. I'm kinda a LITTLE better... but whatever it's nothing important... but i need someone else/...

& I miss him SO much!! I feel so alone, & i talked 2 him,& he told me ''I think it would be the same, I don't want 2 go back'' well... whatever, it was all my fault, so what was I thinking...?, I was so stupid, I talked 2 him & I felt like a fool, so stupid, damn, I think he enjoyed it...

well I was better but again I'm feeling like shit, i broke up with him, & it's ok.... But problems are everywhere, now one friend betrayed me & she's such a bitch....& it's kinda difficult cuz i really love her like a sister, but whatever..... people is like that

well i have a boyfriend, but i think i love someone else, & i feel so bad, so confused,i want 2 feel good, i want this 2 end, i want 2 end all this fuckin confusion, i hate 2 feel like this, i want things 2 be ok, but everything is screwed up, everything is fucked up, & no one understands =( everyone thinks I'm a bitch, b/c i love someone else & i have a boyfriend, but i dont want 2 break up, b/c i don't want 2 hurt him, & i never wanted 2 love someone else....I SWEAR!! i didn't mean 2 feel like this :(

i hate christmas, well i don't really hate christmas, i just don't appreciate it... SO my christmas was ok. I hate Family parties, family fighting, & shit like that. So i don't expect a happy new year, with this fucking family..... METAL RULES!!!!!!

Nothin new 2day.....The same stuff, he broke my heart....yeah, nothin new. Fuck him...... How could I have been so blind ??

I hate my life, i really hate my life, my parents don't care about me, I am lonely & I'm stupid, i wish i can go out everytime i want 2, but my parents don't let me do nothing!! but anyway if i stay home it's like i am not, if i leave without permission they don't care, but if i ask them 2 go out they always say NO!! I'm sick & tired of this fuckin bastard life.... no one cares about me, so why should i care?

I am so fuckin confuse, i think i like one guy, but i know he doesn't feel the same way... & the worst part is that he is one of my brother's friends, & i have no chance with him... :( & I am really tired of being alone i really need someone, i feel so fuckin l0nely :( !!!

It's hard to see everyone in the street with someone by their side, & then look up at u & see how alone u are. I mean i like 2be free & single, but sometimes i feel like i need someone 2 love me.

Hey...well, i knew my brother's friends, they are c0ol..... I am so lonely, sometimes i feel i need some love, i don't know, my life is so fucked. I'm confused, tired & depressed.... I need somebody by my side!!! & Fucking exams ¬¬ i hate them, I am not very good at school....

DAMN!! they invited all the fuckin sch0ol, but they didn't invite me!! & they were 'my friends' i just want 2 leave that fuckin sch0ol, THEY=SHIT...... I know my life is comlicated, but they are supposed to help me, cuz they were my friends, but i guess they lied all this time, is not just they didn't invite me, they told my problems to every0ne, i can't believe they are that bitches....:(

n0w he's with another girl, but it's kinda funny h0w i d0n't care :D i think i don't love him anymore!!!

I can't stop crying, i don't know.... it's his fault, mine, my family fault, & my friends fault :(..............everyone hate me, even myself!! i can't go on living this way, there's have 2be someway 2 change!!! but damn noone helps me!! :'(

:D i played f0otball & it was so fun!! i fell cuz the fl0or was wet & i have back ache but, DAMN it w0rth it.!! By the way he tried 2 kiss me, but i knew that if i let him, i will back w/him, so i didn't kiss him:)!!I'm so proud!!! TACO ROCKS!!!

2day wasn't my day, my parents hate me, & i hate them t0o, i saw him & i told him i don't want 2 go back & he was so fuckin weird with all of us. He's angry & he told 1 friend he was g0ing 2 have an0ther one, & that hurted me, but i think i'm strong & i w0n't cry! i h0pe... anyway he's an idi0t

he asked me 2 go back, & i d0n't know i love him, but i don't want 2 go back, i d0n't know why!!, i think i'm better alone, 0r maybe is that he hurted me so bad 0nce bef0re, & i'm afraid, 0r i d0n't know, i'm feeling so fuckin confused, everytime we talk, & he says: "i l0ve u", i d0n't know what 2 say, b/c i l0ve him t0o but, n0t like i did, & i d0n't know......... HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!