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LIFE IS SOOO UNKIND......L & R (rip)

well its another day in another Month. ---- i don't know what's up but i just feel so god damn depressed! like i think its school & cheering & really not haeing anything that i can do. i feel like everyone else's life is moving forward and im just standing still. its just a all time down feeling. ...... WHo know's.....Also i have been feeling really shitty the past few days. i dont know whats goingon with me these days.....:[ *im out* <3

YES... i fucking hate school!!!!! Why ? you may ask...... 1) cause we now have 5 lunch's 2) changes in the dress code 3) THE PEOPLE 4) pride everyday! >>>>>> i just cant handdle school and i hate everything about it. IN OTHER NEWS... i am now employed at UMaine Dinning! HOller! yes its like once a week! and im sooo happy about that and also cheering is getting better! ...:i miss summer already:... Buh Bye... KTlyn

Alright today is my last day of work! yeah im happy and all that good stuff...BUT i will miss some of the people! and also my paycheck! ohhh welll i guess, im giving it up so i can cheer...lol ----Also tomorrow and the next day ihave to wake up and be at the school at 8am...its gunna suck... Why ? you ask...because i decided to be a mentor for Freshman, and now i kinda have to. it sucks but ohh well maybe ill end up likeing the class and working with Freshies. ohh cheering is going, im in lot's of pain cuz i suck && didnt do anything all summer. SOO im Exream out of shape. ............. :] Katilyn* Leave some comments people!

K.... I got pulled over and now im going to lose my license for the min or 90 days... But lets go back to the begining of this Nightmare! K....it was roughly 10 30 PM and i was leaving Emily & Erins house... so i could get home by 11 cuz thats what time i told my dad i would be home around. So i go to pull out of htere BEAUtiful driveway and see a cars headlights about a half a mile up the road. i figure i can make it and he wont be right behinde me ( cuz i do it all the time) Boi was i wrong! the asshole gets right on my ass!!! [Mistake #1] I think about pulling over to let him go by me and then just figuer i can speed up a little and give us some space. NOPE, he speeds up with me! what a fucking ass!then i jsut speed up again cuz he was pissing me off! i get up to a fast speed and look up in my mirror and see Nice PRetty Blue Flashing lights!!! ^for the people that dont know it feels like hell on earth^ So i pull over....But ohh No thats not good eough for this asshole! He tell's me to Pull over futher! haha all i could think about at that point was Super Troopers ! but then when he came up to the car and was like do you know why i pulled kyou over... Me playing Stupid! ( hoping it helps) Nope i dont... hes like speeding! im like kyeah i kinda figured! hes like do you know the speed limit around here....BIG FAT LIRE ME... Nope i dont what is it? hes like its 45 & i got you on radar going 74. im like really wow i didnt realize i was going that fast! { thinking to myself--Maybe if i didnt have an idiot on my ass} then he asked for my license and registartion and proof of insureance! well the only thing i could really find was my GAY ass License! and then he asked my home phone and my parents names. and said keep looking ill be right back! YUP he called my house! i wanted to die at that point! cuz i could find a damn thing ! so i started balling! yeah it was sad! and he was telling em to pull myself to gether and that this wasnt the end of the world and all this stuff! BULLSHIT! i bet he's never been pulled over! anyways so i finally geive him all the shit he needs! and he puts the ticket in front of me and or something close to one and is like by you signing this your not admitting to speeding you jsut need to sign...So i do! call histarical and shit! then he give's me my ticket! and he walks awayu and says your dad is expecting you home so you need to get going! ASSSS BAG!!!!! then i leave the area... and first thing i do is look for my cell & call Jessica! i am crying to her about what just happen'd then i realize that i cant see so i neeed to pull off and pull myself together eough to get home! so i pull over and talk/ ball to her for a a wile and then figure i can get the convo with my dad over with so i call him! and am even worse! cuz i knwo its disapointed and i just looked at the ticket and its 210$ and everything is just bad!!!! so i sit there after talking with my dad for a wile and go 20 the whole way home so i didnt make it home till like 12 +.... and when i get home i jsut want to die... i never want to drive again! and i dont even know what im gunna do with out my licese! its gunna be hell! but i learned my lession! and i dont think i will be speeding anytime soon! anywyas im outie.,.... Later BITCHes! KAtilyn

alright people im tired! so here's a quick update on my life...lol well i finally gave a two week notice at work! yay! i dont really want to stop working but with cheering starting monday... im not sure ill be able to keep work and cheering! so ill cut wwork out of my life... not that i dont love the money but o well next summer im sure ill ahve a job.... anyways NIGHT...... update when i get back from SHINPOND Muah...katilyn

well I went to the Kelly clarkson concert it was pretty good! the staff person let me and emily go up front even tho it wasnt general addmit. So that was pretty good. and Last night we all ( erin jessica emily&me) went to the Bangor state fair...haha it was pretty fun! even tho i feel really gross after beeing there. o well! Emily and me went on the Bungie thing! it was soooo fun the guy put the weight at like 190 so we would bounce Higher! yeah it was sweet. then em & me wanted to leave so i tole erin and jessica that i wanted to leave and if they wanted to go on one more ride that was fine. so me and emily wne tot the car and sat and waited! yeah 20 min later i call and they say there getting food and the coming to the car.... 15 min later i call and there going on another ride....10 min after that i call and they say there going on the bumper cars..... so me and emily left them there.... yes i was going to go back and get them i just didnt want to sit in my car all night long! that would be soooo stupid. so im almost home its like 11 45 and they call but i missed it so i call back and i was like where areyou do you need a ride and they didnt so i guess everything worked out! either way i feel bad for leaving but i was getting pissed just sitting there. and today i wokr up at 5:30 when emily called me and was wondering where jessica nd erin where... well i had brought jessica to her car so i did see them last night but i just figured that erin was with jessica t her house.... well i call jessica up and erin didnt want to leave nates house so she didnt and thats where she was! MAN O' MAN, this shit is getting messed up anyways... im gunna try and go back to sleep cuz its still only like 8 AM! so C-ya Katilyn*

well i got a Fucking WAVERUNNER! Also i gave a two week notice on my job ( cuz it sucks that bad ) ALSO----I LOVE my life))))) yeah dontreally feel like writing so LATER losers!

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OOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGGG yes Last Night was AMAZING! it was AWEOSME well here's what happen ----> Me erin jessiker emily and Josh all piled into my car and drove to portland! Holler( we didnt get lost)on the way down some passengers Lit up! yeah i think i got Hi off smoke! lol and then when we finaly made it down there we walked around to try and find somewhere to eat! No luck rfeally i had a Half a bag of really really SICK chips! then we went back to the car to movie it to a parking thing for the Concert! it was 10 dollers but well worth it! we were close to the doors so we stood in line for a wile,... then Josh gave all of us a heart attack cuz he thought i lost his ticket but it was in his shoe! THANK god! then when we were walking in me erin and emily where waiting for jessica but it turned out that her ticket got refuned... how we dont know ANyways she had to go to the other side of the civic center and this guys was VERY Nice and just gave her a new ticket! THANKS! so Josh me and erin and emily where all sitting down and i was looking for jessica to walk in cuz we were on the floor and she did! i was really worried that we would never find her when the concert finaly got started me and emily got Sucked in to the crowed moving forward to the stage... i was Holding erins arm! so i would get lost from everyone! it was crazy! then this FAT NASTy wwoman came and like pushed me and erin and then was all pissed off at us like we pushed her! Then when Breaking Benjamin came on EVERYONE went NUTS! the Front 10 rows of people all fell over and me and erin where on the bottom on the floor! I serously thought that my Leggs where going to beak and i was going ot get tramppled! but some guy grabed my arm and pulled me out!!!!!!!! so after that i need'd some fresh air! so i crowed surf'd out! it was FUn! i did it like 3 times! it was ssssoooooooo Hot in there! then wile staind was playing there was a MOSH pit! yeah i got in it and got Punched in the FACE by some guy after that i had enough! jessica and emily where kicking asses in the M-pit! it was Crazy! ohhh and how can i forget that one of the times i went up to leave i kicked erin in the face and gave her a Bloody Nois! sry about that erin! other than that it was sooooooooooo Much fun! and i loved it! ohhh and 3 dorrs down was awesome! i had emily get up and take some pic's for me! yes i know im a bad ass taking pictures at a concert! anyways im out! LATER

ummm.... well over the past week i was in CANADA!!!! bringing my Brother kenneth to school! yeah i know how sweet!!! Also i got all kinds of awesome stuff mainly Clothes! but ohhhh I also got a new tattoo! its a symbol that stands for (Mistake) its on the back of my neck! i got it cause well mostly i make a lot of them and right now thats what my life is! Anyways Also work is still aweful... i write down on papaer that i cant WORK on a day and they shedual me for the day anyways! WHAT FUCKING BITCHEs...I hate it! and jessica ( she went with me )she got a tatttoooo too.... hers is a dolphine! its really cute and thanks to me... for asking the Guy to draw one by hand! yeah i like it! anyways my Tongue ring is feeling Much much much better! now that i have a smaller barbell....j yupp thats the NEWS Later

yeah... well i fucked up! atleast i can fess up! as sad as it is But not 2 much i can really say to get out of the Whole i made for myself! Living each day as it comes! i guess going with the moments ---- hopping everything turns out okay .. sooo far not soo good Lookingup! happing eveything here turns out alright IM out tho!

Yeah i DONT know what the fuck im thinkig!!! When did life get soooo hard...?? when i was little it was all just a game that i always won! Now this game is kicking my asss, I cant Fight or say no... its just not in me!!!! Help me Find my strenghth! I need someone to SAVE me! Im going down FAster with every move i MAKE Regret is my only vocabulary!!!! there's nothing else to say, cause i cant take back what iv done cause its in the past BUT ( it lingers...Like a door i havent shut ) Do i really want to shut it,,,I am scared of what i might do with out that constant reminder!? Its a risk im not sure i can take. Can i live like this?? Cause i wouldnt call this living ( its learning the HARD way)

So its been a little wile! WEll my Job still sucks.... first weekend of "summer" i have had to work tell like 1030 YUCK gaggggg anyways that has sucked -----> Not two much else has happened! ummm lets seee Still Chilling with the 3 BEST and well thats about it.... Doing what we do best-----> H-D-F___ Yuppp thats my GIRLS! yeah im done writing now.... Well no im not JessiKER-----My First best is coming over 2night i wonder what kind of trouble we're gunna get into??? Holler @ ya Girls! -----> Hopefuly Topping Last summer!----and it was pretty good! well im out...... Later GAter! Katilyn RAE*

haha----> well for the FIST time this year i Skipped SCHool and only 3 periods! *I know im cool* Anyways---> Yeah so my Jobs been suckingand well now im the "dish BITCH" its HEll! im in soooo much pain i need like 20 days to recoop!!!!!! ---> yeah so i skipped school with erin emily Jessica and Brian---- we didnt have anywere to go due to parents or ANNOying BRothers! so we went to the Legdes---adn me and Jessica used the Rope swing and jJumped in the RIVER---it was FUcking Colder than anything! but we Jumped in again!!! wow we're sooooooo smart!!!! anyways im DEAD!!!! peace Katilyn RAE*

Yupp----> High schools over for a lot of people now!!!!!(my Brother) Yes i hate him! but turth be told i think i might miss him when he goes away to school!!!! 30 days and he leaves. Last Night 3 June (AKA) GRAD NIGHT ---> Me and Emily went to project gradutaion after granduation! yeah it was fun! and we kick ass at the Stick game! ohh and we had our "CARDS head to us" THELADY was kinda reading my palm...lol OMG----RANDY ABBOT was sooo "cool" He took me by the arm and was like " does anyone want to be friends with this girl SHe has no friends" AHHHHHH sad!!!! i was Laughing sooooo bad lol! anyways yeah im sad that the Seniors are gone....o well i guess THe rest of the STUDENT Body still has two weeks left!!!!! BLAH its gunna be killer! Wel;l im off to BAngor to get sum Kelly tickets! PEACE......Lv sum comments people!!!!! Lot of love+good luck! '05 OT GRADS! Katilyn RAE*

HAHAHA.... 05 SKits! love 'em ~ THEY where AWESOME~ kinda feel for the "side ponie" group tho! it was bad BUT in a good way.....cuz" omg THEY love BRAD" K im done.....the other skits where funny but that one took the cake! lol wow im a losser....Happy to say that MY class was not made fun of!!!! holler! cuz 07 was made in HEAVEN!!!!! anywas work tomorrow and well tell monday!!! update then!!!PEACE N**!!!! KATILyn----->RAE*

Holler---- yup thats RIGHT I went campping all weekend........Me and erin!!!! the coolest girls your will ever meet!!! ----> We where at her CAmp up in LINCON!!! It was AMAZING!!!! we built a FIRE....and well yeah thats about as campy as it got~~~~ but whatever it was FUN....... REWINDe----- Work is SCuking A SHIT load...cuz well i cant go to my brothers graduation!!!! SHITTY!!!!!Ohh and well i just suck at eveything therE!!!!! N e WAy----LIFE is goooooodddd!:)-----K i wont rube it in too much!!!!! later losers* ------------------( your not losers) LIFES like an hourGlass Guled to the TABLE <3 Katilyn RAE*

YEah i no i just updated this thing yesterday but i have to tell everyone that i HAVE A job!!!!! yaya now i can make my own money!!!! Yessss!!!! -----> yeah school sucked it up but whatever!!! AHHH well im dead long day so LATER ........ :) :) :) hahaha!!!!! wow im sooo dead Peace! Muah.....katilyn RAE*