Two days ago, i just kept walking to the window... wanting it to rain so bad. I dont know what it is about the rain, but i love being in it. Finally it started, so i went outside. It wasnt raining all that much, and i kept wishing it would start pouring.. n then finally it did. I loved it.. i just love the feeling, i wus just getting soaked, and i didnt care. It started to hail tho.. and it kindah hurt, cus i wus wearing a tank top.. an i got all these red marks on me.. but i didnt care.. i just kept walking, and getting soaked. I just thought about evrything, and it all seemed way clearer. Finally tho.. it hurt way to much the hail wus almost the size of a golf ball.. so i walked inside one of those bus stop things... and someone gave me a ride home. I loved it. Then the next day, i went to the stampede with maria. I love being with her, i just remember old times.. and forget about evrything else thats going on. God, i miss her. It wus fun tho.. i met tuns of people, lol she has so many new friends.. lol.. but theres this one guy, almeer, haha odd name.. but i talked 2 him for like 5 minutes, lol and he wus super nice.. pretty good looking too lol. i lvoe meeting new people. And mervin, lol hes really funny. Julian, tnx for helping me with the ride lol.. haha im sry, i wus scared.. but ur really awsome.. the fireworks were soo awsome too. Anonymous- I'm not even sure if u read these things.. but im gonna say it anyways. I didnt mean to hurt u, make u mad, or anything like that. I didnt mean to make u think that i didnt care. I do.. really. Just sometimes, i get so worked up with everything, and i dont know what to do. I know its not fair, and im gonna try... im sorry Anyways.. I havent noticed it, but i wus worrying soo badly, about another person, and someone... and today, i read something about that person do something with someone else, and wow.. it clicked in. God, im doing the exact same thing. I know this person never meant to make me like... ughh, i guess its jealous.. yepp. i am. wow, god lol. i dont want to be at all.. and i thought that lately i havent been getting jealous over this person.. but really, i have. Just, things were kindah getting better with us. I mean, i dont know.. liek were together more, an sometimes i still feel like things are wierd.. but idunno. Im not intentionally trying to hurt, or make things difficult with anyone else.. i just understand how there feeling. Maybe not on the same level, but god.. i wish theyd just tell me.. there sucha awsome person, really... and i have more of an idea what there talking about.. as soon as they mentioned that one name. Thats all ice gotta say right now tho.. Xo Chels oX