i don't even know what to say, its been a really long time and a lot has happened. i don't want to write about it tho. i feel like i've moved on from a lot of things, i left certain things behind, and it has made me feel better. i've grown, i know its been like 2 months since i've been here, but i've grown in that time, i know i have. i've come to new realizations and in a way i feel good that i've come to terms with them. there is so much i want to say, i just don't know how to put it into words, so i'll just leave it alone, i guess that just means i'm not supposed to write what i want to say or i might hurt or offend someone. oh well, maybe next time.