This shitty diary site... I tried writing an entry the other night, but of course it didnt save, like usual. Greg is back in town. I have tons of mixed feelings. I dont know what to think anymore. I am so fucking sick of guys. I hate guys who wanna act like they want you, then want your friends, the NASTIEST friends at that!

Andre is his name, the new boyfriend. He's great, my family and friends love him. Only issue is that Detroit thing. So yea, anyway, besides that, CRYSTAL and AMBER and KIM and ANNA are havin babies! Exciting, isnt it? I think Holly will be next.... lol jk. Donny is going to marry Angie.... this summer! For anyone who wants to go... it will be in my yard lol hopefully we dont have the same police issues as the last 2 backyard weddings. So I got my whore cut (hair cut) and its so crazy, i mean, it fits my personality but its kinda shorter than I'm used to. Cody is in Allegan with Jessica and Izaiah, living in Kenji's trailer, how productive, right? So yea, anyway. I cant wait to go to chicago, 2 more weeks! HOW FUN! Well, yea, thats the boring update of my very non-interesting life. CALL ME!

Its so funny how fast things change! I mean, I am sitting here now, looking at the past year and just wondering why I did the things I did and why I didnt do the things I know now that I should have done. I should have been the one to make the move on him, not let her get to. But Im over that. I should have stayed on Abbey ct. I should have been there when stomper and cody needed me. But most of all, I should have videotaped the parties. Its been an amazing year, dont get me wrong. I learned so much about myself this year. With going to Florida, Georgia, Tennessee, and then doing it again at the end of the year too, and all of my time in Chicago. I know a lot more than I did a year ago. I worked this year for the first time in my life, and I enjoyed it but the reason I quit is because I couldnt stand the evil co-workers, it was too much to handle. I know who my friends really are, and arent. I had so much fun and learned so much responsibility. I moved in with cody in may, but he got locked up 2 weeks later. I did it on my own. I held it down while he was locked up. And when he got back, I was good to him. I held it down when Stomper got locked up too and I was good to him when he got back. The point is, I am so happy that I am finally really happy! I found someone who no one can ever compare to... it was so perfect at first but then he realized that I was not ready for what he wanted me to be. But I am... so now, I am trying so hard to get it together and prove to him that I am everything he could ever want me to be. And I will get him. And as long as I live, that will be all that I need. I am just trying to figure out one thing.... if i wanna have a lil fun before I get there ;) Either way... its gonna be ok. Jessica had the baby, but I just cant trll if it's cody's or not. His name is Izaiah CJ Hazle (CJ is for Cody & Jessica) its a cute name, and I hope it is Codys for Jessica's sake because if its not, she will be dead. Here's my baby! What else is new... My cousin Jessica came here on October 1st, but we left eachother when I came back from Georgia. We had a great month together, going back and forth from Holland to Chicago, we went through so much together in that month, grew a lot closer. And then finally he trip to Tennessee and Georgia was amazing. I had a lot of fun. She is coming back to Illinois now so I guess I will be makin the trip again a lot. We've spent a lot of time in Chicago together, its been amazing, heres me, Jess and Mel in October at George's house. Mini geez is gone now. We had him living here for 6 months. but it was too much for4 my parents to handle he kept getting in trouble with the police. I feel bad for him but he needs to learn. Oh well. So anyway, things are just crazy but im so excited to know what is going to happen next... maybe im just being weird. I wanna go to the club with Holly and Lee really bad now... we gotta go out and look all hot and just wow the crowd! So yea. Thats all I can really say...

I cant believe how long its been... since the last entry... lol Lee's entry, Stomper went to jail on july 9th, I went to visit him 2 times, once here in ottawa county and once in van buren county, where I picked him up on his out date (September 6) now he lives with me. We moved on Friday, we live on the other side of town and out of the ghetto. Hopefully he will stay out of trouble. Cody has been locked up i think 3 times since july 1st when he was released maybe 4 times, this last time he was arrested at my apartment i think 2 weeks ago, hes supposed to get out on october 5th but who knows. Ummmmm Julie got out on August 20th and shes been doing ok but she went back into her old habits. Everything is so fuckin crazy right now and theres things i really dont wanna say. I have been talking to all of my old friends a lot more lately hangin out with crystal and amber a lot more, holly got a job shes been working 3rd shift like every night but thats good, im really happy for her. its so early, its 7:25 am and i barely slept last night, i think cuz i was scared and stomper left yesterday at 1:30 pm but hasnt been back since, not that it surprises me... lol thats an every day thing but i aint trippin that aint my man. So yea, anyways i gotta go i gotta give this kid a ride to school before my mom starts trippin.

Hey Hey Hey, this is Lee. Eve's dealing with PoPo right now so i'm writing an entry for her. lol Too much partying for that chica! lol Man, wish i had been there thursday ;-) I just dun saw that biotch like 2 hours ago. Hoochie momma made me stand out in the pouring rain to talk to her lol Anyways, she wanted me to write an entry, but i dunno what to write about. Basically she just wanted me to post some pics. so here they are: Neveah (Heaven spelt backwards, such a cool name. I love it) That's Cassie's daughter. I think Eve said she was born on June 29th? I dunno, it's whatever Andi's b-day is. Eve, Cody & Stomper. I guess that's it. Later Days. ~LeeLee~

Wow... so a lot has happened. Some stuff just cant be said... I've been partying at my house every night, drinking, staying up until the sun comes out. My neighbors are really cool; Greg, Tj, Jeff, Yolanda, Kewana they're nice, I chill with TJ and Greg almost every day. Now I chill with Ysmael, Nate, their friends, the gay bitch (pam of course), Chameka, Sophie, Holly, Sammie and whoever else pops up. CASSIE HAD HER BABY!!!!!!!!!! She is so beautiful but I guess Tyrese isnt gonna be around to see Nevaeh, his beautiful daughter. I've been working full time. Ryan and I broke up on the 10th of June, Pam decided to tell him that I was fuckin with a fine ass black guy named greg and that hes my man now. Ok, well no thats not true. And Ryan was TRIPPIN. But we're cool, he has a new girlfriend now named Beth. I feel bad tho cuz on Sunday I went to his house and spent the night and ended up having sex with him and he was with Beth, thats bad. But oh well. He's weird. My life is so crazy right now. I got a new cell phone, my dad bought it for me. Ummmmm Cody is getting out of lock up tomorrow morning we have to be there at 9 to get him. Oh him and Jessica are having a boy! I am so excited. Well, I dont have time to chit chat, I have to finish my laundry and then go home to my party apartment and clean that fuckin mess. Oh, it was so sweet, I got home yesterday and heard water running in the kitchen so I went to look and it was ysmael CLEANING! Awwwww lol ok well thats all.

I always think I have it figured out, how stupid can I be???I have no idea what to do about anything, my whole world is crashing down. Ryan got so mad at me on Memorial day, he found the letter that Chad wrote me. "Oh! He loves you! Oh get rid of that man? Oh! He misses you?! Why did you cheat on me with Chad!?!?!" No matter how much I tried to explain that hes just my friend, Ryan is an idiot. So when he ripped it up, I ended it, I cant deal with the jealousy and the control and the way he talks to me, its too hard. But I feel so bad. He needs help, hes so psychotic. I bought a rose for his moms grave and thats when he decided to carve my name into his arm. I was so mad. I wish I knew what to do. I dont think I want to be with him but I dont know, I mean I dont want to be mean. Cody is in juvy, I lost my best friend again. Renee is here from New York but I havent had a chance to see her really. I guess Her, Collin, Mitch and Sam came over last night but I was gone. I have been hangin out with my 2 neighbor guys they are pretty cool. I went to chicago with pam over the weekend, I got a tattoo of a monkey holding a banana on my upper back, its cute. Nothing feels the same anymore. I dont have any friends because of Ryan, because I chose to be with him and no one likes him, so now they dont like me. I barely see Crystal and Andi. Adam and Dawn are coming over tonight, or so they said. I just dont know anymore. Katie is getting her new ID so shes giving me her old one so I can go out to the bars. All I have been doing is working and going to class, how fun is that. I dont fuckin know what to do anymore. This will probably be my last entry for a while, I am stayin at my house now. You all know my address, so write me, its the only way to keep in touch.

Ok, so Jessica got Julie locked up shes probably going to placement for 2 years. So of course Cody was going insane. But its ok, cuz two days later Cody went to Jessica's to get a cell phone she said he could have, and he was banging on the door at midnight and Luis, Jessicas mom's boyfriend, told him to go away or hes calling the police, cody said, "FUCK YOU!" and Luis called the police and told them Cody was walking home. The police pulled up to Cody and were nice, they were like, "Cody, you're not in trouble we just want to ask you what your side of the story is" and he said, "Fuck you pig! Stupid mother fuckers" and spit on them, so they tackled him down, he punched them and kicked them, well they finally got him down and arrested him, so he is locked up at least until his birthday which is the 4th of July. Isnt that lovely??? Last night, Me, Ryan and Sammie were chillin at the apartment and TJ, the neighbor, came up and asked for a cigarette, so we gave him one and asked him to chill for a lil bit, he got in one of the pics we took, and he shared his hennessy with us. Then I drank my 40 of 211 mmmmmmmmm yummy. Then TJ and Sammie went to the store to get me and Ryan 8 Sparks drinks. Then Dawn picked us up and brought us home. Sammie went home but me and Ryan chilled with Adam and Dawn until about 4am we played cranium and drank it was fun. Adam and Dawn are supposed to come over to my apartment tonight, hopefully we'll all chill. I dont know if Whodi, Isaac, Aaron, Mike or Joe know that Cody is locked up, and they usually stop by on Saturday nights with some E&J so they might be stopping by too. TJ said hes stoppin by tonight too. Hopefully we have fun tonight!

First of all I would like to say, dont tell your best friend you will get an apartment with them... two dayz later you will both be moved in, so will his pregnant girl. Well, Jessica is gone now, she called the police and said he choked her and a bunch of shit went down. Now the police been comin over every day. Jessica threw a fit yesterday cuz she saw hickeys on Cody's neck... from Julie! She went outside and went psycho so they had to take her to the hospital and shes threatening to kill herself so shes in the psych ward and on 24 hour suicide watch. Stupid bitch. I hate girls who think just cuz they are pregnant with someone, that he has to stay with them, especially if the bitch is a hag. Oh well. George and Melissa came last Friday, the day before we moved in, and are still at my house. I have no phone and no internet for now, which really sux. So my only contact with the world is mail.... SOMEONE SEND ME SOME MAIL!!!!!!!!! OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Chad is the coolest cuz even tho its been over a year, I got my letter and drawing! How exciting! I dont get mail too often, so I get really excited when I do. Anyway, I went out drinking at Johnny's last night with Pam and Sammie. And of coruse Samantha was there. Samantha was hittin on me and Sammie all night, weird bitch. So was Johnny, I had to tell him I was straight up lesbian but he still tried to get with me. It was a crazy night, he kept trying to leave and hes on teather so it kept going off and when the people called he said he was in the shower lol. It was weird. Oh well, I am hung the fuck over so I gotta go! SEND ME SOME MAIL! Its my mommas birthday today :) Shit I have jury duty on the 18th me no like.

Happy Birthday Crystal,its her b-day cuz its actually 2:11 am on May 6th. Lee just went to pass out in the bed, Ryan been sleepin up there for a couple hours, me n Holly just sittin here chillin sippin on some sparks n coronas mmm hmmm chillin havin a good time. Saturday night was so fuckin fun! George and Melissa came, it was Holly's birthday. Me, George, Holly, Melissa, Sammie, n Nicholas were chillin n drinkin, damn it was fun. We took mad pics n Sammie took one of my ass, I was dancin all up on George n Sammie's ass decided to take a pic... I'm gonna kill her. I'm a lil buzzed so this probably aint makin sense. But yea, I am goin in the morning with COdy n Jessica to look at an apartment we might get. Hit me up with a comment... I never get ne. I'm out... I'm drunk as fuck n cant type ne more.

Every time I try to write an entry it doesnt save.... well since the last entry, heres whats been happening. I've been at Ryan's mostly. April 17th... I was having a bad day, then when I took a shower that night at about 8, Ryan came in with the phone and said, "Its your mom something is wrong" and I got the phone from her and she was crying. "Nanny died, George is on his way up from Chicago, hes going to pick you up." My grandmother was sick for years, but it was normal, I didnt actually think she would ever die. So George got there at about midnight or so, we went to pick up Melissa in Grandville and then went to Holland. The 4 of us got a hotel room and hung out. The next day, at my house things got crazy. My 2 uncles, Tim and Dale, and my cousin Adrienne came up from Chicago to go through my nannys stuff. They spent the night and all of us "kids" got to set up the camper and sleep in there. We got so fucked up. The next day we all had to go to Chicago. It was Ryan's first time. I had to drive there. George got pulled over and got his license taken away, thanks in part to me. We were driving side by side and Ryan handed him a cigarette out the window. The cop pulled right in between us and chose George. We got there ok. My parents and sister got a hotel room, and at the last minute decided to get me and Ryan our own room, which we let George and Melissa stay in with us. It was fun. We got to drive around the city the first night, its so magical, my favorite place in the world. Anyway, the wake was weird, my nanny didnt look like herself. I got to see a lot of my family and old family friends that I havent seen in years. She got burried in Graceland Cemetary, so we drove through there and looked at the famous graves and went back to the hotel. The next day we left and George got pulled over AGAIN. But it was all good. Ryan and I went back to his house that night, and I just came home on Sunday. I need some time away. Friday night I am going out partying with Pam, and Saturday is the Fireworks... CANT WAIT! Last night I chilled with Pam, but before that I hung out with Crystal and Sammie, then Sammie and Cody, then Sammie and Dawn (we went shopping and I got CUTE sunglasses and lipgloss) and then I went to Pams. So yea, what a life. I'm about to finish scanning pictures of Nicole that Chrissy brought over then I think I'm going to bed. Theres my update!

Florida was so fuckin fun! Me, Amber and the baby went with Kim and Brian (Ambers mom and brother). They stayed in Ocala, we stayed in Inverness. We hung out with Janea and Chelsea most of the time. We stayed at a campground, it was full of old people, but at least it was clean and it had a pool. On Monday morning, Amber's grandma took us to Enterprise to get a rental car, and the whole time we were PRAYING we didnt get a Ford Focus... and what do they pull up for us? A FUCKING FORD FOCUS. I hate those cars. This was a 2003, it had only like 30,000 miles on it, but it was a piece of shit. The mirrors couldnt adjust cuz they were broken, you couldnt shut the trunk without the key because it was broken, the cigarette lighter thing didnt work so we couldnt charge the phone, the car made a bunch of funny noises and all the buttons were pushed in so we couldnt change the time or anything. It was bad. THEN we decided to go to Janea and Chelsea's softball games right? Well Amber was getting the babys stuff out and I handed her her purse. THEN she decided not to bring the purse so we locked all the doors and went to watch. Well, we lost the key and had a bunch of people looking around for it, then the coach let us use his phone to call a locksmith, and we had to pay $50 to get the car unlocked. The key was in Amber's purse. I caught tree frogs! Well, I didnt but Amber and Janea did. We tried to catch the lizzard things but those fuckers are fast. Chelsea and Janea caught one and hung it from Amber's ear, i was gonna keep it but after a minute amber screamed and it got scared and ran away. Me, Amber, Clayton (the baby), Amber's grandpa, Amber's cousin Robbie (Hes like 17 and from South Haven) and Ambers cousin Sarah (She is also from SOuth Haven) and Sarah's baby Lexi all went out on their grandpa's boat. It was fun, but kinda scary. There was a little alligator in the water, so we took pictures of it. We picked oranges and bananas from the trees in her grandpas yard, they were good. Oh I got my ear pierced in Webster, at the flea market. Awwww and we were talking about these mentally retarded twins that went to Janea and Chelsea's school, they were so cute. Their names were like Matthew and Joey. I guess the Disney channel is going to make a movie about them. Thats so sweet. Hmm what else did we do... oh yea! On Sunday we went to Pine Island, which is right on the gulf. Well, since it was our first day there, my first time in FLorida, we were all excited. Ambers whole family went and we were just chillin, all laying out. Well, I fell asleep in the sun. No one bothered to tell me that the sun in FLorida is different than the sun in Michigan. So my back is alllllllll burned. And I have a nice little tan line on my back from my shirt going up while I was sleeping. Oh and Paris Hilton was there but left the day before we got there. hmmm OH yea! We went to Tarpon Springs. I love it! Its the cutest little Greek town! It made me miss the family so much! Haha oh yea! We went to the gas station one night after coming back from Janea and Chelsea's and I went in and the guy was speaking Spanish to me, and i was like, "I speak English" and then he said something else. Well, I live around tons of Mexicans so of course I know he said my eyes are beautiful. But I was kinda ignoring him a little, but being nice. it was just kinda funny I dunno. Yesterday we got home and I went straight to RYans. Yea more driving! It was a 2 day trip each way. The way there, we stopped in Calhoun, Georgia and spent the night. On the way home we stopped in Monteagle, Tennessee and spent the night. It was fun though. SO yea. Ryan and I picked up Amber last night, I guess her and papa d were fighting or something cuz his mom gave him $25 to get the baby an easter basket while we were in Florida, and he went to the bar and spent it so I would be mad too. Anyway, we all went to Crystals and talked to her for a little bit, then Cara came over. Ryan got his hair cut and highighted it looks so good! Oh yea but me and Ryan left Crystals and those 3 went to a party at Lisa Mobley's house, I didnt wanna go cuz I didnt wanna see my stupid kinda brother in law, JT. But yea thats been my interesting week. OH yea we saw an armadillo lol. ANyway, thats all I can think of to say right now. OH! ANd I guess on Friday, the 2nd, after I already left, Maria fuckin took the kids and moved to Oklahoma. I didnt even get to say goodbye. Neither did Donny and hes their dad. Man Im sittin here feeling like I'm gonna die. I fuckin helped her raise those kids, I miss them so much and to think that I might not see them again is killing me so bad.

Its all so different, but it all feels so comfortable. I dont know what I would do if anything changed. I just dont know. I know it wont last forever, but I am comfortable with it. Even when I'm not, I cant imagine what I would do without it. Everything changed over the past 2 months. I dont know anything anymore, I feel so distant from my friends and everything that used to be important to me, but now this is important to me. *On another note....* Your whole life you're taught that family is the most important thing, right? And bad times should bring your family closer... it kills..... the pain is so horrible. He is gone, I understand... but she doesnt need to have a fiance 5 months later living in his house and replacing him... not when she says he was the love of her life. And Victroia, what did i do? I didnt even know what was going on, he left it to her, what can I say? But its your mother with another man in your dads bed... and thats ok. I am sorry for your loss, but I am more sorry that you're taking it out on the people you have always known to count on, the people who have done nothing to you... your family. And I especially feel sorry that I spent 18 years looking up to you, wanting to be you... my favorite cousin. But I guess it doesnt matter anymore........ "I have nothing to say to you, Eva" Fuck You too.

Pam is having the baby today, at 12:30 actually. Karissa Paige Hazle now, thats so cute. Its Emily's birthday. Ryan is going home today I think. Amber talked to me on my birthday, we're going to Florida on April 2nd all ealy in the morning for a week woo hoo. I have never been to florida lol. I hope its fun. Man this weekend was fun but I dunno kinda weird. Friday was my birthday, so me and Ryan went to his cousin Kyle's house. So many ppl came to party it was crazy. This KFC kept hitting on me and I saw a couple of ppl I knew but I didnt talk to them. We got stuck there until sunday. Saturday night we chilled, not as many ppl were over. Kasara was there with her baby in the morning. Anyway, Saturday night the KFC brought over mardi gras beads and I was flashing him and kyle for the beads. I got all the beads in my closet right now. Woo hoo. But yea. I gotta go get ready I am about to go up to the Hospital in a little bit here to see Karissa. Its only like 11:05 am and I am awake.... scary. Congrats to Sarah! http://www.hollandsentinel.com/stories/032104/eng_032104106.shtml shes so cute in the pic! We had to put the dog to sleep yesterday :( it was sad I felt so bad she started bleeding out of her nose and then she fell and didnt move for a few hours sad sad sad. Anyway gotta go, gotta wake Ryan up and get him ready.

Its my birthday today! I'm 19 now. I feel kinda old. Hehe I wonder if my family or friends will remember. Holly called all early this morning. Ryan is upstairs sleeping but he yelled at me when i said good morning, he probably forgot lol oh well no biggie. Melissa came over on Wednesday (Her birthday!) and we chilled with Holly and Ryan. George was trippin bad cuz he couldnt be here. I got to chill with Cody yesterday for a while. He works at Burger King now. Pam is having the baby on Tuesday! I am so excited. Whats with all these March birthdays???? Me, Mel and Nai are all 2 days apart, Mel's is the 17th, Mine is the 19th, and Nai's is the 21st awww how cute! I dunno what im gonna do, im gonna go see crystal in a little bit and see what she wants to do. OMG! Megan and Dan got a new house right? Well we went over there on Tuesday night. We had a lot of fun, got drunk played the hackey sack thing oh am I good at that lol not really but it was still fun. I got pretty drunk. Then I slept at Crystal's that night, I was so tired. But yea. Jerry got out of jail, and is living back at Ryan's so of course i had to see him and of course he was drunk when i got there at like 2 in the afternoon and trying to give me hugs and kisses. Eewwwww. Damn I never know what to write in here. So yea. ME and MEL made the coolest little bong things they are so cute! Oh yea Mel got to sleep over on Sunday night! George let her! We went and got on birth control lol on Monday. See George came up for the weekend and I was at Ryans so george came to ryan's and they spent the night there with us. Fun. I love Ryans house, its so fun. We can do anything we want. Hmmmmmmmmmm oh! My uncle donald's wife is getting married in february. MY FUCKING UNCLE JUST DIED IN SEPTEMBER! She already moved her man in and is marrying him. She sent a big box of pictures to my uncle Ernie and aunt Maria. I hate her. I cant walk down the block without seeing her man driving my uncles car, sitting in my uncles chair, anything and I hate it. Yea its good to move on, but not so fucking fast. And now I hear that this Richard character (the boyfriend) has been trying to get with her for a while now, even before donald was dead. SO ok this bitch is getting whats comin to her....... if i go to jail ppl better write me.

Its been a long ass time since I wrote in here, I didnt even think it would be this long. I've been chillin with the boyfriend for the past 2 weeks. I went there on a saturday and stayed until thursday and then we came to my house. I took him to the cemetary his mom is burried in and we saw her grave, I felt so bad. And we went to Crystals for a little bit and Adam and Dawns for a little bit. We went back to his house moday and came home yesterday (monday, a week later) it was fun. George and Mel came out on Sunday and they slept over at Ryans with me that night. Last night I went to the hotel with George, Mel and Hol. But these past 2 weeks with Ryan were CRAZY! His hickabilly friends were getting to me, they were nice, some of them, but some were just annoying. EVERY single girl in that town is knocked up and they were all like, "You should get pregnant too" I was like "um no thanks" all i could think was GOD PLEASE NO I can not be stuck in a hick town all knocked up with a hillbilly baby fuck that. Not now. LoL oh well. All these people just roll out of bed, not showering, throw on DIRTY JNCO pants and ecko shirts, THINKIN THEY LOOK GOOD and put a shit load of gel in their hair thats too long for gel and look nasty. THEN Ryan was thinkin I was going to the skating rink where all the hillbillys hang out, who does he think hes talkin to????? Come on now. Every one of his weird friends would come over and hit on me and say im pretty and i have a nice ass and its like, "Not that you'll ever get a chance" eek it was ummmmmmmmm an interesting experience. But Ryan's dad and step mom were so nice. On Saturday his dad went out and we were sittin there with Tonya (his step mom) and three of Ryans friends came over. AND Ryans step brother, and this lady who is friends with Ryans dad and this couple who are friends with Ryans dad were there and we were drinking. Ryans friend brought a half gallon of whiskey. The lady, teresa, was all fucked up on something and she started chuggin the whiskey, and at this point we were all fucked up, we were smokin and drinkin for a little while. She started chuggin, and then got some beers and she was so trashed she started screaming at us in a weird language she finally told us was blackfoot and then she stands up and starts doing some karate shit.... to the air yellin about kickin someones ass as if someone were there. WEIRD. I carried her up the stairs and then the guys had to trick her into going outside. So they locked her out. Then Ryan and his friend left to go get something, so it was me, 2 friends of ryans, tonya and the couple that was there. Me and tonya were talkin and the drunk lady was bangin on the door so i opened it and told her that tonya left but she barged in and they had to trick her into going back outside. She threw up and spit all over the table, chairs and floor in the kitchen, i looked at tonya and was like, "Dude im bleaching it" and shes like, "Please do" and we about died from laughing. Yea some crazy times in Hickford. OMG we went to the Meijer in Benton Harbor, Me, Ryan and his friend Ted. What do they do? Act like complete rednecks in the store. Ted farted so loud and disgustingly down an aisle. They were so weird. THey're cool but weird. So yea. I havent been doing much of anything lately, havent talked to anyone or done anything. I took the math part of the GED test wooo hoooo! I kno I did good on that so I'm not trippin just yet. I have to do the rest of them now. Well yea thats basically all I've been up to. OH! We went to Chloe's birthday party in Grand Rapids. Marty and Christy picked up me and ryan and then holly and we went. Me and Holly almost got in a fight there. Some white girl who had a half black (adorable) son and big hoop earrings was giving dirty looks, and im sorry big earrings do not make you cool. And she was looking at us nasty the whole time and Holly was like, "it is rude to stare" and the girl was like "do you have a problem with me?" all loud. and Holly was like, "Yea whn you gonna stare like that I do" and she was screamin something and I let go of ryans hand and took off running at her and i was like, "You know what? This is a place for kids have SOME class" and shes like, "I have class" and i was like, "Oh really? You call running around chuck e cheese screaming at people using bad words around kids is having class?" and she was about to say something but Hollys grandma was standing right there and i was like, "whatever, just mind your own business and stop hatin on ppl just cuz ur trailer trash" and walked away, I was so mad. But its like what the fuck, KIDS are there to have a good time, but whatever some ppl are just blah. So yea, i guess im gonna go now. Just had to update this thingy.

My boyfriend is a loser and a liar. Cindy and Tiffany, I am sorry, and thanks for the info, but everyone deserves a second chance so dont fuck up.

"Have your bitch call me, I been wiating for her call what is she scared? And fuck you you're not better than anyone. Ryans mom is DEAD get a clue" ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh girl... this Cindy bitch does NOT know who shes messing with. My boyfriend's mom died this summer so of course hes still hurting over it, and not to mention talkin about me...I have never HEARD of this girl in my life. All i got to say is that this little shit talkin trailer trash disease infested wanna be skank slut needs to watch what she says. Dont spit my fuckin name if you dont know me! Why would anyone say shit so hurtful, he didnt do anything to her, shes just a hater cuz he doesnt want her, hes got me so what now? Julie was right haterz r hoez. I'm fuckin mad, I'm done. FUCK YOU CINDY

Me and Holly went to Lana's on Wednesday, had fun her kids got so big! And Thursday George came out, we saw his new car, nice. And we all went and chilled at Lana's. Last night, was the best night. We went to Ryan's house. Ity was makin me and george and melissa leave for the night so we talked to ryan and ended up going to his house. So we chilled there for a few hours, it was so fun. His dad is cool as hell. But yea we had a lot of fun. It is crazy going there because its out in the country, for real the middle of nowhere. When we left it was like 11:40 and we got lost trying to go home, ended up going the wrong fuckin way. but it was fun, I had a good time. George and Mel dropped me off at home, then left. Today I saw Crystal for a little bit for the first time since last week on Saturday, she told me to stop by tonight after she gets out of work. So I am probably gonna do that. I was so happy to see Ryan tho... its gonna be hard having a boyfriend who lives 49 miles away, but oh well it can work... I hope. Melissa asked me something last night, the same thing Holly asked me, and its kinda fucked up. Melissa was like, "Do you really like Ryan or are you trying to get back at Cody?" why would they think that? I will admit Ryan and Cody have A LOT in common, but I do like Ryan. He is my boyfriend, I wouldnt be with him if I didnt like him.

Lots of stuff has been happening. Me and Ryan are together now. Holly slept over last night. We went to Fennville yesterday and chilled with Lana for a while, it was fun. Then today George came over with his new Ford Explorer its nice, i cant believe that spoiled bitch got a new car. I dunno if this relationship will work out its just all confusing. I dunno, hes weird and he lives 60 miles away. I guess hes supposed to be up here tomorrow. Hopefully. I just dont know how things will work out, because I do like him and i dont want to hurt him. So can it work? Everything is so confusing, he talks about how much he wants to be with only me but theres still someone i cant get out of my head, and he wont get out of my head!I dont know what to do... can it work?