I'm still really confused about all this stuff but I guess I'll just have to deal with it. Its not like anyone really cares anyways.. ::Heres Another Poem:: She was living a broken life She thought no one cared She always wanted to be alone All because of a love she once shared. He broke her heart He made her cry He told her lies All this made her want to die. She swore to the razor She would be its best friend She couldn't get her mind off Him All this turned out bad in the end. He found her dead He read the note He couldn't believe it In it is what she wrote: "I loved you With all my heart But all you did Was tear me apart. Im sorry and i still love you I just wish you could have seen What you did to me Now I'm dead and only fourteen.."

Well...Some people seem to be annoying me lately. I don't get it. Why would you want to change to fit in? Shouldn't people like you for you and the people who don't arn't worth your time anyways right? Oh well whatever. (moving on, lol) I'm so confused, part of me says I like him and another part says I don't. I don't know maybe I just miss the feeling of knowing someone actually cares and wants to be with me. Also being able to just have them hold you :-/. Oh well I guess I'm just going to have to deal with being alone for now. I thought our love would be forever, you and me always together. But then you left me tears in my eyes, my mind full of all your lies. Why was I to blind to see, that you never really loved me? Everything you said was fake, me loving you was my biggest mistake. Now I sit here not knowing what to do, is it love or hate I feel for you? Only time will answer this question, until then your name I will never mention.

Well I finally got a new one of these things and I kinda know how to work it now. The past three days have sucked majorly. :-( and now I think I got myself sick because of it. I'll write more about it later I just don't feel like it right now. Heres a Poem that kinda explains how I feel, but its not very good :-/ but oh well... You linger in my mind, In my heart you stay, And now I cry, Because I am missing you today. Thinking of you deeply, Wishing you were here, Because when you were around, I had nothing to fear. I'm missing your arms holding me tight, I felt so safe and warm, But know I'm afriad to stand up and fight. I feel empty and worthless, with nothing to give, and feel as if I don't want to live.