I've been thinking it through since i wrote the earlier entry. I don't get any credit for suffering and living my life with this heavy drama on my back. I' suppose to be having fun for my senior year. And fun is what i'll have without anything to worry about. I guess we aren't really meant to be, Q. And DramaKing is so last summer. haha! Let's leave each other's backs alone from now on. Because its stupid having to act as if you're just a friend to me. Sometimes I just want to blurt it all out and ask what's the matter with you?!?!?! But I still want to live. And I'm not that desperate enough. Thanks. I got it all out now.

It's been really AGES since I wrote here(this time when I say its been quite a while, it really is, trust me on that), and since no one ever reads this and because I just really need to let this all out, here it goes... i don't like feeling sad. really. and whenever i see you, both of you, i do. first because i hate having feelings for the both of you and knowing at the same time that you have feelings for someone else too. this really isn't coming out right. i don't know how i have the same liking for not just one person but...two. you are entirely two different persons but somehow there's something that just makes me feel...its unexplainable. the worse part is we are friends and i keep on getting signals that somehow you like me too. argh! this is getting cheesy. but then when we are this close now, we are likes miles apart later. and that's why im sad. that's why i don't get the both of you. i keep telling myself to just keep on living. i've become an expert of playing it cool and keeping it hidden. all because i don't know what to do. and because i think that's the best thing. bye. hope we're cool.

ahh i feel drunk really... so much going on...can't barely see things clearly...dozing off anytime soon...please bear with me...=)

I AM SO FUCKING SORRY.... THIS ENTRY IS ALL ABOUT THE FUCKINGNESS OF MY FIRST DAY AT SCHOOL... EVERYTHING IS A PIECE OF CRAP PUT TOGETHER BY... PEOPLE AROUND ME IS SO UNPREDICTABLE, THE SAME AND THE SAME AND THE SAME AND... FUCK IT.

hello there. it's been really ages since i've written here. and now the month of May is almost over, rain has finally arrived making it quite colder than the last month, and of course (though i hate to admit this) i can count the last days of my not-so-good vacation! i can't wait for school but i can't also believe that this will be the last 7 days of my late-night sleeps and bumming days of being a lazyass. however, its been totally all good since the tv 9the one that was broken before) is now fixed. well, i cnt think of anyhting more to say, im running out of prepaid. hollaback!

so what made the 'summer getaway' a whole lot better is that not only did they made me wear swimsuit but also we were ALL there!yipee!!i had a blast! it was way better than i expected.

life is full of sacrifices. sometimes its not always about doing what you love but loving what you do. its sad to realized that everything will soon be gone. we do not own anything in this lifetime. its hard to embrace the fact that there are more questions than answers.

so much for the new background right? tell me what's better...this one or the other one.anyway i heard something was wrong with sitD.is it true? summer vacation is starting here well...it already started but there's just something inside me that doesn't feel like it. but to hell, ITS THE START OF THE BUMMING DAYS! argh! the beggining of what i fear! nyahahahaha! but then again its always been SSDD for me. you know...same shit different day. ;) there's an upcoming avril lavigne/simple plan concert here in Phillippines. it's on the 31st. i would love to come but poor me i can't. my parents told me not to, bomings are 'in' nowadays you know. bomb my ass! its pure bull. hey erika! if you're reading this...would you mind checking out on what's going on with our story? i just can't get my ass to write.im so bummed.x)

woah! it's been really really been quite a while since im able to get my lazybones in here and start using my hands for something.this past few weeks has been greeeaaaaat. went to a concert with a couple of friends. its Kitchie Nadal and Rivermaya (i know some of you don't know these mortals but they're really famous here in the Philippines)its smashing. the sounds systems were busted at first and the lights were shut off too. there's been a blackout for about 10 good minutes and finally everything went well, fortunately. its really awesome.

%^&# all those stoic, indiffirent, irritating but gentleman guys like him! noticing me and being the bloke you are and then the next thing i know you're ignoring me like you don't even know me. yeah right im nothing i know. thanks for reminding, i am just a sissy classmate who tries to keep my eyes off you but can't, since most of the time my glances are ending up in your freaking direction. and my peripheral visions are following you. err..shut me up please, i beg you..

well well well....ive been to alot of partying lately.our school's party sucked...big time...its better watching damn dog operations abt their broken bones than sitting there.hehehe juz kidding.that's a bit too harsh.but really...anyway the next party is much better...we went to eka's house...watched some flicks(godsend-watch it folks-really good!)ate a bunch of food(i really thought i was abt to pop coz damn,it was gluttony)and dance the day away.we also had spicy hot chicken that got us teary-eyed, i wasnt expecting it would be so spicy.u should our faces while we were munching those.and last but not the least i went to a resort and got a tan.hahahaha not really a tan but it was a tan but nevermind...so its pretty much it this week.some more coming up! x) how abt u guys? hows ur weekends?

Jecarecollection! well we finally finished all our exams in this quarter and also finally had our recollection. as you know, studying in catholic school requires this things where you recollect all the things that had happened to you in this year as so for the preparation for the coming year... it was fantastic! having young facilitators inspiring us. it was great, im happy i was able to come join and enjoy.it gave life a whole new meaning.thanks to team!honestly...

Jecarenovation! ok now...eka already moved out, and im so ecstatic i forgot to celebrate!haha! juz kiddding.check out her blog, mates!!its cool. well enuf of that already, ima tell what happened to me this past few weeks. as you can see i havent got time to log in cuz its already our 3rd semester and its the shortest semester this year and those freakin teachers are trying to squeeze in loads and tons of freaking work for us.man...i cant wait for our recollection thingie.but we still have to take our exams first before anything else so im stuck here at home white eyed.eka me and another classmate paige, is up to somehing again.*grin* no! not that something but we were kinda writing this story something . my aunt already arrived from las vegas. Actually she’s been here since last week but because I was so busy Im not able to write it until now. Well that’s about it.see you guys next time!ciao

Jecabless us all who wants to be ordinary in this crazy mixed up world?- m.branch hey...its been ages.i haven't written since when?!uh nevermind.i haven't got time to log in cuz its our exams.pretty rough.but i think ill do fine.anyway about my previous entry i wont tell who HIM really is.eka might find out and she'll tease me to death!i feel really great this past few days...i dunno maybe because ive been cool around HIM now since that err frustrating day when he err did that really devastating thing he did that err really really broke my uhmm already broken heart...WHOA wake up to reality baby! get a grip!talk abt lameness... its just sometimes we need other people to make us realize how blessed we are or how much we're getting.often times we forget how important something or someone is till its gone POOF. x)

Jecawhere's my gifts? well well well....i haven't written since my birthday...im already 14!!nothing much happened really..juz celebrated at our house wit my whole family(that's why it rocked)and had a pizza party!!hehe my fave food and that's it...anyway..this week had been a pretty busy week.i joined the speech choir and all...there were many reporting and projects here and there.my classmates are such a jerk!the teachers are unbelieveable...uhhhggrr...good thing we did something today...we played billiards! hehe i suck big time!we were supposed to be going to the theater to watch exorcicst but we changed our minds for some reasons.... *sigh* got to go ta ta x)

Jecalove is all around When ur in luv with someone,you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them. At that moment, you are in love. Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh, your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone. Then, you are in love. Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival, your phone is quiet. You are desperately waiting for the call! At that moment, you are in love. If you are much more excited for one short e- mail from that special someone than other many long e-mails, you are in love. When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the messages in your answering machine because of one message from that special someone, you are in love. When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would not hesitate to think of that special someone. Then, you are in love. You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend", but you realize that you can not avoid that person's special attraction. At that moment, you are in love. While you are reading this page, if someone appears in your mind, then u are in love with that person. and the person in my mind is 'him'.....

Erika Jessica! I can't believe you started this thing with such a lame topic. I will so hate you for the rest of my life, lolz. Just kidding! Otso otso? Yikes!!! That song shouldn't be accepted, what is it with us filipinos? One time, while I was in the trycicle, I heard different verions of spaghetti (i think). I mean not versions, its like just the tono but different lyrics. The last I remember was the title as kili-kili (armpit in english). Its like this "..kili-kiling mabantot pabaho ng pabaho, kili-kiling maitim, paitim ng paitim..." (...an armpit which smells will keep on getting smelly while and armpit which is dark will keep on getting darker...). I mean duh!!! That is sooooooooooo lame!!! People gets lamer and lamer nowadays, hopefully me and the people I know won't be affected... Eww!!! The worst movie I've seen? Its titled as "The Nightmare". Its a Japanese (i think) horror film with English subtitle. I mean I have seen lots of Japanese horror films and they're all the same! This one isn't even scary! Can you guess if its a he/she? Tell you what... ITS ALWAYS A SHE!!! Can you describe her? The usual, long hair, dark eyes... You know! Thos kind of stuff! I just hate those films. Remind me not to watch those Jap horror films again... *sigh* Long tests are up and I have to study hard for me to answer them.. Oh well... Ahh... Bite me... (lolz)

Jessica about the movie "bone-snatcher" it is the second worst movie i ever seen...its so lame and boring...and worthless...and thinking that we spend 65 bucks for that stupid movie...i discourage all the movie producers and film maker to stop sponsoring that movie...or even don't create such worthless movie... do you wonder what is the first worst movie i ever seen...its mandy moore's "try seventeen" uhhhhhhh.....so disappointing....i really like the cast...mandy and elijah but story and the plot really sucks...its so annoying...we didn't even try to finish it cause were so throw up! so what's your worst movie......