Everytime I get a call from a certain boy, I get more and more confused. It's like he's trying to start something again, and I know that if he asked, I would never turn him down. There is nothing wrong with me going back to him, and I want to more than anything...so why am I so confused? I think my confusion is a result of not knowing what he is thinking. When I go down to visit him I think things will become more clear...or I hope so anyway. It's so hard to know with him because it seems like he still has feelings for me. Especially since the one he left me for didn't take him back. (which I find rather funny) So, since she didn't take him back, and that's the only reason why he left me in the first place, shouldn't he now come back to me? I know people would tell me not to go back to him because he just wants to be with me because he can't have her, but I don't care. I just want to be with him again. I just want to be more of a part of his life than I am now. I find myself wanting to be in his presence more and more these days. I long for his kisses, and his intoxicating embrace. He is so beautiful in every way. I don't truly know how I would move forward in life if I wasn't atleast his friend. Meeting him that summer night..July 29th 2005 to be exact, was the best moment I have experienced thus far. I love him with everything I am. ..the best day I can ever remember Always remember...