The truth completely slapped me in the face yesterday. The real truth came out. My life was nothing but a huge lie. I was hiding one thing after another. Nothing was going right. I couldn't even look anyone in the eye anymore. I admitt, I've done plently of things I should never of done. That's the past though. It already happened, I can't take it back. If I could, believe me, I would. I've lie straight to everyone's face. My smile is fake. I'm not happy. I'm actually slowing dying inside. Slowly but surly I was beginning to get ready for this. This huge crash upon me. This huge problem. This thing everyone wishes never would come around. The Real Truth. And I was faced with it. My life is a huge lie. It's time for a change. The real me has to be shown. And so here I am, back here once again. I was myself about a little over a year ago. I was me. Everything was good. There was no lies, everything was the truth. And life was great. Until I broke up with my boyfriend. Everything seemed to change. I sneaked around. I did things I never should have. And I regret every bit of it. I can't change it. I really wish I could, but I can't. The worst part of this all is that I let everyone down. I let all the people that stuck by me when nobdoy else wanted to, I let them down. And I can't change it. All I can do is keep saying sorry, but at this point sorry does not cut it. But I really am, I realized what I've done. I've realized I need to change. And I am. I am going to. I need to. This is the real me, shockingly it is. I'm sorry guys.. I really am.