my desire is before you my sighing is not hdden from you my hearts pants like a dog and i can barely breathe my strength seems to have failed me the light in my eyes has also vanished and i can't tell a dream from reality the only thing i feel is pain and that is how i tell if i am alive these scars wont fade away and i cant see my shoes i will guard my ways and i wont let them in i can keep them i'll stay crying to myself if i said i didnt need them then i would be lying i will be mute with silence my sarrows stirred up for now i'll bare it on my own cause the world has let me go i'm giving this to no one and that no one is me so be it for me to die they wont miss me much they wont miss me at all it's best if i leave it all behind maybe i am blind and maybe they are there for me give ear to my cry do not be silent to my tears but if someone is there why dont i see them and why aren't they here why are my tears still falling