So just now launch started playing "Drop of Jupiter" by Train. When the song first came out, my best friend at the time, Bennie, and I, named it our song. They played it on VH1's "insominac" block of music videos, and every time she would spend the night we'd listen to that song, and "Drive" by Incubus, and "Follow me" by Uncle Kracker. Those songs always bring back memories of her and I. I remember when we'd go to the pool and that song came on, we'd duck under the water and listen to it. It took us six months to figure out that we could just float on the top with our ears in the water and listen. After the pool we'd get dressed and we'd go to Burger King. We got these Men in Black sunglasses and put them on. It was a cloudy day. I couldn't really see, she was laughing and would go, "There's a pole Jess" when I wasn't even close to hitting it. Those were the last few days she was here. We went camping at Birch Lake. It was fun. We took fold out chairs and put them in the lake and sat down. We kept daring each other to go out farther and farther until eventually we couldn't touch the ground. It was there I first saw the movie "Pleasantville". Such a great movie. We laughed a lot together. When she moved she called me, said she was leaving now and she'd miss me. I was about to get in the shower. The thing is, I didn't cry. I knew she was moving and we had a great last week together. But I felt I had to cry so I forced myself to.