so here is my comment to your entry its so hard to think sometimes for me so hard to focus on just one thing i've been having that problem with thinking about you, I just can't focus on the problems we've been having. I'm not glad that you've changed your position on the matter, but I'm not sad about it. Idk maybe I am, maybe I'm sorry that I've put you through all of this just because I can't handle you not believing in God. Why? Why do I care so much?... I don't force my beliefs on anyone else, except you it seems. You're the only one I truly care about, and somehow I cannot take it that you do not believe in him or it or what have you. I'm not at all extreme religous or anything, and you know that. Hell, I've only gone to church maybe twice. This is just something I feel, the reason why I want you to believe isn't something I know it just feels to me that it should be. So, I can't answer I guess as to why I need this so much, and for this I am sorry. Thank you for saying you're going to try. I don't care if it takes you a hundred years as long as you keep an open mind to it. Now, looking at that sentence I just wrote I'll keep an open mind as to reasons why I shouldn't believe in him, too. Natalie, it is not as if I do not accept you. You are the one searching for acceptance, but I have always accepted you and always will. Even if you never believe in God i will still Love you with all of my heart. "that's not being in love. then again, having to change for someone isn't either." you said that in your entry, and I agree but also disagree on it. Having to change for someone is not being in love, but actually doing it is. It shows how much you Love me and care for me, and I thank you for this. I am sorry that you feel like you have no one sometimes. I am sorry that I do not show how much I love you. All I can say for myself is that I do Love you so very much, and I would walk a thousand miles to be with you. And hunnie, I'm glad dreams come true too, and if you never knew, the dreams of having a wonderful girlfriend when I was younger were never close to the real thing. You are better than anything I could ever have thought up. (To all those who ask how we do it, this is how.) Thank you my darling for Loving me I Love You with all that I am and ever will be