ouch i thouhgt the depressive school time was on wednesday then i find our its on tuesday and i have a projest to do.... meh... here it goes again but this time around im not gonna let school fuck me over im gonna fuck it up im gonna fuck with the teachers i hate ill act sp perfect somedays and get A's on tests and shit and then i like the next day no homework and ill just be so inconsistent and with the people around me ill just tell them to fuck off im so fucking ready to tackle school and fuck with people there i feel like starting a riot Woot ..|. >.< .|.. fuck school

oh its about 6:00 and ive been playing games and thinking all night.... fuck... i dont know wheater it was school or not finding enough punk but ive completely changed..... i used to be completely opposed to emo but now i need it to get me through school i mean music is one of the best things that ever happend to me and i used to be such a punk.... and i dont know who i am... i will NEVER nEVER stop liking punk but the belifs in punk and belifs in EMo are paraell opposites and if i choose half and half which i do it is so hypocritical i usally just go with what im in the mood for... and my cousin who is awesome got me thinking ... i used to hate emo and all it standed for... maybe i got sucked in but im preety sure it was school.... school.... oh where to start i try to keep a positive attitude... but.... it so depressing friends comeand go rarly or never come at all the reason im still in cause gabreil might go there next year btu for mnow everyone there i hate except middle school friends and like... the once in a bluemoon punk/emo kids..... so in sort of all this i have become in a more depressed mood so i goto more depressing music i will never stop liking punk but it is usally punk vs emo and i like both so i go wiht what i like and say: fuck the rest btu then people lik buttons and Justin remind me of who i used to be and what i beleived in..... and i feel like i have betrayed.... my self but i havent abondond the old me and i wanna go back to my old way of like and keep the knew but its so complicated wow listen to me... i need a life... lol maybe a girl.... but they suck to... so im back to music... whatever :::::"Look up when you walk or you will hit something and hrt yourself, so look up and walking life will be easier":::::

.. yea..... new years pwned? except for the part that every new year im alone and usally talking to gabreil im beginning to hate new years but then again.... it was alright i mean considering every new year that i remember i was alone this one was a positive alone one like it was like anyother day and shit but whatever... i really dont care ^.^ well the past 3 days have Pwneedowned10101010wned like my family was over and i got to see my punk nephew justin i call him my cousin cause hes older then me and he like introduced me to pwnage music and like i need that cause lately i havnt been able to find ANY punk... so yea then buttons and my little caousin slept over which pwned and yea... btu new years i was alone.. whatever ^.^ ummm yea i wanna go over gabreils monday then i needa do a fucking school project whatever till next time

damn.... hes pissed... i shall work out things with him.... it always works out i think? lets see how it goes o0o0o0o and last night i had a dream of kathy and it pwned .... to bad i dont wanna go out wiht any body... well too bad for my penis i mean i want love but... everyone else wants sex more then love and the girls who want love go for the guys that are hott and want sex... i think?

I dont care how pissed i am i gotta pwn with teh gabreil and hes maybe gonna tell me to fuck off but here goes nothing

EMO night looking at girls and saying why are you with him than looking at a cat and saying .... hi angel STAR i wanna see you again

damn gabreil we neeeda talk please please please.... i wrote all three days of events 2ce and fucking back button on my mouse is a whore and i lost it al twice ... im pissed! my point feel liek world needs to get bombed