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In D.C., we went to the Vietnam War Memorial to find one of my dad's friends that was either killed, a POW, or an MIA. When we walked there, it was so cold and rainy, but a perfect mood for the memorial. We found his name and it was just so sad. I mean if you think about it. Every name has a face. Every face has a body. Every body had a family. Every family cried. Every body was missing or invaded by a bullet or slashed with a knife. It just makes me realize how precious life really is.

We won 1st place at Nationals! And if that wasn't enough, we got a trophy, a medal, and an all expense paid trip to Space Camp in Huntsville, AL. We also met the team from Phoenix, AZ. They were really nice, and extremely hillarious! They're names are Kyle, Jamie, and Jessica. All of us are trying to keep in contact and maybe even pretty close friends. I really don't think I like Jake anymore, unless I do subconciously (sp?) But you never know.

Today I really felt sick, which isn't good for D.C. I drank some skim milk, some orange juice, and had a clemintine, even though I HATE oranges with a passion (well maybe not a passion, but it DID sound good!) except blood oranges. I feel a little better. I am soooo confused right now. Today in band, we had another study hall and I was writing down some events that happened in Future Cities and laying on the floor, and Jake came up, pulled up a chair and sat near my feet. I really didn't think much of it until later. I was walking around and for some reason or another, Jake was "following" me, or keeping a short distance between us. I was a bit confused. He also looked a bit different. Jake, if you're reading this...Happy Early 13th Birthday!

Ok so I'm really trying to not think about Jake or that I like him, sometimes I'm suceeding (sp?) but other times.....not working. I'm so excited for Saturday (the day we leave for D.C.) but it's taken up so much of my free time. For example, tomorrow I was going to go running, but guess what?... We have ANOTHER Future City meeting. I guess I should be willing to give up my free time for this once in a lifetime chance. I really want to see the Vietnam War Memorial because someone my dad knew was either a POW, MIA, or died. That's so sad. I guess I should really listen to the advice that I got, since I asked for it. I'll give it some time and maybe Jake's like me, shy to talk to someone I/he likes. I really think we have a chance at Nationals. Wish us luck if I don't write before I leave (Feb. 21-26)

In case you guys haven't noticed, I changed my diary. I hope you all like it. Also, if you don't know what shoes I wear or didn't notice, the header pics are the shoes I wear everyday to school! Today I made $15 working for 3 hours at an old lady's house. I had to clean, yippee! :-( My dad's car also broke down twice, 1st in Fox Chapel and 2nd on the Hulton Bridge, sounds fun. I also ran a little bit, but not much. My knee feels better. I hope I won't miss Jake that much when I go to D.C. I don't think it will be as bad as if I had a bf, but all the same I hope we have a ton of fun! :-P Any advice with what to do with Jake?

You are the blue moonlight. You are peaceful andserene, kind and loving. Your heart neverstears you wrong. You let out uncertainess withtears, and you let out fear with light. Theblue light means distance. You are afraid toget to close to people. You have been betrayedonce before and can't do it again. Your dreamjob could consist of a counsler or a traveler.You love humanity and lonliness. You will havelove in your life and will never pass byunnoticed. Your beauty attracts many, but yourpersonality is rare. The uniqness in your mindwill always separate you. You can always findyourself lingering near the ocean, thinkingabout life. Your head seema to be up in theclouds, though you body is down omn Earth. Youchange and each time come back a better person.The blue moonliht will always guide to safetyin the darkest hour. What shade of moonlight are you? (Boys or Girls) brought to you by Quizilla

Happy Valentine's Day everyone, especially for people who have a valenitne! I think my friends and I are getting together for a non-valentine party.

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Well today is Friday the 13th, my lucky day! This weekend, is a 4 day weekend and I'm so excited! 4 days to sleep in! I'm not sure if Jake, being more "open" to me is because I told him I like him and he said he doesn't like me and he sort of feels bad. But I'm always hopeful. I didn't eat lunch with Jake yesterday, because I saw there wasn't a seat next to him and I wasn't sure if John (his friend) was being serious or he was just trying to lead me on.

Ok, today was very confusing, hence the title and mood. I really thought I was over Jake, but apparently that's not the case. Yesteday, he was allowed to take his sling off, that's good. I knew his friend John knew I liked him, but I didn't think much of it, until lunch today. My friends and I got in line, and he (John) was right behind us. Again, I didn't think much of it except for the fact he kept looking at us/me like he wanted to say something. He did. When we got further up the line, he said, "Hey, Jake saved a seat next to him for you." *looks at him questioning* "I eat in there." -me *points to the band room* I'm not really sure what that was about. It didn't seem likely, 1. Jake said he didn't like me, and 2. There was no seat next to him when I looked. But on the other hand, it DID seem a bit likely, because he did seem more "open" to me. Today was also GREAT, because I was allowed to run again!!!!!:-D I really missed it and it felt so good, as well as the stretching, push-ups, and other training things. Please help/give advise again. I would really appriciate it!

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Today and yesterday were GREAT! As you may or may not know, my knees have been hurting and screwed up for a while. Yesterday I went to one of my two physical therpists, she was the one that took the X-rays, and she was impressed with my progress over the last 6 weeks. I haven't been able to run or practice for soccer because it has to heal. I am very proud to say that I can now run and train for soccer, but I can't do stairs, which I like doing, but thats alright. I am very happy for another reason and I also feel free, hence the mood. I also feel that I really don't like Jake anymore. I'm glad I told him, because I might have wasted my time on someone that doesn't like me as well. Since this has happened, I've been more aware of other people around me. I'll let you know if anything else happens.

Could someone please tell me how to add to your friend list, and how to put a picture on the background?!? Thanks!

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Ok, so I'm feeling alot better. I'm not sure how much truth that the IM had in it from Jake, but I do believe that he doesn't like me. That's fine with me. It's happened before, but in a slightly different way. I did feel the same way, vulernable. It's like I just exposed a big part of me and there is no way to undo that. Probably because that's exactly what happened. I'm basically over it, but I'm not totally giving up on him, yet. I believe that most people should get a second chance. And Jake is one that is going to get one. Oh well, thank you all for your help!

I told you all that I would say what happened when I told him, so here it goes. I IMed him. Jake: hey Me: hey Jake: wat r u doin today Me: nothing except at 6 going to vals Jake: kool Jake: well vim not doin anything Jake: im* Jake: so.... Me: are you suggesting that we do something together? Jake: uh..... Jake: sr yi gtg Jake: i* Me: hold on Jake: ttyl lyl Jake signed off at 1:59:28 PM. Jake signed on at 2:05:48 PM. Me: i need to tell you something Jake: wat? Me: ive really liked you for a while Jake: ohh really Jake: i kinda knew it Me: yes Jake: cause u ran up to my house Me: oic Me: and andrew thought you were clueless Me: what did you mean by "lyl"? Jake: well sry that was my feiends Me: i dont care Jake: but i dont really want a girl freindf Me: its fine Jake: cuz i dont really like u Me: again its fine It's alright with me, but I'm still hopeful. Maybe, maybe, maybe! Please tell me what you think. And what you think "lyl" stands for. I'm sort of confused.

Ok, I did call Jake. His mom answered and said he wasn't there, but that he'll call me back. Jake did call me back, and I said that I had something for him, and asked if I could come up for just a second. When I went up there, I gave him what I wanted, a hackey sack. But I didn't tell him how I feel about him. Oh well, it still feels good that I gave it to him. I sort of feel like I should take it slow with him. I hope that I will be able to tell him before his birthday, and before I leave for D.C. for Future Cities, his birthday is February 20 (the day before we leave.) I would really appriciate any advice from anyone willing to give it.