Right, did I actually think I would graduate by december? Good god im a slacker, but it doesnt help that Ashworth is slow as hell... Anyway Peace Corp meeting tonight, from the response of my loved ones, I doubt im joining. It should be interesting though. JP has been my email buddy since hes left, kinda weird, maybe not as weird as his last night here though. Okay I dont want to think about it. As for my future, ill see how tonight goes, do some more research then decide my fate. ------Memento Mori----Remember Your Mortal--

    And so the year is almost over, we dont have as much snow as I would like, but Im sure we'll have a blizzard sooner or later.. it is almost the end, but I have a new begining to look forward to, some people should(need) also be looking at it that way. But no, so I still cringe at the fact that a certain someone, complains and complains that he does nothing right and cant get a girl, blah blah. Whats most annoying about this is, he has potential he just likes to give excuses for everything, certainly doesnt try to improve himself . He thinks he needs somethiing, cant do another and so sabotages all chance just by thinking that. He does not need a "girlfriend" No one wants you attached at the hip. Especially since most females are looking for a strong man, who they can put their head on His shoulder, not the other way around.(of course I dont, but I dont want a goddamned pansy either) Its great that hes sensitive and stuff but, we are all based on Darwins Theory.... alright no more complaining about him, but goodness sometimes he sickens me.    Newho in the span of the last few days Nichole has been sworn into boot camp, and we havent heard from her. That of course is because she used all her minutes on the scumbag John. Our goodbye breakfast wasnt at all that great. I hope she makes this the best, and recieves only good from her experience . I believe she really needs it. As for CanCan. Hmmm. The things that girl does scares me. I dont understand her at all. She moved out awhile ago and, well isnt as nice as we all thought she was. Oh and for some reason I have been very lazy lately.....

        Change is inevitable, the change for now I believe is for the good, and hopefully will stay positive. But I know that there can be no yin without the yang, no positive w/out the negitive. S0OO i will try to focus on what is good, and be sure not to ignore that which is bad. Because I also know that you cannot grow until you experience the pain and the pleasure. Okay....Many new faces have been swarming into view, some not so pleasant some almost charming. All of it has been fun. Homework is still goin a little slow but it will be finished eventually. It makes me happy though knowing I will be graduated with my associates when all the other boys and girls will be graduating highschool. And no i dont mean that in a bitchy way. So thank you mo and po....

Hello sit diary....I totally forgot about this place....and i dont know how more than half of my entries became private....theres too many to go through and nothing to interesting, so no one is missing anything, but still, very wierd. Well life has been very interesting, im sure I say that alot but you know. I saw Brenda at the Walmart, but she was leaving so i didnt get to say anything, she looked nice, and happy. Ive been seeing alot of the people I used to know. Majority are assholes or losers, but the ones who are nice, make it worth while. Halloween was fun almost got kicked out of the graveyard by some wierdo firefighter volunteers, stalking us in the darkness. We werent defacing anything, so he couldnt do too much. The year is almost gone and alas, although much has been progressed my homework has fallen behind, ignored by more pressing matters. And to the breakage of my heart Tarja has been kicked out of Nightwish. Its a good thing she was nothing but the voice and face.

DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE I AM DONE!

here is a poem that i enjoy, it matches my name somewhat Putting Needles In My Eye Im afraid ive told a lie Ive given back the chance No longer can I danse Thinking something macabre Hoping I cant be robbed Knowing I have nothing left Consumed by your givin death I did it all for the right reasons I've lived for all the wrong Drifting with the seasons and mourning to your song.....

well so far summers been interesting, i keep getting behind on my hmwk tho no motivation, just thinking about it puts me in a sour mood, yea.... cannot wait for october

Im trying to be positive but everytime i come on to this poopy thing all that comes to my mind is all my complaints, problems and letdowns. Maybe in my surroundings the bad outweighs the good, or maybe im just a negative person-nah- or maybe i should just change the background to neon yellow, that might change my mindset.......i could always just go back to my old blogger, well i just like typing right now so i can go on and on and on and on and on and so on : -

Yesterday was so weird I got my snake "sexed"-i.e.gender determined(ive had it for 2 years and never got it done) but nehow so i went to the pet store afterward and was flocked by a bunch of kids wanting to pet him, yes its a boy-it was a little embarassing. But before that an old lady was smiling at me then looked down saw Sauda Severus, screamed and ran out the pet store. I felt a little guilty, but come on its just a snake. And then there was this himbo who thought i said my snake just had sex and was being a half-wit..it was just wrong. I had to stay there because my sister had to go to sams club or something and obviously i couldnt take my snake in there so it was a tad unpleasant waiting there like a mascot. Then I went home and have been working on homework...I finally like it -yay- I should be graduated by december or earlier if I put more effort...Alas my computer is breaking, damn dell! The headphone jack is breaking, so is the cord for the battery and ahh its breaking my heart

Well, I was doing my homework and im working on a test and a whole chapter is missing, wtf is that? I only have three more questions to go and i have to wait for them to send me a whole new textbook. great bollocks so now it will take five days to complete when it could have taken one--ashworth makes me angry sometimes....well i will try to be positive, it will give me some time to play vb---hahahahaha ok sorry

Nightwishwishwish.....ya im bored so i thought id change my pic again-back to nightwish- i believe i may be obsessed with that band, newhooos these past days have been very weird, too much to write but ahhh theres one situation that is nagging at me..oh well..hmmmmmm we'll all get over it sooner or later, yuppp i think im gonna go take a walk, its a nice night and lots to think about.... in the words of Tuomas Holopainen Time devours passion`s beauty

Ohhhhhhh......well im not sleeping today, maybe ill get some tomarrow, well i hope so anyway,----- nehows i was informed that the world is flat today, you either stay in the middle of yours or you will tip over--isnt that lovely???? ps cancan do you likeyy

i understand now, and i hope a certain someone feels better

My heart Is drowning in loveblood....

My life at times feels like a waterfall and I feel like I am in the shadows of the water in the depths plummeting down. Sometimes I feel as if I have no direction and more oft than not I feel as if I am fighting the current.---from the mouth of a poet....oh candice....hahahaha I also feel like that sometimes just not in such a lovely way

J'ai mis sais pourquoi que je jamais ai soigné de gens, pourquoi je me les permettent de fais si émotif. Je pense que j'ai appris une leçon pour ne jamais prévoir n'importe quoi des gens et mis a mis à beaucoup aussi bientôt dans comment vous vous sentez vers eux. Je semble faire cela, et alors j'ai mis sais agir. Bien Malade essayer d'expliquer l'améliore plus tard mais maintenant je le veux juste hors.

Maybe I dont want to know......

well today was the wierdest day....i wont elaborate as to how but it was, and the best part was my white mocha with choclte mint.... people can be so cruel, but why do we allow them to be first? -in the meadow of sinful thoughts every flowers a perfect one-