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I basically just wrote this entry..but i have to write it again because it didn't save. That made me a little pissy but I'm pre much already over it.. So it's been about a year and a half since i've wrote on this which is just a crazy long time. What's even more crazy? Reading the old entries and thinking about how i use to be and how differnt I am now. The person I was a year ago was lost and depressed and thankfully, that no longer describes me. This summer was a huge turning point for me. I found myself. I owe a lot to these new people came into my life and made me realize how wonderful and fun life can be and also that there are people outside of my clicky school that are actually willing to accept me for me. That was all i really need i guess. Me currently: -Im still in school getting good grades, for myself now and not just my parents. -I feel closer to God than ever before even tho i know i disappoint him because I'm not perfect and I like to party! Hey, you only live once! -I'm more confident and outgoing than ever. -I don't pay attention to trends or care what the popular kids think. The only peoples opinions i respect are my family's and friend's. -My best friend is Samantha Jo Whitcomb. She's been there through nearly EVERYTHING. I can tell her ANYTHING and trust that she wont tell ANYONE a word of my secrets. -I am thankfull for all that i have, all of the items and every person. -I believe that everything happens for a reason and there's no use in fighting fate. -There is only one real problem in life at the moment and it's not just a small thing. It's a big deal that i find hard to understand and yet am forced to cope with, but i don't feel like this is place to discuss it in detail. -My goal for every day is to find a reason to smile and laugh, no matter how difficult. -I'm definately an optimist. -I can't gaurentee that i will write in this in the near future because i can gaurentee very little. I think that'll do for now. :) ILY <3 ally

There's really nothing to do.. I was planing on going out tonight but just kind of changed my mind and decided to spend the night "in". Maybe ill go rent some movies? I wanna go see my bf tomorrow, but i dont no if it'll happen. I miss him :)

today is turkey day! but i did not eat any turkey because turkey is gross! well...to catch up...i will talk about what important things happened between my last entry and now... the play... it went good...there were few mistakes...i didnt mess up any of my lines... after the friday play lindsey came over and we were going to go bowling with mitch after the play but when we got to the bowling alley..all the lanes were filled...and he blamed it on lindsey...which was retarted! and then we went to wendy's so mitch could get food and then we went to the home depot and it was closed...so we just stood by the door looking in...it was pathetic and then mitch was stalling to come get us at the door so we like froze...and then we went to the dairy queen and i had a moolatte and it was good...lindsey's friend alana made it so she gave me extra caramel on top...and lindsey stole the no smoking sign...and then we went to my house and mitch came in cus i thought he'd only stay for like a few minutes...well he made himself right at home and he stayed for quite a while...and when he finally left, me and lindsey went right to bed...and that concludes all the fun things i did....but i missed school on this last monday and tuesday cus i was sick and on tuesday i found out that meagan's mom has a stomach tumor and that was very sad news... sorry if u read this and was bored...my life hasn't been very interesting lately...

now i will write about the football and volleyball games... on thursday, our volleyball team went to morris and band had to go with so i had to go..cus im in band..ha and it was a good game..but we lost..:(...but oh well...we were playing monte 2... on friday there was no school and our football team had to go to fargo and band had to go with then 2..so i went and we won!!!!! it was like 13-41...we were playing morris. It was a fun game to watch...and so now this like..thurday..or friday..? idk one of those 2 days we go to holly to play holly and we have a pritty good chance of winning so thats just great...ha...

omw i havent even wrote about halloween yet!! well...halloween sam came over to my house, as usual and we were gunna go trick-or-treating with mitch and curt, so they came n picked us up...in mitches crappy red van!! it sucks!! but ne ways..we decided to go to clara city to visit candice and we did...but me, sam n curt went back to the van to give mitch n candi some alone time...ha...and i was pretending to drive it...and i hit the horn and it was really loud and really funny! and i pressed alot of buttons..and screwed some stuff up ha but oh well...and then we went back to raymond and just sorta hung out...we went trick-or-treating a lil bit but not a lot...and thats pritty much how i spend halloween...

friday was the dance and trever went!!!! it was friken sweet!!! spencer didnt go...but oh well...his loss...i was a devil n i looked cool ha and candice was a cat...sorta...she just wore the ears ha and sam was a princess..ha..andddddddd i had lots n lots of fun!!!!!!!!!! then saturday night i went to lindseys sisters party n it was entertaining...with ppl raving and moshing ha but i was sorta a loner cus i dodnt really no ne one besides like...3 ppl ha but it was still fun...anddd we stayed over at ambers house n it was fun we just sorta hung out and then lindseys mom drove me home...so im here now....with nothing better to do then write in this...ha

yesturday was the last home football game and i did flages. It was fun but it went really fast and i messed up a lil. candice and mitch got into yet another fight at the game and it was really friken cold!!!! School was boring except for science. Science was soooooo friken funny! Mr. Miller was talking about Wizard of Oz..?...and then he looked at Tanner and was like "hey! u look like one of those munchkins!" and then he sang the whole munchkin song!!! it was sooooo funny! and then he was scratching his arm and he was wearing a long sleeve shirt and he pulled out a sock! ha it was great! and i have him 6th hour so it basically took him all day to find out it was in his sleeve! wow hes a loser and kinda creepyish but hes funny.

oh yea annnnd....... THIS FRIDAY IS THE HALLOWEEN DANCE AND IM SO FRIKEN EXCITED!!!!! SAM IS INVITING TIM N HIS FRIEND...WHICH I DONT REALLY CARE ABOUT BUT IM INVITING SPENCER AND I HOPE HE CAN GO!!! AND EVEN IF HE CANT...I STILL CANT WAIT CUS ITS GUNNA BE FUN!!! AND MY COSTUME IS FRIKEN WICKED!!!

this weekend was mea...but sadly...its over and i had to go to school today.. on the 1st day of mea i had sam over n we just hung out and it was fun. The 2nd day i had sam AND meagan over and we hung out at my house and then saw grudge 2. Sam is really friken scared of scary movies so she like freaked out alot but it was halarious! My sister came with us too cus i guess she had nothing better to do. On sturday...i just bummed around with nothing really to do but i couldnt go to lindz's house cus i had church the next day and i rarely EVER go to church but this time i had to cus i was spose to acculite. On sunday, me n my dad were on our way to church but we had to wait for a friken lonnnng slowwwww train, so i was 2 late to acculite ne ways and we just went home. Today.....was a regular monday....tireing...and i have play practice at 6 tonight. rrrr i dont want to goooo but i have to so i spose i will. Im gunna finish homework now.

this last weekend i went to a hotel with my mom and i took lindsey with and it was fun...yea we just hung out...we had a really nice room...we had a hirlpool tub and it soooooo nice so me n her hung out in there most of the night and talked and took some pics n stuff n that was my weekend....then...monday n tuesday were boringish...but tuesday i went to a football game n i was spose to do flags but we go out of it cus it was really cold! i friken freeezing! and then...sam n andrew were all like lovey-dovey n it was the same with candice and mitch...ha lovey-dovey is a funny word...and now its wednesday and MEA!!! so we have no school the rest of the week n i plan on just hanging out with friends n just having fun...yea so ill write later about it! ha

it is friday the 13th! ooo spooky! not really ha... i stayed home from school today...n yesturday...and i came home early from school wednesday... i went to the doctor n i guess i have like areally bad sinus infection and it was giving me a superly bad headache but i got some medicine n im feeling better...by a lot but my mommy says i cannot do ne thing tonight tho cus she dont want me to get ne sicker....so this is bound to be a very boring friday night...prolly filled with movie watching...and music listening ha...but hey...at least i go the vacation from school i needed and i feel much better...both physically n mentally! well thats all for now....-peace-

ive got lots to say today.... well....friday was the home football game that our band and colour gard was performing at...and since in in colour gard...i had to be there, but all us colour gard ppl decided to all meet at kelseys house at like 5-5:30ish so we could all get ready n go to the game tegether. wellllll.....this girl ashley, danielle.?...candice and me all didnt have rides to kelseys house so we met her at the high school at 5...after her tennis practice was over...and we all left in kelseys car to kelseys house..and kelsey was driving. we were just about to turn left down the rode to kelseys house when a big, black suv hit us! they luckily only hit the front left corner of kelseys car so no one was hurt...but....if she would have turned a few seconds earlier....then....it really could have been bad! I guess they were trying to pass us as we were turning. then we just pulled off the the side of the rode and kelsey n ashley got out to see the damage and the rest of us were in the backseat so we just sat there for a while. Kelsey started crying and then she called her parents n ashley called her mom and they all came and so did the shariff. candice, danielle, and me were gunna leave to kelseys house with kelseys mom so we all had to write down our names and phone #'s and addresses for the shariff and then we left. we got to her house at about 5:30, and then the other girls showed up, but kelsy didnt get there until about 6 so we were runnign late so after everyone was ready we left and we got there late, but we were dtill in time fot the half time show. We perfomed and it was so much fun! i didnt think it would have been but it was...and while we were performing kelsey was still crying...she kept thinking about how she was so close to killing all of us. I felt bad for her..and the accident wasnt even her fault. I hope shes feeling better by monday! andddddd then after the performance we all just hung out at the game until it was over n then my dad picked up my sis, her friend, my friend, and me and we dropped off amanda and went home..where sams dad was to pick her up and we went inside and i told my mom about the accident and she was like OMG! but then. we cheered her up by giving her a early bday present...a ring my dad bought her. its SO pritty! and she cryed cus she was so happy...it was special...ha. and that was the end of friday...

life...is boring...the same old thing every day.... sept today i had play practice!....which was boring as friken hellll....and a waste of my time.....so lindz...ure lucky u did not come...but i told a few ppls that u may be coming back...n they r excited...but not as excited as ME!!! k...well...today i came home from play practice and me n my sis tries to invite her...what do u call him?...boyfriend...but not really...?...to my moms party this weekend and i was like NO! mom isnt gunna want him there! n then for some odd reason...she started badmouthing me to her friend that is over at the moment...amanda...and i heard it so i was denying what she was saying n stuff...but i didn't have to effort to win the fight so i gave up..and so i think amanda thinks im just...stupid right now...but w/e...i guess i dont really care...but then me n my sister just started to..uh...word fight..?...we basically swore alot at eachother but then i slammed theh computer room door and turned music up loud n it was over...but yea...im gunna go..ive gatta leave for church here pritty fast...i wish i was going to the warehouse cus theres this band there tonight i wanted to see...but i am not.. :(....i have chirch...so byeee

hmmmmm there's this boy...and i like him lots...and he use to like me lots too...but i dont think he likes me that way very much ne more....and it makes me sad...but i wanna no...i wanna ask him...but i havent been able to talk to him...i cant stope thinking bout him...i meen ik i never see him...but still..that is not reason enough to not like him...ugh i wish he lived closer so i could talk to him everyday...cus i wish i want to so bad!...but i can not...y do i like him? hes nice, sweet, funny, and hes just got a cute personality and he is cute...so theres a bonus! ha but ne ways...im gunna go...and continue on with homework...and thinking about "him" some more...byeeee

well, yesturday ive decided to start over new with sitdiary so i deleted all my old entries and im starting over with new ones and im gunna try to keep up with it this time! well....ill start with yesturday...yesturday i had to get up at 6am...wayyyy to early...especially on a monday! and i had to go to gay flags...colour gard...and well i like it more than band...but i still dont like it all that well cus of the early practices and some of the ruteens..?....are just stupid. then, school accually started but i wasnt dont with flags yet cus i had to do flags for 1st hr. 2...band...so i did n then my arm killed! 2nd hr. was phy ed and it was the WORST because we had to run the friken mile...and we had no notice about it at all...and i just about passed out because i already didnt feel good and then...i was like shaky for the rest of the school day.....and so dont remember what happend the rest of the school day...i was zoning everything out after phy ed, but when i got home i took a BIGASS tylenol n then i felt better. I really didnt feel like doing homework...so i didnt do it..but then i had to go to play practice at 6pm...it was ok...because we picked lindz up and she made it more entertaining. The play is really dirty n bad...which is funny...ha...but we had to make a lot of changes to it and i have a gay part...and im accually a guy named BJ...because "BJ's r his thing" (which is an accual line in the play, which we changed)...but i guess we're gunna make BJ a girl...somehow...? and then we dropped lindz off at the bar, which my dad got a kick out of, and we went home...and i did homework till late n then i took a shower and slept...but not for long..and i got up at like 6:30am and got ready to go back to school...which REALLY sucks! all u ppl that think 9th grade is like the best of high school...r really wrong! 9th grade has just sucked so far...n i dont think that is going to change. so ne ways, i got to school and found out there was a lycium 1st n 2nd hour n it thought it would be gay, but it was really good. there was this band that just sang reandom songs...idky....because the the songs they sang didnt really relate to what the speaker was talking about...which was about his childhood...which really sucked! but he made it through it so we can too...yea..it was good though...i was ont he verge of tears at some points and some ppl cried for like...and hr. i guess u could say it was "touching" ha. ok and then 3rd-7th hr. went on as normal...but i left 8th hour like...40mins. early cus my dad was suppose to pick me up and take me to the ortho....well....he never came so i sat outside 4 like what...35mins...n then i rode the bus home...which was boring...and this meens extra time for my braces and i want em off!!! so yea...i was a lil pissed when i got home and my parents were like "oh shoot! we forgot u....sorry...."....i was like yea..thanks...and now im here writing about...stuff...but yea i should go clean cus our house is messy and its my mom's 40th b-day party this weekend and the house has to look nice...and ive got some homework that needs doing...so byeee....ill try to write tommarow...but if i dont...it will prolly be cus of homework or church...

ive got more to say.... okkkk...sooo.....then...saturday i woke up at like 11:30....got ready for my moms party...and then ppl started to show up... it was a lil boring for me...but my mom seemed to be having a good time. a lot of ppl showed up. I seemed like when one person left...like 2 more would come. THEN, mitch and curtis showed up at my house and they were like yea were gunna have a bonfire tonight n u should come n stuff...and so i was like ok and then they left...just in time i might add! my uncle came outside just went they closed the doors on the car and he was like hey! i wanted to meet them! and i was thank god he didnt! cus he would hae embarassed me im sure. and then he gave me a lecture about boys...it was lame...ha. and then when we went back inside everyone was all like oooooo ally and i was just like shut up! ha. my mom said me n my sis could go so i called a couple ppl and told em about n told em they should go and i called meagan and shes like i can go only if i can stay over at ure house and it was fine so meagan came over n we went to the bonfire...which wasnt even a bonfire. we played night games for a lil while n then we all went inside and went downstairs and just hung out and watched a movie n stuff. at like 11:30ish mitch drove my sis, meagan, and me home in his moms mini van! ha he looked so funny driving. when we got home we found out my uncle randy took my mom out to keggers cus there was a band playing there so when they came home...they were both pritty wasted.. ha it was quite funny. my uncle had to sleep over and he had to sleep in my sisters room so my sis had to sleep in my room with me and meagan. yeaaaa so we went to sleep..late..and we woke up about noon..and then meagan had to leave...so i just bummed around for a while..n now im here...but im gunna go....byeeeee!!!

well....it was going good between me n the boy....but now today....i found out that he may have a girlfriend that im not suppose to know about...and this could be possible considering we go to different schools n all. The worse part is...i have to ask him about sarah...his supposed girlfriend...and even if he denyes it....i dont know if its event the truth! It would be so easy to lie....so idk ne more....long distance relationships just dont work.... i dont even know why i tryed......

well....today was just....loooonnnnnnggggggg and we had homeroom roday which made it even longer....i jsut wanted to go home and just sulk....i hold all these emotions inside and it just keeps getting harder....i feel like im gunna pop....and everything ne one says to me that is jokingly mean...i just get mad at them for saying it...like today in FACS i was sharpening my pencil and in front of me was megan and she was like gosh ally ure so loud be quiet im trying to work...and i just rolles my eyes...and then she turned around again and was like ally...shut up! (she was joking) and i was just like u shut up megan and walked away...... i need to like....get away....from everyone...because im just sick of everyone wow....i jsut realized how good i am at hiding these feelings....because none of my friends THOUGHT i seemed annoyed at all today....even tho....i really was....but i think my sister and amanda noticed cus they live with me....cus amanda's mom is out of town for a while a song that pritty much sums up how i feel: I cannot take this anymore I'm saying everything I've said before All these words they make no sense I find bliss in ignorance Less I hear the less you'll say But you'll find that out anyway Just like before... Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I find the answers aren't so clear Wish I could find a way to disappear All these thoughts they make no sense I find bliss in ignorance Nothing seems to go away Over and over again Just like before... Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break Break break break break break shut up when I'm talking to you shut up shut up shut up shut up when I'm talking to you shut up shut up shut up shut up I’m about to break Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break Break break break break break break shut up when I'm talking to you shut up shut up shut up shut up when I'm talking to you shut up shut up shut up shut up I’m about to break Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break ---allys note--- i feel like all my friends only care about only their problems and they expect me to care about em too....and listen to em...and i do and i dont mind...but what i do mind is they never have time to listen to my problems....or even....jsut listen to me....but...ill get over it....