Ich hasse mein PARENTS But whatevs, I'll be cool. I jsut really need a damn job. So they'll hate me a little less. I really need to get out of here. Ventura has little/nothing to offer me. Oh,well. In other news, I'm awesome. Actually not really. Ever since Michael and I broke up I've been feeling pretty shitty about myself. I mean, I feel fine about everything else, infact, I feel great. But I'm serverely lacking in any sort of self-confidnce or a positive self-image. Eh, whatever, fuck it. I'm better off alone,aren't i? We'll see. First time I've been alone for more then a few weeks in about 5 years. Weriddddd.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Serenity was FANTASMIC and MY UNCLE SOOOO WORKED ON JARHEAD AND HAD NO IDEA WHO JAKE GYLLENHAAL WAS!!!oiiii *dies* i wish IIIIIIII saw Jake Gyllenhaal on a daily basis!

SAKWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I'm sad that you are not here anyway I SO saw Loren at the Coffee Bean and he so made fun of me for not quitting. BIOTCH! lol

THANK JESUS I CAN FINALLY UPDATE THIS THING! My computer at home blocked on my screen name because I have stupid parental controls. So yeah a lot of stuff has happened since the Swamp Monster...seeing as how it was like three monthes ago. So yeah lots of stuff has happened as I have previously stated and I'm not really sure where to start. Then again, do I want to start. I really truly don't. So I shall not. I need to find me some new peoples to hang out with cause I'm going nuts with the ones I have...with a few exceptions, that is. I feel really distant from people I want to be close to and too close to people I want to be distant from. Suckage. Whatever I think it'd be weird if I just went up to those people and randomly was like "Hey let's do stuff!" I dunno, it's le lame. Anyway I need a jorb. But I pretty much hate everywhere. Except the Sanrio store, and like Salzer's or one of the record stores around here...that ISN'T sam goody or whatever. Anyway now I can pretty much update this daily because the school computers can get to the site and let me log in and stuff. So yeah, except actual updates from now on!

I am not cantankerous. but man do I love that word. Also, come see the Swamp Monster. Because it's awesome and only 2 dollars. And I'm in it. And it has a great soundtrack including, but not limited to, The Cure, The Cramps, and Blue Oyster Cult. So yeah come and see it. We've worked our asses off and it's AWESOME.

I lurve this song!

Meh. I'm tired. and bored now that everyone left.

I HATE JESS!

I'm in a shite mood. again. I think I might be depressed. But Probably not. Whatev. I'm bored as hell and need to get out of my house.

I am in an angry mood. All of the sudden I like...hate everyone. except like 3 or 4 people. whatev. I don't hate them. I just don't want to deal with them. Especially anything about Friday. I just don't give a rat's arse anymore. I mean yeah, I'm pissed, whatever, I'm over it. No one cares so I'll pretend I don't. Being sick really gets you in a shite mood. yarr. I hate that.

I feel like SHITE! I HATE BEING SICK! I want it to be over. Glarg. Though I do love my new little penguin from wallace and gromit cursor. and my new layout ala miss bjork.

I want to go go where? to the dance why? because its formal so? so..that mean i get to dress up! and you know me, i cant resist a chance to dress up? who are you going to take? i dont know. sakwa doesnt dance. and i know of no guys who do. except tim. and he doesnt count. did i mention my birthday party is STILL unplanned? and yes, i did just have a conversation with myself. chut-up!

DAY WITHOUT A MEXICAN IS RETARDED!

bored bored bored bored bored. jess better bring me "day without a mexican" ill be pissed if she doesnt. i really wanna see that. i need my computer to stop being stupid. i want pictures to make my boring jounral not boring. lol. but the computer is le stupid. i think its the firewall. but i dont know how to turn it off.>.> oh well. im mad. aol doesnt have the video for slow hands. stupid aol. and theyre stupid not having the interpol stuff i want. but. they have like... EVERYTHING DEPECHE! I like. heart depeche. yummy. ill have a little depeche party with myself.

Well. I got a new sitdairy. I was tired of the old one anyway. whatev. so people, add me to your friends list!