so i suppose i was right when i said i wouldn't keep writing. shocking. so school started, and my excitement died. i've realized that college is merely a more expensive continuation of high school. almost every aspect is the same with the exception of dorms, and quite frankly i'd rather live at home. the freedom isn't worth it. but, with the beginning of school also came the end of my loneliness as far as relationships are concerned. my friendship problems are still the same as ever, but i think it's the same with everything, i care more than everyone else. i'd just like to finish school and start my real life. this is just a big gap of time to fill with unimportant things i care nothing about. i need to do something productive and make something of myself. that's my major complaint as of right now. i can't exactly say i'm going to regret college. i have learned a lot about myself and about other people, as cheesy and cliche as that may sound, it's the truth. so for now, and possibly another few months, that's all i have to say.