A FATHER PASSING BY HIS SON'S BEDROOM WAS ASTONISHED TO SEE THE BED WAS NICELY MADE AND EVERYTHING WAS PICKED UP. THEN HE SAW AN ENVELOPE PROPPED UP PROMINENTLY ON THE CENTER OF THE BED. IT WAS ADDRESSED, "DAD." WITH THE WORST PREMONITION, HE OPENED THE ENVELOPE AND READ THE LETTER WITH TREMBLING HANDS: DEAR DAD: IT IS WITH GREAT REGRET AND SORROW THAT I'M WRITING THIS. I HAD TO ELOPE WITH MY NEW GIRLFRIEND BECAUSE I WANTED TO AVOID A SCENE WITH MOM AND YOU. I'VE BEEN FINDING REAL PASSION WITH BARBARA AND SHE IS SO NICE EVEN WITH ALL HER PIERCING, TATTOOS, AND HER TIGHT MOTORCYCLE CLOTHES. BUT IT'S NOT ONLY THE PASSION DAD, SHE'S PREGNANT AND BARBARA SAID THAT WE WILL BE VERY HAPPY TOGETHER EVEN THOUGH YOU WON'T CARE FOR HER, AS SHE IS MUCH OLDER THAN I, SHE ALREADY OWNS A TRAILER IN THE WOODS AND HAS A STACK OF FIREWOOD FOR THE WHOLE WINTER. SHE WANTS TO HAVE MANY MORE CHILDREN WITH ME AND THAT'S NOW ONE OF MY DREAMS TOO. BARBARA TAUGHT ME THAT MARIJUANA DOESN'T REALLY HURT ANYONE AND WE'LL BE GROWING IT FOR OURSELVES AND TRADING IT WITH HER FRIENDS FOR ALL THE COCAINE AND ECSTASY WE WANT. IN THE MEANTIME, WE'LL PRAY THAT SCIENCE WILL FIND A CURE FOR AIDS SO BARBARA CAN GET BETTER; SHE SURE DESERVES IT!! DON'T WORRY DAD; I'M 15 YEARS OLD NOW AND I KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. SOMEDAY I'M SURE WE'LL BE BACK TO VISIT SO YOU CAN GET TO KNOW YOUR GRANDCHILDREN . YOUR SON, Bill P.S. DAD, NONE OF THIS IS TRUE. I'M OVER AT THE NEIGHBOR'S HOUSE. I JUST WANTED TO REMIND YOU THAT THERE ARE WORSE THINGS IN LIFE THAN MY REPORT CARD THAT'S IN MY DESK, CENTER DRAWER. I LOVE YOU! CALL WHEN IT'S SAFE FOR ME TO COME HOME.

[ ] I am bisexual [ ] I am homosexual [x] I've run away from home [ ] I listen to political music. [ ] I collect comic books. [x] I shut others out when I'm sad [ ] I open up to others easily [x] I am keeping a secret from the world [x] I watch the news [ ] I own over 5 rap CDs [ ] I own something from Hot Topic [x] I love Disney movies [x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes [ ] I don't kill bugs. [x] I curse regularly. [x] I have "x"s in my screen name. [x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation. [ ] I love Spam [ ] I bake well [x] I would wear pajamas to school. [ ] I own something from Abercrombie [x] I have a job.[[ soon ]] [ ] I love Martha Stewart. [x] I am in love/like with someone. [ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS [x] I am self conscious. [X] I like to laugh. [ ] I smoke a pack a day. [ ] I loved Go Ask Alice. [x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick. [ ] I can't swallow pills. [X] I have many scars [x] I've been out of this country [X] I believe in ghosts. [x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. [x] I am really ticklish. [X] I love chocolate. [x] I bite my nails. [x] I am comfortable with being me. [x] I play computer games/video games when I'm bored [x] Gotten lost in the city. [x] Saw a shooting star. [ ] had a serious Surgery. [x] Gone out in public in your pajamas [ ] have kissed a stranger. [ ] Hugged a stranger. [x] been in a fist fight with the same sex. [ ] Been arrested. [ ] Laughed and had milk/soda come out of your nose. [ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator [ ] Made out in an elevator. [ ] Swore at your parents. [ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts. [ ] Been skydiving. [ ] Been bungee jumping. [x] Broken a bone. [x] Played spin the bottle. [ ] Gotten stitches. [ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. [x] Bitten someone. [ ] Been to Niagara Falls. [x] Gotten the chicken pox. [ ] Crashed into a car. [ ] Been to Japan [ ] Ridden in a taxi. [x] Shoplifted. [ ] Been fired. [x] had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. [ ] Stole something from your job. [x] Gone on a blind date. [ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach... [ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. [ ] Been to Europe. [ ] Slept with a co-worker. [ ] Been married. [ ] Gotten divorced. [ ] Saw someone/something dying. [?] Driven over 400 miles in one day. [[i think so?]] [ ] Been to Canada. [ ] Been on a plane. [x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. [ ] Thrown up in a bar. [ ] Eaten Sushi. [ ] Been skiing or snowboarding. [x] Been ice skating. [x] Met someone in person from the internet. [ ] Been to a motocross show. [x]Going to or have gone to college. [ ] Done hard drugs [x] Taken painkillers. [x] Cheated on someone else

Eh, i wouldn't call my mood really depressed just..a little bummed out. well, okay..majorly bummed out.. So last February, i met this guy named Mike Pierce. We became really close, and ended up being 'together'..One day when this girl named Troi came over to my house, Mike called. And Troi picked up the phone..and said that it was Mike and told him that i was with another guy and that i didn't want to be with him anymore ? FUCKING BITCH. gaah. and so the doorbell rang, -it was mike. But i didn't know that, because Troi ran to the door; looked through the peep hole, and said it was BRANDON. WHICH IT DEFINITLY WASN'T. It was MIKE. I didn't know that though. And so the past months have gone by and Troi has been telling Mike that i was talking shit about him..and visa versa. Now we talk sometimes..To make an extremly long story short..were AQUANTIANCES now. we have eachothers screen names, and tonight he asked to come over..he did..we spent TWO HOURS together. just talking about the past, and he was so into it too.. =) And he said " I bet if Troi or Brandon had never gotten in the way..we would still be going out as of today " And i know we would be too.. ♥ Were hanging out TOMORROW. Or should i say TODAY ? We'll see how tomorrow goes..

yah right. I don't think i could ever leave sitdiary. It's my comfort zone, pretty disgusting ? So me and Ryan have been flirting a TON. but that doesn't mean that it even means anything. To him it could even mean nothing. gahhhhhhhhh. pretty lame. I fall for the most random people, haha? mmmmmmmm, i want girl scout coooookiEs! fuck yes.

i haven't updated this thing in forever, but whatever because my other diary is surfnaked43..yeah, i have two diaries. how effing cool? i hate the feeling where you like someone, and they don't know it..but i'm sure if they did know it wouldn't matter because their in love with their EX girlfriend..=( and i mean, wtf? if she is telling you to wait for her, whats that going to do? shes being a cock tease idiot! GRRRR.. boooo, you whore

school started..my classes are okayy..cant really complain.. 1st period: Mr.Flynn, German 2 2nd period: Ms.Grafenstein, P.E. 3rd period: Ms.Harris, english 2 4th period: Ms.Nelson, world civ 5th period: Mr.Inyoune, bio lab 6th period: Mr.Boren, algebra A/B my 5th period teacher has a huuuuugeeee lisp.it's madd funny. kyle isnt going to cam high this year =( boooo, hes going to RIO! laaaame..oh well, me and him went to the movies on saturday.we saw Garden State :) it was fun.i loved being with him.i'm kinda getting the feeling he likes me, and im getting the feeling that i like him a lot too? :) yay for meeee.... hes getting his license in november so he will be over a lot then.he said he would never forget me :) yay. that made me feel so goooood! he aw! he makes me so happy, i love it! ummmm what next? im sorry for being a jerk and being selfish.i just want you to be happy..your my best friend and if anything happened to you id DIE..but "what if" the same thing happens the second time around? are you really ready for another broken heart? and i mean..REALLY think about it..because i DONT understand why he did hwat he did.are you just hoping too much that you think everything will be okay? because first it was "fuck you" and now your just falling for him all over again..i just dont want you to get hurt,...... x3 until next time...x3

i hate not being able to sleep.it bothers me.x/3 gaahhh i've been watching the olympics lately and i use to do gymnastics when i was like 6-10..and then i quit.: and now im really starting to get into it again.but i cant because then im just gonna end up hurting myself again.oh well, lol. Carly Patterson kicks so much ass. my other diary: SURFNAKED43 today i didnt talk to Jenn.but i did get to talk to cassidy for a couple minutes. :) yay for me.

wow, i havent written in here for such a long time.i have so many diaries i just lose track. summer is almost over and i feel like i totally wasted it.i mean yeah, i did junior lifeguards adn i had fun.but did i hang out with my friends like i wanted to so badly?did i do the things i even really wanted to do?no.i didnt.i just sad around getting fatter.ew. oh well, on a brighter note..my birthday is in like a week.yay. Me,Cassidy and Jenn had a sleepover.we were up for so long,i love those girls.and Jenn needs to hook IT up with matt :) "i think shes too busy drooling to notice us ;)" yeah i heard that jenn! hahaha. i think im totally over trevr now,after what he just did.ew, i hate him.and come to think of it..im not going to fall for another boy again.i'll try my hardest not to.because in the end i always end up getting hurt, and i mean come on..is it really worth it anymore?i dont think so.Him and his friends tell me "he broke up with Annie for you" and yeah, i knew that was going to happen.i knew it.But then he goes and gets another girlfriend.COME ON! i mean, he is SO confusing and he is just-ew.he cant even make up his mind on what he wants.jerk. Catie told me that if i stop looking so much for a boyfriend and what i want in him..then one day he will just come to me when i dont even expect it,and that i'll be happy that way.i hope shes right. i need to clean my room,and im always telling myself that but does it ever happen?nope..so my mission tomorrow: get room clean before i have to babysit! ew, that reminds me..i've been babysitting ALL WEEK.and yeah, i've gotten good money..but all i've been doing is getting puked on by a baby and i dont really find that fun.espically when the baby is teething. oh wellllllll.gaahhh i have nothing else better to do with my time so why does it matter? Music Mends Broken Hearts.x3 so true.

I deleted all my entries,for starting over i guess? hmm..things that have been going on lately: Junior Lifeguards! yayy. i love it.it's so much fun.this is my 4th year doing it. =) Our competition is already next week! I'm listening to Pat Benatar right now.how cool am i?...very I've been thinking lately,my freshman year of high school was really boring..maybeb ecause i wasnt involved in things.like sports.so for my soph year i think im going to try out for soccer and i'll either join the dance team, or take dance again outside of school. yup, i think thats all i'll write for today.