I broke up with jeremy. :[ the show last friday with crystal, shanen, amanda, josh, louis and scott was AMAZING. the lead vocals for kaddisfly is the hottest thing to walk this planet. :]...he sang to me..and we hung out after.

does anyone know of/have a diary with codes that I can use for my diary? please? thanks :]

He didn't call.. Jeremy fucking promised. he said. "I promis I will call you so we can make plans this weekend". fuck boyfriends! I can't beleive how bad of a boyfriend he is. bleh. I stil need to find some cool codes to fix my page up.help?

YEEE.. yesterday Richy picked me and Tabb up and we went to Milton to go pick up his paycheck. then on the way back (me and tabb shared a 64 oz. coke) I had to pee, so we stopped at the gas station on the way back and I walked in and I saw Jeremy's friend Ian's Girfriend, cheri. I've only talked to her on myspace..and I've only seen Ian like twice, but I recognized her..and she called Ian and Jeremy and Jeremy came with me and Tabb to the mall. Tabb made me ride the carrisel(sp?) and then we took pictures in the both thingy...and I asked Jeremy and Richy if it showed us on the screen outside the both the pictures we were taking and they lied to us and said no...but they could see all the picture we were taking and laughing at us. then I got a big orange ballooon... and we went into spencers and looked at sex stuff and ate a bunch of etible lube...then we went home. I love tabb and richy. I busted out in song in the middle of the food cort too...I was really loud. "LOVE ME LOVE SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME, NEED ME NEED ME SAY THAT YOU NEED ME!!!!!!!!" sheesh I'm a fag. I might do EX with tabb and richy. I'm going home with Shanen today :]..we're going to Waffle House to talk to Lisa about getting my job.

I'm at school!!! yep yep... I'm going to spend the weekend with Shanen,I lohhhhhhhve her.shes so awesome. Me, her and Crystal are going to the mall tonight...and yea?... uhm...school is boring. poo. I'm in such a great mood though. :]

Yea.So Friday is my birthday.I don't get to go to gulf breeze this weekend..because I promised my navarre friends (because I have sooo many[sarcasm]) that I'd spend it with them.I love them but,I miss the "old days". I miss having a FUCKING LIFE. And I haven't been getting sleep at all lately. and I'm constantly reminded that I'm a fatass. bleh. I should just stop eating alltogether. I actualy like workingout though,I've always liked it. the only exercise I don't like it running.lol so I walk. but yea. what do I want for my birthday?....A LIFE AGAIN. well. bye

I hung out with amanda today. ALL DAY. we laughed..like REALLY LAUGHED. and this PUNK guy told us we were hotties :) whatever happened to punk kids?. everyones either "Scene" or emo or gothic..or stupid. PUNK IS NOT DEAD. dear God,let amanda be able to get her mohawk and bring it back to navarre. yea,I have a boyfriend now.his name is jeremy.he's lovely. I miss the good ol' days. when I had a LIFE. poo. I cut my hair.and dyed it black.i like it :) shhh.don't tell anyone. no one makes me laugh anymore. :/ ??

fuck. my dad won't take me and amanda to the mall. her parents won't take us. my parents NEVER wanna drive me anywhere.If I could drive myself,belive me I would. FUCK! and everyones still all lovey dovey around me and shit.and I have yet to find a boyfriend(thats worth keeping around). I'm tired of this shit.I'm so angry at life right now. everyone just screws me over to better themselves.it's not fair.

bleh! this weekend was horrible. I hate the fucking cops so fucking much!!!!!!! I hate creeps that put GHB in your drinks!! I hate whores. I hate guys. I hate starbucks poolhouse. I hate gay guys that kiss all over you but their "gay". fuck. I hate bitchy people too who bitch all weekend. I hate the "proper" in gulf breeze. sitting outside of a getto house in proper with all of these druggies.a billion memories from this place.

I'm fat. I'm never eating ever never again. poo.

I had to wake up super early today.it sucked.but I got to school early and sat with aimee,her boyfriend,kelsey, and dianna. then in fourth period I had to learn about std's from the clinic lady. this girl randomly came up to me today in the hall and said "your pretty" and walked away.it was the strangest thing. amanda had detention today.for wearing a bandana so she couldn't ride the bus to my house.but she surprised me and came over anyway.and we made octipussys out of our hands and mad funny noises♥. we told mrs. kim that we smoke weed and stuff.and mrs. kim was telling me about how she knew that I had sex with dan when we were dating.it surprises me how it's not a big deal to her. me and amanda are gonna make the bestest,most kick ass band in the world!.and we'll get laid like crazy(only she'll only have sex with ryan.lol.) and I'm gonna get every other guy in the world.heh!JUST KIDDING..I swear I'm not a slut :D. MUSIC♥ ..

ok. so lately I've been partying quite a bit. and getting all crazy and stuff.well.today I skipped school and I was on a walk and this black truck slows down and these two guys(about 19 or 20) give me this littl bitty book.and they say "here,it's just something for you to read" and it's titled party girl.so I'm like "ha,cool" and I read it and it's all about jeasus and how alcohal drugs and sex are bad and all that jazz.and it's really corny and stuff.but man.this is kinda creepy.maybe I should slow it down a bit or somthing? Tell me what you think.

Yea so,I had to make another diary because I forgot my old password. ok,so I'll start with friday, I went to school.blah blah blah.did the whole cafeteria thing instead of being all spirited and gay at the pep ralley.kinda sorta sat with amanda.she went to go sit with her other friends so I sat there and spaced out the whole time. She road the bus home with me and I wanted to moon kenny who was following the bus.but I pussyed out.heh.and we got to my house(my parents were gone and jeremy was there to "babysit" me) I got the stuff out and started making my brownies for Cats party on Saturday and then me and manda smoked weed with jeremy and didn't get even the least bit high.that kinda bummed me out a bit.lol.but whatever.then manda had to leave :(.I really wanted her to come to the party with me.not because I felt like I was chooseing one friend over another but because I know we'd all have a good time.but Tabb (for some unknown,stupid reason) doesn't like amanda.anyway.then tabb and emily picked me up and we went to their house.Emily is now a dragking/stripper and this one place.agh.I forgot the name.but yea. Saturday, we were hangin around the house slowy getting ready then tabb gets a phone call and starts flippin out saying "we'll be right there don't move!".it was emily.her crazy ex girlfriend beat the shit out of her in the parking lot of tom thumb and she was in the drive way in her car and couldn't get out.her face had blood on it and she hurt her knee real bad and stuff.so we had to call the cops and all that jazz.then ashley picked us up for the party that night.it was so much fun.we played spin the bottle and I madeout with every girl there.it was cool.we played other games where we had to trade clothes and stuff but whatever.then ashley picked us up and we came home and passed out. and yesterday.I came home and my mom called and started playing the whole guilt trip on me because I haven't called her.but her numbed was in my purse! and I left it in josh's car.sheesh.so I cried a bit about that.it's not my fault she lives a billion miles away.it's hers.but bleh. mwah xoxo