well last night pretty much sucked. i was a total dick to Lauren and i hate it when i'm a dick to her i really love her and she is the best thing that has ever happened to me and i always take her for granted and i shouldn't. but anyways we just hung up instead of sleeping on the phone together like we usually do. then today i woke up at 8 and went to work till 4. then at 4 mom, debbie, and Lauren came and got me and we went to a party. which was pretty lame but Lauren was there to make it all a lot of fun. so we were at the party till like 9 or so and we started home. on the way home we picked up my to brothers and then we went to Laurens dropped her off and went home. i came in my house and put my stuff in my room then i went downstairs and sat and watched some TV with billie. then Lauren asked me to call so i did. so now we are talking and i'm sitting alone in my room missing her like crazy even though i just saw her. i just wish we didn't have to be apart so much. i'm longing to hold her in my arms so badly.